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Medicating Myself With Food

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Physical Therapy is hard and very painful. Couple that with a painful infection and fatigue and it's a recipe for disaster. I found myself reaching for frozen yogurt last night to comfort me. Partly this was due to emotional upset but mainly this was due to pain. I sometimes allow myself a modest portion but this went way beyond that. I haven't done that in ages. I won't do it again.

Today I'm right back with my program. I doubt that the frozen yogurt will affect me in the long run. I'm pleased that I could recognize what I had done so quickly and get back on track. I have a treatment plan for dealing with the pain and I intend to follow my plan instead of using food to medicate myself.

The other thing I've done is reduce my stress and obligations. It was a hard choice to make but a necessary one. I've had to pull back in many areas in my life even though the heart was willing, the body just couldn't do it. Having just had major surgery with an infection requires me to take a big step back. It's very nice to focus on others but there is a time when I have to focus on myself. Now is that time. Healthy food, sleep, low stress and healing. Proper medication if necessary but never medicating with food. Lesson learned.

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PEGGYANNSCH 10/29/2011 11:01AM

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SLENDERELLA61 10/27/2011 4:24PM

    Oh, Cyndi! So sorry for all your pain and challenges. It is time to focus on you. I totally agree and at least partly understand. Hope I still get to see you at least from time to time. Highest regards, Marsha

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IMMORTALTESSA 10/27/2011 3:54PM

    I am very glad that you are taking some time for yourself. You deserve it. I hope that you find the rest and comfort that you truly need. Good for you for stepping up and saying "NO" and listening to your body. Your spirit and love is evident in all the support and encouragement that you give those around you. We need to start returning it a bit more. God speed your recovery. I am proud of you for doing what is right for yourself and seeing the forest for the trees. Love you bunches!
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DONNABRIGHT 10/27/2011 1:56PM

    Take good care of yourself - that is the most important thing.

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WILD4STARS 10/27/2011 1:38PM

    emoticonYou have a solid plan. All this has made you stronger. emoticon

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L*I*T*A* 10/27/2011 12:59PM

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NANCYSINATRA 10/27/2011 12:21PM

    WOW!!! Yogurt?? How can you be so strong?? Its candy bars and chocolate sorbet for me when I'm down. Great Job!!

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The Hard Collar Is Off

Thursday, October 20, 2011

I had my six week post-op appointment this morning. The good news is that I'm now out of my hard collar and I start physical therapy on Monday afternoon. The bad news is that my surgeon had to test my incision infection just to be safe because it still hasn't cleared up. He also put me on some strong medication. I have to follow a strict protocol to try to get rid of the infection, otherwise he has to surgically clean and remove part of the infected area. That doesn't sound like fun at all.

I have been cleared to work out on land only.Water is currently a prohibited work out choice due to the possibility of bacteria exchange.This is for my protection and for the protection of other people. It's a shame because I miss my water class friends but at least I have my collar off!

I am very excited about being able to drive and run errands again. There are many things that I've been unable to do that I'd like to do. I realize that I need to take it slow because it has actually been a whole year since my neck, shoulders and arms have functioned anywhere near normally. I am very aware of how quickly those muscles fatigue and thus the need for physical therapy. Right now my head is quite literally too heavy for my neck to support for any large time span sitting up without support. The physical therapy should take care of that problem. I have also been unable to use my arms normally. With therapy, I'm hoping to begin strengthening them enough so that I can start an at home weight program.

I realize that all of this will be done over a period of time. It took me a year to get like this and it will be months before I get my strength back. I am just thrilled that my surgery gave me back 100% of the use of my left arm and improved my overall balance. I can work within a structured program once it is set up. That shouldn't be a problem even if it takes a long time. I'm not at all worried about the time element. I can do this!!!

