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I HAVE A JOB!!!!

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

emoticon Our millage is passing at over 63% with 85% of the polls in!!! Looks like I will have a job still come January!!! emoticon

  
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JUSTLLAMA 11/15/2012 4:32AM

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    emoticon emoticon emoticon I know you are relieved!! emoticon

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3RDBABYWEIGHT 11/8/2012 11:19AM

    Congratulations!

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WORTHART 11/8/2012 1:35AM

    Great news! That is bound to make you feel better and
i hope you are recovering from your surgery.
Thanks for leaving a comment on my blog.

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BARBIE176 11/7/2012 9:38PM

    That is awesome!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 11/7/2012 8:56PM

    Congratulations!! Soooo happy for you!!

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CRAFTINWIFE 11/7/2012 6:43PM

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RFJSJ50 11/7/2012 1:59PM

    emoticon I'm so glad to hear that great news!
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FITKIZ 11/7/2012 12:50PM

    Yay! Glad that stressor has been removed from your life!

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BECCABOO127 11/7/2012 11:47AM

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KMEYERRING1 11/7/2012 10:21AM

    emoticon so happy for you !!

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WOUBBIE 11/7/2012 10:09AM

    Two thumbs up!

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TALENKARR1 11/7/2012 6:56AM

    woot! you go girl!


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    Congratulations

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Woubbie Flying!!

Monday, November 05, 2012

Woubbie posted this link on my FEAR blog. I can't post the article as it's copyrighted, but it is absolutely AMAZING. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
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MORTICIAADDAMS 11/6/2012 7:09PM

    I love flylady!

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DRUIDPRINCESS 11/6/2012 4:52PM

    Thank you so much for posting this link. What a lot to think about! What a profound approach. Thank you so much!

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IZZYBEBOP 11/6/2012 5:58AM

    That really hit home with me. I'll be saving it and re-reading it again. Thanks for posting the link!

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TRYINGHARD1948 11/6/2012 4:08AM

    Great link, thank you.

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FITKIZ 11/6/2012 12:24AM

    I love the Flylady! And this is just one reason why.

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WOUBBIE 11/5/2012 10:12PM

    Bless the FlyLady! Go Marla!

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LHLADY517 11/5/2012 8:22PM

    Thanks for sharing.

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Fear

Monday, November 05, 2012

I think one of the things that has made me feel like I am in a stasis and can't move forward is fear of failure.

Losing my job.
Not being able to take care of myself monitarily.
Not being able to take care of myself physically.
Being too tired to do something.
If I don't try, I didn't fail.

If our millage passes tomorrow I'm probably okay, but if it doesn't I'm going to be in a position of possibly losing my job come January.

If I lose my job, I won't have enough money to pay all of my bills.

When I was waiting for my neck surgery, and after the surgery, I fell several times and I had a very hard time doing anything. I fear that I will have something like this happen and I won't recover from it.

If I try to work around the house I might be too tired to get much done and then I will have to face my low stamina issues. I have hypothyroidism, fibromyalgia and possibly lyme disease as well, which all sap my energy and strength.

If I don't try anything I can pretend that everything is fine because I won't have any limitations slapping me in the face.

Unfortunately this doesn't get me anywhere in the long run. I MUST give my issues up to a higher power and I MUST do baby steps to get things done. 5 minutes is more than none!

  
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JUSTLLAMA 11/16/2012 8:51AM

    "“Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.” -Benjamin Franklin

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MORTICIAADDAMS 11/6/2012 7:08PM

    God doesn't want you to live in fear. Turn over all your concerns to Him. He will take care of you.

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ALEXSGIRL1 11/6/2012 6:24PM

    you can chip away at that fear one millisecond at a time, do very small tasks .then you can go from there. I am sending hugs and prayers for you. I would think talking about it will help . Hugs i do hope things get easier for you

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TALENKARR1 11/6/2012 8:55AM

    Fear is one of the worst things that can sabotoge you. That and a friend that says one bite won't hurt are the biggest detrement for me. I can honestly say been there done that. So here is a question to pose to your fear. do you like the way things are now? instead of trying to chang your whole life just try changing one thing that is small. Tiny even. holding your head up higher when you walk around. one extra glass of water a day. You do that and it makes sure fear can't win.

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SHARJOPAUL 11/6/2012 7:27AM

    "Fear is the mind killer" (Duine by Frank Herbert)
When we let fear take over our mind it prevents us from acheiving anything.
You are right, even 5 minutes is better than nothig. Keep reminding yourself of that and prioritise what you need to do then go do 5 minutes of it. You may suddenly realize that instead of 5 minutes you have done 10, 15 or more minutes of it and feel really good that you exceeded your expetation.

