Friday, July 22, 2011
Yesterday after I wrote my blog about being discouraged, I decided I needed to look at the big picture. It may not feel all that successful at the moment, but I'm not completely unsuccessful. I've come a long way! I'm a few pounds shy of having lost 50 pounds. THAT is an accomplishment! It may be taking some time to get there, but I AM getting there. It's weird looking at that number and the pictures from before, because I don't feel like that was really me. I was never a "big" girl, but I let things get the best of me and from there the emotional eating took over. I guess that's just life though... we live and learn.
But anyways, my whole point of writing this blog is because yesterday when I was reflecting on how far I've come, I realized that my side by side progress pics were from 20 lbs ago. It was time to fix that!
I should note that I didn't take my before pics at my all time high. I lost a little all on my own before hopping back on Sparkpeople, which is when I was at 177. That is why the picture (and my tracker) reflect that weight.
I was worried when I took the pictures yesterday that I wouldn't really be able to see much of a change, but it is definitely noticeable to me in the front view picture. I don't feel like it's as noticeable in the side view picture within the mid section (when comparing 158 and 138), but I definitely see how much smaller my arms have gotten!
I'm glad I decided to update those pictures yesterday. It really put things in perspective for me and I don't feel as discouraged now. Sure I wish these last 10 pounds were easier to lose, but I just need to stick with it!
Thursday, July 21, 2011
I'm so discouraged right now. I'm in the last 10 stretch, and I know my goal weight is obtainable, but I feel like I don't know how to get there. Before I started college this spring, I purposely worked out more so I could be in a higher calorie range bracket, but I just don't have the time for that anymore so my calorie range is 1200-1550. It doesn't matter what range I'm in, I always strive to stay at the low end of it, so at the moment I'm aiming to be in the 1300's on weekdays. I know plenty of people are at that range and it works out great for them, but I hate it... and I just don't feel like it's working for me. I feel like I'm back to the point I was when I got burned out right after having my son, where I was constantly thinking about food. And maybe that's because I did fall off track for a little while, so food tracking is something I just need to get used to again. I'm obsessing about it though. Because this is a new range for me, I'm not sure if I need to drop down to the 1200's (even though I feel like I'm hungry all the time there) or if I need to up my calories a bit and shot for 1400's. I just know that I've been back at this for a few weeks now I'm pretty much still where I started. Last week I finally saw the numbers drop, but this week I'm back up.
I know I'll figure it out. It may take some playing around to see things happen, and I do need to remember that most people lose a lot slower at this point. As I always say though, as long as I stick to eating right and remain active things will happen. I just wish they would happen quicker!
And I just have to add that I wish SP didn't force you to pick a goal date. I have NEVER hit a goal by my goal dates. I wish I could just continue with what I'm doing and not have that darn goal date taunting me (cuz if you don't change it, your ranges get limited the close you get to the goal date!)
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
I am thoroughly disappointed in Jillian Michaels right now. I have been a "fan" of hers on Facebook for a while now and will occasionally join in commenting on the stuff she posts. Today she posted a special code to get 20% off her KSwiss clothing line on Amazon. I looked at the stuff and thought, cute but waaay too expensive. So I commented on it, saying "Very cute stuff but my gosh it's expensive. I'll stick to my Adidas and Nike stuff from Ross and Marshalls". Before I knew it, my post was gone. I thought maybe it was a Facebook glitch, but I noticed other people commented saying their posts were deleted. I responded again saying, "My post was deleted too, WTH?! Am I not allowed to say that I buy Adidas and Nike stuff at Ross and Marshalls?". And guess what... my post was deleted AGAIN. Not only was my post deleted, but I was REMOVED as a Jillian Micheals fan. I thought, okay this has to be a glitch or maybe I accidentally unliked her. But no, I "liked" her again only to discover I'm not allowed to comment on any of her stuff.
I wasn't trying to be rude on there. I've noticed that she actually pays attention to what people say on there, so I was just trying to say 'hey I like your stuff but it's too expensive'... cuz seriously, who pays $95 for a hoodie and $88 for pants to workout in? Obviously some people do, but nobody I know does! And then of course in my second post I was a bit offended because my posting was deleted, so perhaps I didn't use the best choice in wording. But really.... REMOVE me as a fan because I think your clothing line is too expensive and I shared the brands that I buy?? Give me a break and get over yourself!
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
Sometimes when I feel like being inspired (yes, I'm a dork like that lol) I'll look up motivational/inspirational quotes. Today I was looking for something to inspire a friend. Along the way I found this quote and I think it's so true for weight loss. Not super inspirational or amazing... just perfect for my thoughts on this journey :) Enjoy!
'It is more important to know where you are going than to get there quickly.'
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
The moment I've been waiting for finally came at 6:30 last night... my swimsuits arrived! I'm happy but super disappointed at the same time. I knew with buying online that things might look a little different, but I couldn't believe how different they were.
Here is the first suit I ordered. I LOVED the blue color on this...
But when I got it, it's teal!
I checked the packaging and they sent me the right color. It just is SO off from the picture. Thankfully on this one I actually thought about getting a green color instead of the blue, so I can live with it. I do like how it fits too. I see where I still have some work to do, but I feel comfortable enough that I won't be embarrassed wearing it in public. This is my first bikini since giving birth to my 1st child 7 years ago.... I just haven't felt confident enough until now to wear one.
Now the second suit. Ugh. I didn't even take a picture with that one on.
Look at how nice the green is in the picture...
I open it up and it's NEON green! This picture doesn't even do the neon justice...
I'm still debating if I want to keep that one. I'm SO disappointed with the color on it. It actually doesn't look bad on me. I just can't get the top to lay right on me... like it's warped a bit from being folded in packaging. My hubby likes it though (but likes the other better) and says I should keep it. We'll see.
While I am super disappointed in the color with the suits, I have to say I'm happy overall. I have been working my butt off to be able to wear a REAL two piece in Hawaii without being embarrassed and now that I've put them on I feel like I've really accomplished that. I may feel a little shy in them, just because it's been so long since I've worn a bikini, but it definitely won't be embarrassment.
Aaaand.... I can't believe I'm sharing this. It's such a bad picture! But here's a little flash back for me. So this is me somewhere around 140-145 when I lost weight after having my son. Please don't mind the weird expression on my face and bad hair lol. I was wearing a tankini that I rolled up for the sake of the picture. Clearly not comfortable wearing a two piece then.
I'm just amazed at how different I look today at 143 compared to this 140-145 five years ago. How many times now have I mentioned that I'm smaller at this weight this time around then I was before? Hehe, here's the real proof! Gotta love strength training!
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