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PEGGYANNSCH 10/22/2011 9:21AM

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SLENDERELLA61 10/21/2011 11:20PM

    Yes, you can do this!! So glad your left arm now works. How great! So glad you have the freedom to live without the collar. I know how dedicated you are and how hard you will work to regain your strength and range of motion. Patience is also a great virtue you have. Take care. Hope to see you soon. -Marsha

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DONNABRIGHT 10/21/2011 3:31PM

    Oh, this is such wonderful news - thank you so much for letting us know. Physical therapy will be a snap for you.

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L*I*T*A* 10/21/2011 9:55AM

    awesome news!!!

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PJBONARRIGO 10/20/2011 9:48PM

    I'm glad to hear that you are on your way to recovery!! emoticon emoticon

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Six Week Post-Op Check

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Tomorrow is my six week post-op check up. I have had some issues including an infection in my incision. It has hurt badly on some days and kept me out of the water until my check up. I am so ready to have my surgeon look at my neck that I can hardly stand it! There is a good chance that I will have to continue to wear my hard collar. My incision is still very sore so I really want that looked at by him, to see if he can further treat it. I hope that I can get out of my hard collar, but I think I'm going to have to continue to wear it. We'll see what he says!

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TBRANCH2 10/19/2011 10:40PM

    emoticonGood luck!

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DONNABRIGHT 10/19/2011 4:02PM

    Good luck - let us know how you do when you get back home.

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L*I*T*A* 10/19/2011 3:02PM

    good luck with your dr and hoping and praying all goes well for you..........
blessings and hugs................lita

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Breaking Three Long Standing Streaks

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

I know I have a good reason. I know I couldn't help it. Still, I have been a faithful abet obsessive exerciser all my life. I'll also admit I'm addicted to those little rewards that I get for exercise every month. It all came to a crashing halt when I had spine surgery on September 8, 2011. I had 3 exercise streaks going that were broken by doctor's orders.

The first streak was my class streak. My goal was to exercise at least 90 minutes per week. I exceeded that goal for 159 weeks. For many weeks before my pain slowed me down (when I was so obsessive about exercise) I was exercising 2-3 hours per day. Then I learned moderation and I promised hubby that I would keep it under 2 hours preferably 90 minutes.

The second streak was my general Spark goals of 150 hours of exercise per week. This goal was established on 12/14/2008. This goal was at 100% until my surgery and is now down to 95%. I am currently doing functional exercise which is a whole different type of exercise. I will continue to do this type until I am turned over to a physical therapist. Believe it or not, when you wear a brace, functional exercise can be a workout. I didn't think it would be but on some days it is.

The last streak was my local Polk County team. The goal again was to exercise for 90 minutes per week. I met and exceeded that goal for 127 weeks. Again sometimes doing my obsessive exercise thing but now being reduced to doing functional exercise.

The one area where regular exercise and functional exercise overlap is in water. It is unfortunate that I can't go to the pool every day. (I can't drive with a hard collar on my neck) Hubby is willing to take me several times per week. Once the Y gets the heater fixed, I'm eager to get back in the water! Strength training will not be an option for me for many months to come but I can water jog.

I shouldn't be disappointed but I am because I worked so hard. Sometimes things out of our control pop up and roll into our paths. We can either work around them and continue or we can quit. For me, quitting is never an option!

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SLENDERELLA61 10/9/2011 1:30PM

    Congrats on all those streaks you achieved. You should feel very proud. And soon, with doctor's permission, you will start your streaks again. I know you may miss your trophies, but you are smart to listen to your body and listen to your doctor. Here's hoping that soon your improved body will enjoy the exercise.

I've had to take time off from exercise due to cough/cold and soon will be starting over, too. I can't wait for both of us to be well and active again! -Marsha

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ARSALLOT 10/6/2011 5:01PM

    Thank you for the comment on my blog, I'm feeling OK, I think I'm just slightly depressed. My hubby is still gone and I quit smoking last week. I'm tired of fighting the cravings, but I'm doing it. One of the side affects they say is temporary depression/anxiety as your body and mind adjust to not having the nicotine/habit anymore. I miss it. And every ex smoker I've talked to says you will miss it and get cravings for years to come. UGH. My back is 100%.