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IZZYBEBOP 11/6/2012 7:14AM

    I totally understand what you're saying about fear. For me, it's because I haven't worked out in so long that I know it's going to be a struggle. I've gotten through it before and know that I can, problem is that my mind doesn't believe it. I hope that both of us can overcome all of our fears, especially about the uncertainty of the future.

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CATHYGETSFIT 11/6/2012 2:50AM

    I really do understand how things outside of your control can put you in a position where you just want to curl up and be left alone until these things are worked out. Unfortunately we can't do that because it's not healthy for us physically or mentally. All you can do is the best you can do and take it one step and one day at a time. I know that the Hypothyroidism can sap your energy as well as the other 2 you mentioned on top of that. Just do a little bit of cleaning here and there, say in 10 minutes intervals.

I hope your job will be safe. If the mileage thing doesn't pass can you start looking for a job in case you don't have a job in January??

I hope everything works out for you!

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BECCABOO127 11/6/2012 12:00AM

    Baby steps are so important. You can do it. emoticon

I feel for you as I have fatigue from a few sources. The kicker is that if you don't move any, you feel even more tired. Just moving a tiny little bit will help a lot, and then when you are used to moving more, you'll have good days where you can move quite a bit, and not so good days when you cannot move much. The thing I am working on is to try not to feel like I am a failure on the days when my body needs more rest.

Don't even worry about how much you get done--just do a small task. On better days, I will do a small task once every hour; hence I rest 50 minutes out of 60. I then jump up, do a task, and then run back to rest again. I can get a lot done in those days.

I am hoping that all goes well for you.

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DANCINGRITA2 11/5/2012 11:14PM

    I know how you feel, I have Fibromyalsia, Hypothyroidism and Chronic Fatigue. My doctor (checks my blood every 3 months) also found that I am low on Vitamin D, therefore he prescribed that I take 1000 UI D-3 daily and a complex B vitamin. It has helped me more with depression than any other Rx I've been given.

I feel better when I do arthritic water aerobics at the local fitness center. It helps to have others to talk with.

When I exercise at home I start with 10 minutes and usually end up doing more, do things you like to do. I love to dance. . . . . . . You just have to start somewhere.

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I even clean my house by starting with 15 minutes. It surprises me how much I can do in a short amount of time. I love that FlyLady too!

I'll be praying that your job will not be ending. Blessings on you and your family. Hugs, Rita


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WINNINGBATTLE 11/5/2012 6:32PM

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WOUBBIE 11/5/2012 3:19PM

    FlyLady to the rescue again, maybe? "Fear is the opposite of love..."

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FITKIZ 11/5/2012 2:52PM

    I can't do anything for your stress or anxiety. I've lived through both at very high levels, I wasn't ready for it and it wasn't pretty. I'm undoing that damage now. As for your thyroid, I have found through experience that soy products, like Vegetable oil, play merry hell with my thyroid function. Perhaps checking the lables of what you normally eat and trading for non-soy alternatives will help you. Good luck.

You can do this, and you are worth working for. Remember to be patient with yourself, you have a lot on your plate. emoticon

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JAVAMONSTER 11/5/2012 2:39PM

    Wow, that's high anxiety, Ashaixim. Have you looked into taking a temporary anti-anxiety med, to help you stomp the anxiety down to a level you can deal with.

The "eat an elephant a bite at a time" story seems to be popular right now. It sounds like you're overwhelmed and trying to eat the whole elephant in one meal!

Fibro and Hypothyroidism are rough things to have. Break you cleaning up into small chunks--not even 15 minutes at first, like Flylady suggests.

Can you look for a job while you're waiting to hear about the one you have? That's miserable!

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CAROLYNHENLEY 11/5/2012 2:04PM

  quote from Corrie ten Bone " Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to an all-knowing God"

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The Old Me

Saturday, November 03, 2012

I spoke with my brother on the phone a couple days ago. We live on opposite sides of the US so don't see each other in person much, which in theory is sad because I love him like crazy and vice versa, but in reality is great because although we love each other and have similar interests in some things we can't be in the same house for more than a day LOL!! He's NOT a loner, I am; he's a dreamer, I'm a pragmatist; he thinks out loud and then says he didn't mean what he said (like I'm going to pain the house type thing - he's THINKING about it, not GOING to do it), I say what I mean. In short, we drive each other crazy.

Anyways, he said to me that I sounded like my old self (not the depressed, in pain, icky life, unhappy person I've been most of the past 2-3 years). I FEEL like I should be like my old self. I WANT to be like my old self. I just can't quite GET to my old self. I feel impotent. Like I'm starting but have a harness keeping me back. I planned on cleaning my kitchen today and I barely got anything done. I keep saying 5 minute intervals! baby steps! but even those just seem like too much. It's frustrating and that makes me more unhappy and I fear slipping back into depression.

