Thursday, October 08, 2009
The thing I want to work on more is my stomach area aka my blashie. lol. It has always been a struggle with me to lose the excess fat in this area. It has shrunk a little but when I look in the mirror with no shirt on I'm like, "ewwwwwww. grosssss. wish tummy tucks werent so expensive." lol. So, I was wondering if anyone really has any helpful hints to get rid of the fat that is around that area.
Weigh in is tomorrow :/
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
I've had a little bit...well a lotta bit of stress in my life lately. I want it to go away :[ If you ask Tasha (Tashie321985), I stress a lot. lol. even about the littlest thing that I shouldn't stress over at all. I've always been the one to stress over the little things. I don't know why I let it all get to me. But I have been having some big stressors lately too. And then when I am stressed I eat junk food. Last night I was shoving my face with white cheddar cheez-its and finally I was like, "Ok, you gotta stop! Member you want to lose weight? Yeaaaa, put that box away!" lol So, I'm gonna vent lol.
They are my biggest stressor of all. I still live at home, being a young single mom and all. We get in these random fights every few months and I basically feel that they're telling me in the nicest way possible that I'm a piece of sh*t. It's a great feeling. lol. They tell me I don't contribute enough around the house. They're like yes, we know you go to school. we know you work but still you should be doing more around the house. Ok, soooooo right when they get home from a long hard day how come theyre allowed to just pop a squat inrfront of the tv or take a tap and not do crap around the house. But me... oh hellllllll noooooooo. According to them I should be cleaning, making dinner or some other crap. Sorry, that right when I get home I'm actually in my room studying or trying to spend some time with my daughter!!!!! So, I had been thinking about moving out but that is on hold...
Next, would be my siblings. My sister, God I love this girl to death and would do absolutely anything for her but she just pisses me off! She's friggin 24 years old and hasn't grown up yet. Mind you... she is a single mother and doesn't have her priorities straight. She says shes going to change but I don't know if she's really trying. It's hard to tell with the way the economy is if shes actually tried to look for a job or if she just doesnt care. And it's not so much her that I'm worried about anymore, its my niece, Symphany. I can't stand it when little kids have to go through crap and they can't do anything for themselves to make it better.
Then the brother... hes not my "real" brother but I think of him as one. I just don't know with him at all? Seriously, I don't know. We used to be attatched to the hip and then there were issues going on and ever since then it's been sh*t. He won't ever respond to my texts. He never wants to hang out with me. He lies right to my face when I know the truth. He just up and moved out of his mom's house and told her it's has nothing to do with her but then told his best friend that he's living with now that there are problems between him and his mom. He won't talk to me anymore even if I try to get things out of him. He's just not himself anymore (a lot of other people see it too) and it is driving me crazy!
Lovely, lovely school...oh how I loathe you. lol. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to be getting into the Winter 2010 Nursing Program. I'm in the "overflow" category but I don't know how many other people are in that category too. I know I shouldn't think that but it starts in 3 months and I got my "overflow" acceptance letter back in like July and haven't heard anything since. But I just want to know FOR SURE that I'm not in for winter... ya know? I guess I should ask. lol. But then if I get a response that is basically like, "well, I don't know" I'll just be pissed. lol. And another reason why I want to know for sure if I'm in or not is because I want to deploy before I get out of the military and that would be the perfect time because I would be doing nothing from Jan-Aug. Cause I'm pretty sure I'll be accepted into the Fall 2010 program. But if I can't depoly I'll want to sign up for classes to take to go twoards my bachelors degree. STUPID NURSING PROGRAM. lol. And then of course A&P tests just stress me out no matter what... that will never change. lol.
Well, those are my main stressors... I won't write about the little petty ones that I need to just get over! Lol. Sorry, this was long and basically a b*tch blog. lol. Last night I was wondering how I really stay sane from all of this and I looked right at my daughter and knew it was all because of her. And also my my two very best friends, Tasha (Tashie321985) and Shauna. So, to end on a happy note...I love my girls :]
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
I made today Day 1 of Level 3 for 30 DS. Man oh man was that a workout. She had me jumping and lifting weights and constantly moving all at the same time. I'm feeling pretty good and energized after the workout but I'm pretty sure I'm going to be feeling it tomorrow. Good thing I only have school. lol. I have 11 more days to go and I plan on doing Level 3 for the rest of the days. Can't wait to see the final results of my Shred :]
Monday, September 28, 2009
Soooo, I peeked on the scale today. I liked what I saw but I really need to just weigh myself on weigh in days. I've notice that when I do weight myself throughout the week that I fluctuate BIG time. I usually don't let the numbers bother me BUT what if the number I saw today isn't the same on Friday. If it's lower then onbviously I would be ecstatic but if it goes up, I will definitely be crushed. So, no more peeking on the scale this week! I am only going to get on that scale on Friday!
I've eaten really good so far today. I had an egg and cheese sandwich this morning on wheat toast with mayo. Then for lunch I got a turkey sandwhich and baked doritos at school. And I am so proud of myself because this evening I'm meeting up with a friend and I made sure that I didn't make our plans to be to go out to dinner! So, I am having spaghetti at the house :] I need to start doing that calorie deficit thing to make sure I'm eating enough calories and then working enough off too. Well, there's a new October goal. lol
Today was Day 18 of 30 DS for me! Only 12 more days to go!!! Hopefully my final results are just as good as my halfway mark results! I have been working out in the morning. There have a been a couple days where I didn't work out in the morning but I did end up working out in the afternoon or evening. So, it was all good. I had decided that on days that I didn't work I was going to do Shred and run... I haven't done that yet. I'm still trying to figure out how to fit it all in. Like on school days for me, after I put my daughter on the bus, I will either go shred or jog. Then shower, get ready for school, and eat breakfast. I was thinking that I could Shred and then right after go for a jog. But i've been noticing that when I work out in the mornings I am always soooo hungry and very tired. I don't know if it's because maybe I'm not quite used to it yet or what. Then I also said on days off I was just going to Shred. I have come to the conclusion that I can't do this. By the time I get home at 8pm I have to get my daughter ready for bed. Then it's time for homework. I'll figure something out. lol.
Just an update in my personal life. lol. My daughter is doing great in kindergarten! She got her first midterm report for the first 9 weeks and she got all "S"!!!!! I'm so proud :] Last Thursday I went in for Apple Day. They had different stations set up and they did different things with apples. I taught the kids how to measure the circumference of an apple with a string. And then they had to tape the string to the paper and use those little connector block thingies and make them as long as the string and tell me many blocks long it was. Some of those kids were just so friggin cute and some I wanted to just be like, "OMG!" lol. I met my daughter's best friend and her mother. It is too cute cause she will come home and be like "Leah this, Leah that". And one day I was just like, "Is Leah your best friend?" and she's like, "YEAH!" She's the friggin greatest kid in the world! Some days she can push my buttons but I just love that girl to deaht! She's going to be 6 in 3 months!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH! She's the greatest :]
Have a fantaulous week everyone!
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