The bestie (TASHISNOQUITTER) and I started Weight Watchers tonight. I weighed in at 175.5 lb. That is the most I have weighed in my life! I didn't even weigh this much when I was pregnant...OMG!! Weight Watchers seems easy enough...I just need to stay dedicated and plan things ahead of time. I'm already in a pickle though because I have no food in the fridge. So tonight I need to figure out my meals for tomorrow and then actually go grocery shopping after work and stock my fridge with fruits and veggies!! I'm hoping that getting into this new eating habit will get me back into my routine of working out too. I gotta take this one day at a time. I WILL DO THIS!!!!
Anyway...planning for a wedding has become a nightmare for me!! I have been googling EVERYWHERE for a venue and its either wayyyy out of my price range, not up to my standards, or the future hubby has something to complain about it. I have almost gotten to the point where I say, "Eff it" and then just go have a small ceremony on my grandma's farm in PA (which was an idea at first anyway) or elope somewhere but come to find out those options are just as expensive. I have lots of little stuff figured out though. I have someone to make my cake, do hair and makeup, photographer, DJ, and a future family member works at a bridal shop and will give me a discount on my dress. My bridesmaids have already agreed to help me with the DIY stuff and my parents are paying for food. I think when I find a venue itll make planning a little easier (at least I friggin hope so). Wish me luck!!
I was talking to my bestie and it made me realize that I have to step it up or I'll never get to my goal weight before my wedding. I have 16 months till October 2013 and I definitely need all that time to reach my goal weight and stay consistent with it. I know what I need to do in order to get there so I just need to find my will power and keep with it. One of my biggest problems is having a "cheat" meal and then continuing to eat like that at every meal for weeks and then it takes me forever to get things back together and what do you know... I have to start all over. I will eat the foods I like but I will eat them in moderation. I know that when I deprive myself of the foods I like and then have a little bit I just want more and dont stop. I will not sabotage myself when in comes to food. I just need to remember the 80/20 rule. I will not make excuses when it comes to working out. There's 24 hours in a day. I sure as hell can fit a 20 minute workout in. My main excuse is always feeling tired and I think this will change once I start being more active. Since my daughter is on summer break, I can do stuff with her and keep her active as well. I know I have to take this one day at a time and that is what I'm going to do.
Here are some engagement pictures we took last week on my grandma's farm in PA :]
I weigh about 168 lbs in these pics
Well, I've already made my workout calendar for the month of May and I've been slacking a bit. NO MORE SLACKING!! I should probably make it more visible in the house so I don't slack as much. I'm going to continue to go to Zumba as many times during the week as I can. Thursdays I play softball. I am so excited that I'm on a league! It's with my co-workers. We won our game last night :] I plan on starting Ripped in 30 at the beginning of next week. I know this helps me lose inches so I just need to suck it up and do it!! The scale isn't really moving down but I do feel like I'm losing and feel somewhat better about my look. Just gotta keep going :]
I had my military fitness test last week. I improved on everything except my waist...which I failed by 0.5". So, since I failed that, I failed all together. My enlistment is up in August so I'm getting out of the military. My superviors told me they would fight to keep me in but I told them that I have decided to not reenlist because I don't want to stress about it anymore and I need to focus on school since I failed my last class. We are about to go into an inspection so there was going to be a lot more extra training going on, plus continuing to stress about passing my fitness tests so I just had to say no to reenlisting. It sucks because I feel like I have been failing at everything but then I look at it as an accomplishment because how many people get to say they served in the military for 6 years. After I get my crap together I do hope to rejoin...maybe come in as an officer :]
Military Fitness Test
Waist - 36 (Needed to suck it in 0.5" more)
1 1/2 mile run - 14:41 (This has been my best run since boot camp!!)
Push Ups- 26 (+4)
Sit Ups - 42 (+13)
Waist - 35
1 1/2 mile Run - 15:28
Push ups - 22
Sit ups - 29
Friend's Bachelorette Weekend - next week!!
1st Wedding - 4 weeks
2nd Wedding/St. John's - 7 weeks (need to fit into that cut out bathing suit I bought!!)
3rd Wedding - 21 weeks
My Wedding - 16 Months
Seems like everything is happening all at once right now...
I was supposed to be graduating from Nursing school this weekend and that will NOT be happening because I didn't pass my last class. I knew I was borderline but it totally sucked when it became reality. After I found out that I wasn't going to pass I called my family and told them the news. Some were traveling from out of state so I felt horrible because they had already bought their plane tickets and had the time off for it. I was a mess and was crying non-stop for a few hours. But I just keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason and of course right now I don't understand why but I'm okay with it. There's days where I'm really pissed off and disappointed at myself. My fiance, friends, and family have been nothing but supportive and caring throughout all this. My family is actually still coming out to visit :] So I had to reapply to Nursing school and then the committee board or whatever will discuss "my case" and decide if they will let me re-enter and retake my last class. I should be finding out this information at the end of June. My instructor said it shouldn't be a problem for me to start back up in the fall...so we shall see. I am proud of myself though because I actually haven't been shoving my face with food like I would have before when I had this much stress going on. So YAYYY me :]
My other big stresser....military fitness test...its in 11 days. I've been going to Zumba 2-3 times a week. I've been doing my push ups and sit ups but I haven't been running :/ I'm mostly worried about my waist measurement. People tell me that it looks like I've lost weight or that it looks like I'm shrinking but I don't notice it (and the scale isn't saying much either). Of course I'm my biggest enemy. I guess we'll see how things go when I take my test.
Military Fitness Test - 11 days
Friend's Bachelorette Weekend - 3 weeks
1st Wedding - 6 weeks
2nd Wedding/St. John's - 9 weeks
3rd Wedding - 23 weeks
My Wedding - 17 Months
April is here and the weather has been nothing but crazy here in Ohio. Things have been very stressful lately but I'm trying to stay positive and keep focused with it all. Easier said that done...
1. Make a workout calendar
2. Cardio 3-4x week - Zumba, C25k
3. ST 2x week - push ups, sit ups, bodyrocktv
4. Start Ripped in 30 tomorrow
5. Fruits & Veggies!!
6. WATER!! WATER!! WATER!!
7. Food blog once a week
GRADUATING NURSING SCHOOL - 3 weeks
Military Fitness Test - 4 weeks
1st Wedding - 9 weeks
2nd Wedding (St. John's, Virgin Islands) - 12 weeks
3rd Wedding - 26 weeks
*MY* Wedding - 1 year and 6 months