Actually, I realized a few minutes ago part of my lack of umph may be that I'm tired from helping my sister out, going to PT, and the elections (we have a millage renewal on the ballot and if it doesn't pass I may not have a job come January - that's enough to put anyone in a state of stasis!!)

  
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MORTICIAADDAMS 11/6/2012 6:53PM

    It sounds like your brother thinks you could be close to getting back to the old yo uand I hope he's right. Keep pushing and you will get there.

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FITKIZ 11/5/2012 11:25AM

    Making time to carve out enough activity (preferrably outside) is one of the things that really help keep my depression at bay. I hope all is well with your job after these elections. Remember that this journey is about you. We weren't born knowing all the answers and it takes time to build the habits you want, give yourself some slack especially when there's a lot of stress around you. You CAN do this.

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CATHYGETSFIT 11/4/2012 6:06PM

    I'm glad to hear that your brother thinks you sound like the old you. Maybe you are starting to get back to the old you!

I can also understand feeling like you are in limbo because of your job possibly going away, taking care of your sister & her kids, etc... I can relate to what you are saying. I have a lot of things up in the air too that could impact my life. Just try to hold on to positive thoughts and taking baby steps towards your goal!

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BECCABOO127 11/4/2012 12:41PM

    emoticon to you! I know some, not all, of what you are going through. (I can only live with one of my sisters. The other 2 drive me nutz-lol.)

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and hope your job stays.

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CANDOK1260 11/4/2012 11:53AM

    I AM PLAYING YOUR LEVY PASS

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WOUBBIE 11/4/2012 11:18AM

    Sounds like you're another FlyBaby! That 15 minute timer has saved my butt more times than I can count, even when it's only set for 5 minutes!]

Don't forget that when real babies take babysteps they fall down a lot. The thing that makes babysteps important is that you KEEP GETTING BACK UP!

You can do it!

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(On the low carb eating side, make sure you're getting enough good fats - sometimes they can really help with depression.)

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WINNINGBATTLE 11/4/2012 6:25AM

    Its always great to have brotherly love. emoticon

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SHEYLANGEL22 11/3/2012 10:52PM

    You can get out of it.. emoticon
did you try having some music on and do the cleaning with some music? Don't let the thoughts of sadness get to you... bring the good energy and only good vibes. emoticon

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Inner Journey November Blog Topic #1

Friday, November 02, 2012

“Those who think they have not time for bodily exercise will sooner or later have to find time for illness.” ~Edward Stanley

I knew a lady who decided that she didn't have to diet or exercise because she was going to get that bypass surgery for the tummy... um, hang on... (googling) Oh, yeah Gastric Bypass. I asked her why she wanted to do that instead of trying to diet and exercise first and her answer was that she "didn't have time". REALLY? OBVIOUSLY she didn't understand the surgery at all. She thought it was a quick fix that would have her waking up the next morning thin and beautiful and healthy and she'd not have to change her way of life at all. She had NO clue that she'd end up right back like she was. I know some people who have been very successful with GBS but not ONE who has been successful who hasn't had to completely change their life. There is NO "quick fix" in the health of your body. Unless you die shortly afterwards, you will always have to extend energy, thought and accountability to be healthy in life. You can use this energy, thought and accountability (and the time that goes into them) to get and/or stay healthy, or you can use it to recouperate and manage chronic disease and ailments. Think you have time for cancer treatments because you don't have time to work on smoking cessation? Time for dialysis because you don't have time to control your glucose levels? Time for a heart bypass because you don't have time to reduce your triglycerides? (TGDs are the #1 indicator of heart disease, not cholesterol - and they usually go hand in hand).

I'd rather spend the time, energy, etc. getting and staying healthy than reduce my lifespan by 20+ years AND spend all that time feeling miserable and being sick.

  
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RFJSJ50 11/6/2012 12:57AM

    Words of Wisdom!!!!
Sheila

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BECCABOO127 11/6/2012 12:02AM

    Right on!

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KMEYERRING1 11/3/2012 9:21PM

    Great blog and I completely agree. It's a healthy lifetime commitment, that's something I've learned.

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LOSINGLINNDY 11/2/2012 8:21PM

    This is wonderful. Got my attention as a good reminder to get my exercise in today.

Hugs,
Gaylinn

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WINNINGBATTLE 11/2/2012 6:17PM

    Glad you joined too, great blog ! emoticon

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PROUD-GRANDMA 11/2/2012 6:00PM

    Amen!

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