Thursday, April 09, 2009
At my last group therapy, DBT, we went over the 1/2 smile techniques. I ended up crying when we were doing the one where you think of the person that you hate the most and try to find compassion for them. I just ended up feeling guilty because I had felt so strongly and negatively about this person, my Dad.
When I told my counselor, he was quite understanding but challenged me by asking if I had ever complimented my father. I told him I had, but I couldn't remember and instance either. Then my psychiatrist suggested that I think of something funny about the person instead. Then after talking with him he decided that we needed to change my medicines, so he added Wellbutrin to the mix, in hopes that I can come off the Abilfy, which is not doing much more than making me gain weight. I am going to be hopeful and give it a try.
With all of this going on, I am also a little anxious about a vacation that is coming up where I will be going home to see my family. The other thing that is kind of bothering me is I have a college girl friend who is dieing of cancer in WY.