Wednesday, July 27, 2011
OK, so have been making changes now for a couple of weeks but haven't seen any results yet. Since I'm taking it slow and steady I guess that's normal, whereas in the past I rushed in, saw results, and ended up falling back and losing all progress made. Today I decided to put that bit extra into my workout and did both of my usual workouts, which I usually alternate between as they're both cardio and pretty intense for me at my level of fitness. But today I double up and did a whopping 50 minutes of cardio straight without stopping, which is amazing for me and I'm so so pleased :) I've also managed to get 3 of my 5 a day in today, which is a big step in the right direction since I usually only get 1 at max every other day. Calories have been very good too so feeling really positive about today. I'm hoping to repeat this tomorrow, either by doing both workouts or doing one followed by 30+ minutes on my little twister-stepper machine. I know if I just let this progress continue as naturally as possible rather than forcing a major jump forwards in my routine it will soon become habit and I'll be able to work even harder. I really want to see results this week but I'm going to keep going no matter what because no progress is better than going backwards and giving up. Only 65 days until graduation!!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
So I've been lagging a bit after my 'good' week last week. Today I hit that point - again - of desperation realization that things have simply GOT to be different. I can't stay here, at this point I'm at in my life. None of my clothes fit me properly anymore, everything feels tight and looks horrendous pulled over my flumpy body. I don't know how I got here but I need to get back out. I really need to lose this weight and stop stagnating. But it's not just about losing, it's more about finding what I've already lost - a part of myself. I used to feel happy and comfortable with myself, now I can't look at myself in a mirror when I walk past. I've never been slim/skinny, only once in my life and I was neither happy or healthy; but I was always ok being curvy and even a little chubby. I was healthy and active, and it was easy to accept my body even though it wasn't perfect. I don't need perfection to be happy, I gave up on that myth a long time ago. But I know I need to get back to a scientifically healthy weight if I'm going to gain any of my self-esteem back. I'm keeping my goals but I'm taking it a day at a time now. Days I feel particularly good/on top of things, I'm going to push further and go that extra mile with my workouts. Days I feel depleated, I'm going to encourage myself to do at least 10 minutes, which often once I start - lead to 20, then 30 have passed before I know it. I'm going to give this my all. This is meant to be a lifestyle after all, and its time I started incorporating this into my life rather than seeing it as a seperate from everything else in my life. Taking care of me, affects all other aspects of my life. I know I've said this so many times before, but I WILL do this, I owe it to myself. And for those of you who stumble across this and are in the same place as I am - we can get past this, and get to wherever we each want to be. The only thing holding us back is ourselves.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
So today was not the success of yesterday but I've learned and applied an important lesson to my lifestyle. After reading a SP motivational page yesterday evening I realised I have still been treating this like a diet. I haven't been making changes that will last. I will not be working out every day for the rest of my life. I will not be avoiding all not-so-healthy treats. Yes, I'll lose the weight faster by cutting out bad foods and exercising daily, but it's not something I'll stick with and without a "day off", I won't last very long - I know myself well enough by now to know this for sure. So today I didn't exercise and I indulged in some naughty snacks. As this particular member pointed out, it is not the actual occasional indulgence that causes weight gain but what we do afterwards. If I work hard 6 days a week, I can afford a day free of exercise. And if I let myself indulge in a chocolate bar or even my favourite dessert every other week or so, it won't hurt my efforts. As long as I keep going down the path I'm on and don't fall back into my bad eating habits. I recommend her page to anyone, I'm sorry if I'm not allowed to advertise other members pages on here, I'm not meaning to invade anyone's privacy in any way. Here's the link - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=S
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Saturday, July 16, 2011
Got my exercise in today which was a first for me on a Saturday in a LONG time. Went over my calorie goal by 60 cals which is a little disappointing but not exactly disastrous so hi-ho. Just need to make it through tomorrow then it's back to the good old weekdays which go so much smoother :)
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