Thursday, October 20, 2011
“TODAY” - Do you believe that today can be the ‘first day of the rest of your life?’ What will you do on this day to make it different?”
Most of my daily activities are rote… I get up, go to work, babysit (sometimes), go home, take care of the cats, make sure I have clothes for tomorrow, go to bed… lather rinse repeat.
Because I have several conditions that keep me from working at my full potential (fibromyalgia, arthritis, hypothyroidism, diabetes, PCOS, poor delta sleep, depression (not related to bi-polar), bi-polar, chronic pain, etc.) I am very fatigued most of the time. The idea of doing anything “big” frankly exhausts me. Because of this, I think it is my attitude, not my “altitude”, that makes any changes I have in my life.
This is a big deal to me because I truly believe in setting goals and having aspirations, and the concept of being immobile is stifling to me. If I have no control over anything then how can I control anything? A HUGE thing that I have done this year was accept that I really don’t have control over anything. So, I have to set my goals based on little things and then do the best I can within the parameters of what little I can control on a day to day basis. I do my best to eat within my plan, move to the best of my ability and keep an upbeat attitude as far as I can dependent upon my mental and physical health status that day.
Because of these limitations, and my finally admitting to myself that I can’t control anything, I turned to my Diety and handed over my life. I had had enough and it was either say “Here, I can’t handle it, YOU do it” or end up at the ER with a breakdown… So I chose the smart path. This is what I do EVERY day to make it different. I truly believe that the only way I’m going to be strong enough to face each day is if WE do it together and WE accept that each new day is just that, a new day. I try very hard not to allow anything I do in the past to affect me the next day, because I can’t change it and I can’t do anything about it, I can ONLY move forward. I am also working on emotionally accepting the teachings of the Four Agreements and incorporating them into my life.
I’m not sure if this is what the person setting this was thinking of, but this is my reality… so this is my response.