Wednesday, March 21, 2012
This past weekend was a major wake up call for me. I have a military fitness test that I have to take every 6 months. Ever since the new standards came out in July 2010, I have only been able to pass it one time. My biggest issue is my waist measurement. Last time I failed it was my sit ups though (really...wtf? lol). So this past weekend my supervisors and I had to go talk to my First Sergeant and Commander (they're the big dogs of my unit). They asked me why I've been failing and blah blah blah. My Commander kept asking me if I had any health problems what so ever and I'm like "No, just stress....that's what my doctor diagnoses me with." So then he asks why I have so much stress so I give him my reasonings and he goes, "Oh." LOL!! Now, I could list out all my excuses but I'm not. I know that when I signed that dotted line that it was my responsibilty that I had to keep up with my fitness. Now I used to be able to because I had a lot more free time. My main focus right now is Nursing school and I told my Commander that. They are giving me one more change to pass and I test in May...that is 7 weeks away. I've been able to get physically fit and lose inches off my wasit in 6 weeks so I can do it again. If I fail I will get kicked out of the military. If I pass I stay in BUT I will have to continue to pass for the next two years.
So then it got me thinking of what I needed to do. My six year enlistment is actually up in Aug 2012. So I was thinking, "Ok, pass this fitness in May, get out in Aug, get your crap together with your health and fitness and then rejoin." I actually want to commission and become an officer after I get my Bachelors in Nursing so after I got that then I would rejoin...active duty. But then if I go active duty I would need to discuss this with my future husband to see how he would feel about it all because we would def be moving every 2-3 years or so and I would definitely be deploying. Then I got to thinking... well, do I want to worry and stress every single time I have to take my fitness test since I have always been so borderline on my waist measurements. Maybe if I actually got done to a 32 inch or less waist measurement then it'd be okay. So, I called my dad since he was prior active duty and talked to him about it. I talked to my best friend, Tasha (TASHISNOQUITTER) about it also. I know I can get all the advice and encouraging words but when it all comes down to it, it all depends on what I want to do. And right now I really don't know what that is. I absolutely love the military but I absolutely hate stressing over this fitness test all the time. I think I'll get my answer in May when I test. So far I've been doing pretty good. I'm eating somewhat better...I still have my days. And since last Friday I have done something everyday. I CAN DO THIS AND I WILL DO THIS!!!!
Sorry for such a long blog...