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A&I Blog “Today”

Thursday, October 20, 2011

“TODAY” - Do you believe that today can be the ‘first day of the rest of your life?’ What will you do on this day to make it different?”

Most of my daily activities are rote… I get up, go to work, babysit (sometimes), go home, take care of the cats, make sure I have clothes for tomorrow, go to bed… lather rinse repeat.

Because I have several conditions that keep me from working at my full potential (fibromyalgia, arthritis, hypothyroidism, diabetes, PCOS, poor delta sleep, depression (not related to bi-polar), bi-polar, chronic pain, etc.) I am very fatigued most of the time. The idea of doing anything “big” frankly exhausts me. Because of this, I think it is my attitude, not my “altitude”, that makes any changes I have in my life.

This is a big deal to me because I truly believe in setting goals and having aspirations, and the concept of being immobile is stifling to me. If I have no control over anything then how can I control anything? A HUGE thing that I have done this year was accept that I really don’t have control over anything. So, I have to set my goals based on little things and then do the best I can within the parameters of what little I can control on a day to day basis. I do my best to eat within my plan, move to the best of my ability and keep an upbeat attitude as far as I can dependent upon my mental and physical health status that day.

Because of these limitations, and my finally admitting to myself that I can’t control anything, I turned to my Diety and handed over my life. I had had enough and it was either say “Here, I can’t handle it, YOU do it” or end up at the ER with a breakdown… So I chose the smart path. This is what I do EVERY day to make it different. I truly believe that the only way I’m going to be strong enough to face each day is if WE do it together and WE accept that each new day is just that, a new day. I try very hard not to allow anything I do in the past to affect me the next day, because I can’t change it and I can’t do anything about it, I can ONLY move forward. I am also working on emotionally accepting the teachings of the Four Agreements and incorporating them into my life.

I’m not sure if this is what the person setting this was thinking of, but this is my reality… so this is my response.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CJWORDPLAY 10/23/2011 11:28PM

    There is so much in your blog that resonates for me. I'm impressed with your willingness to face what is real in your life. That takes courage. You have companions on this site and I am one of them. Whatever you do to help yourself is GOOD for you. Yay!

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CATHYGETSFIT 10/22/2011 10:14AM

    You have a lot of medical problems but I think it's great that you are not letting them stop you. Making goals, even the smallest of goals is a great way to start to gain control over your life. This is your journey and if turning to a higher power helps you get there then that is great! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AMYBELLES 10/22/2011 8:26AM

    This is a very wise blog that reminded me of the Serenity Prayer of accepting the things you cannot change, the courage to change the things you can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I read The Four Agreements a few years back and will have to pull it off my shelf and review the principals again, because I remember really liking it. Thanks for the reminder! Keep up the amazing attitude! Taking small steps and doing the best you can do with God by your side will help you get through each day and achieve your goals!

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BARBIE176 10/21/2011 5:29PM

    Very nice blog. I think turning things over to a Higher Power is a great solution and I am so happy that you discovered that path. It appears that you have many struggles to deal with in your every day life, which I am not sure I would be strong enough to endure, so I admire you immensely! Keep up the struggle and know that your Higher Power is there to help you through the tough times and that your spark friends are also here to encourage you when the struggle is difficult.
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ASHAIXIM 10/21/2011 5:18PM

iguel Ruiz wrote the book that has them in it... there is also a companion book and a 5th agreement now, but the four are the solid base :)

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IZZYBEBOP 10/21/2011 3:42PM

    While we do have some control of things, turning things over to a Higher Power is the best thing that I can do for myself. You're doing great in spite of your health conditions, and I so admire you for this.
I just searched for "teachings of the Four Agreements" and there are several sites. Is there one in particular you are referring to as I'd to learn more about this.

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TREA241 10/21/2011 12:01PM

    I think you are a truly amazing person and there is a lot of things you have to endure every single day. That, in and of itself, is amazing.

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SHOYER 10/21/2011 11:28AM

    I agree with Ann. I've found that writing these blog posts (and reading those of others) can be cathartic for me. Often I can craft wording that reads well and sounds great, while still not getting to the root of my feelings at the time. It's only after I return to the post, reread what I wrote and read comments, that I start to understand where I am and think about how to get to where I want to be.

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RFJSJ50 10/21/2011 9:53AM

    Thank you for sharing your insights about live with us. You are definitely viewing each day as a "new day" and moving forward.

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RFJSJ50 10/21/2011 9:52AM

    Sorry about the double post - my computer is acting slightly off (like me) today!

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    Hi, I enjoyed your post. I have some of the same conditions. I have lived with chronic pain and fatigue since I was 14. I had a gymnastics injury which will eventually require back surgery. I know how fibromyalgia can hurt and it's hard to do daily activities. i was diagnosed with it about six months ago. I am in recovery and I on a daily basis turn everything over to my higher power. I think you hit everything right on the nail. All we can do is what we can and that is our best! emoticon

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SURENDERISNOTME 10/20/2011 11:33PM

    I like your blog very much! You know what you want and will reach out for it in your own way. Good for you!


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SIOBHANKNITS 10/20/2011 8:39PM

    I don't believe we were created to get through each day on our own. I'm glad you have a way of applying that! (And these blogs are not prescriptions, but conversation starters--mainly conversations with ourselves, sometimes we get a bonus of engaging others, too. There is no right or wrong!)

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DAY 30 - Aquatic Therapy

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

I went to the Physical Therapist today for my first aquatic therapy session... it was very nice. Basically they have me working out in a water tank LOL! Very interesting experience. When they drained the water it was amazing - in a bad way. I felt like I was gaining 100lb or more. That's my FAT! ICK!! The weight of it started pulling on me as gravity took over from being boyant in the water. I'm looking forward to losing it so I don't have that weight pulling on me all the time!!

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DDESERTDDAWN 10/19/2011 7:02AM

    Oooooh it will feell great when you don't have that to pull on you, won't it? Hope the therapy helps! HOpe i can find some good aquatic therapy where I am now.

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LATTELEE 10/18/2011 10:25AM

  Interesting observation!

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Day 26 - Good for you food

Friday, October 14, 2011


So, my office got Tropical Smoothie for lunch today (bought our own and bought the boss's for boss's day).

Looking at the menu to decide what I wanted I'm looking at the Turkey Wrap and a Strawberry Smoothie (I know these in NO way are on my plan but I decided to have an "off plan" day).

Which do you think is better for you? I nice healthy turkey wrap with low fat dressing and veggies or a strawberry smoothy made with frozen yogurt?

Would you believe the smoothie???

I remember when TS refused to post their nutritional information because "it was impossible for them to be 100% accurate due to the differences in how people made them" ... now they do have it and the picture is NOT pretty. For a place that tries to make itself out to be a "healthy alternative to fast food" it's a pretty scarry place! To put this in perspective I compared it to a Burger King Quarter Pounder:

Turkey Wrap vs BK Quarter Pounder
calories 580 vs 510
fat 180 vs 170
fat g 20 vs 19
Sat fat 6 vs 7
Sodium 1960 vs 730
Carbs 56 vs 37
Sugar 6 vs 8

The ONLY thing I saw that was significantly better was protein
43 vs 24

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WOUBBIE 10/14/2011 2:02PM

    I was always shocked to see how bad tortillas are for you. Way higher in salt and calories than most people think. It must be because they're flat and they look like they have less subtance than fluffy white bread, but at the end of the day they're just smooshed white bread after all.

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Day 25 - owie

Thursday, October 13, 2011

I hurt today. I had a consult with the physical therapist today and got all my baselines done to start aqua therapy on Tuesday for fibromyalgia and I'm not sure how much was that and how much is it getting colder and me just being stressed but my whole body aches and I have shooting pain in my shoulder. I am not real happy but I AM sticking to my diet anyway!! Eating badly is just going to make me hurt more no matter how much instant gratification those dang warm chocolate chip cookies at McDonalds might give me!!

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TREKPURRSON 10/14/2011 2:11AM

    Even in pain you took the time to read my blog and send me a Goodie with prayers! You are a good person and a strong woman! emoticon

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TIME4ME-CHERYL 10/13/2011 3:59PM

    Feel better soon!! emoticon

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Day 23 cont (Lab numbers)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

After 23 days of eating Atkins... and 4 months (three spent eating quite poorly) here are my lab results from end of May & current:

Cholesterol 248 -- 215 (ideal is 125-200)
HDL 32 -- 34 (ideal is greater than 46)
LDL (uncalculatable caus my trig. were too high) -- 131 (ideal is less than 130)
Chol/HDLC ratio 7.8 -- 6.3 (ideal is less than 5.0)
Triglicerides 508 -- 250 (ideal is less than 150)
A1C 7.8 -- 6.8 (ideal less than 5.7)

Purty darn good for 23 days effort!!!!

Think I'll go have some bacon for dinner ;D

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KAKIPOPUP 10/13/2011 4:02AM

    Way to go! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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VHALKYRIE 10/12/2011 2:40PM

    That's incredible! Only 23 days?? Congratulations on your remarkable turn around! You are making a better YOU!

I am certainly encouraged, and hope my dad will see similar results! Who knew the answer was always so close?

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