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L*I*T*A* 10/5/2011 10:31PM

    it is great that you have reached that level of streaks....
remember just start new ones and soon you will have surpassed your original ones....
use your past ones to move you forward and then some....
blessings and hugs..............lita

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DONNABRIGHT 10/5/2011 8:59PM

    Spark people is a great tool but it is just a tool. Exercise gives us a stronger body but hopefully your surgery is now giving you a stronger body and the exercise has to take a back seat. The streaks are not as important as you are!

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It's Hard, But I Can Take Care Of Myself

Monday, October 03, 2011

This past week really presented a big challenge. My husband had to go to for a week to take care of his dying father while his sister and his father's other caretaker were out of town on an emergency. This left me at home alone with two small dogs and many very attentive, helpful neighbors. Remember, I have a hard collar on my neck all the time except when I'm lying on the bed or when I'm in the shower. Now technically my doctor would frown on the fact that I was left alone for such a long period of time. I am 3 weeks post op (out of 6) . I did have people calling and checking in with me, including hubby, multiple times daily. In fact, some of them took me to the store, out to breakfast and out to a craft fair just to get me out of the house. Aren't I lucky to have such wonderful neighbors? Of the two of us, I would say that he had the more difficult job. I know because I took care of my mother for years before she died and it is hard and very stressful.

What I learned about myself while he was gone was interesting. I found out that I can rise to almost any task if I have to. I'll say that again. I can rise to almost any task if I have to. I can also rise to almost any task if I put my mind to it. The doctor has put certain limitations on my movements such as no bending over, leaning, stretching to reach things, bending to pick things up etc. So you can imagine how creative I had to get in order to pick things up off of the floor, fill the dog's empty water dish, empty the dish washer or dryer or put on the dog's leash. Getting a pan out of the lower cabinet was an interesting venture too. I have a grabbing tool that I would be lost without! It took me forever to do everything, but hey, there was no time limit on anything and I got everything completed.

What amazed me the most was that I didn't take the easy way out and eat pre-packaged snacks, frozen or fast food high sodium/high fat meals instead of healthy food. I actually struggled to cook enough for several meals at one time (of healthy food). The first meal I made was ground chicken with tomato sauce, green beans, and unsweetened apple sauce for dessert. The second time I made Fiber One muffins (for breakfast) , BBQ chicken breast, spinach and unsweetened apple sauce. My neighbor sent over several meals which I've managed to get him to cook in a more healthy fashion. See, Spark People is invading our neighborhood! In turn, I sent over some Fiber One muffins where I substituted unsweetened applesauce for the oil and egg whites for the full egg with the yolk. He thought they were delicious. Those healthy Spark substitutions are very handy! I cooked enough food for at least 5-6 dinners.

Now that hubby is home, I really appreciate all that he does for me. I do know that if anything were to happen again, that I can take care of myself.

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SLENDERELLA61 10/5/2011 9:11AM

    Sorry you were by yourself, but BIG congrats on your determination and creativity. Even with great restrictions, you can take care of yourself. You did a great job to cook healthy and involve your neighbors, too. Wishing you speedy recovery to a greater level of health than you have known for years. -Marsha

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AMANDAJCD 10/4/2011 3:27PM

    Well done! But I'm glad your husband is now home. Whew :)

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RUTHIEBEAR 10/4/2011 12:19PM

    emoticon emoticon Sounds like you did what you needed to to care for yourself without putting yourself in harm's way after your operation! You are inspiring. emoticon

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FITCOFFEEMOM357 10/4/2011 7:56AM

    Way to go!!!!

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DONNABRIGHT 10/4/2011 7:50AM

    Awesome blog. We do what we have to do and it's nice to know we can do it but don't have to all the time.

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TBRANCH2 10/3/2011 10:25PM

    I knew you could do it! You are strong & stubborn!!! lol
Looking forward to seeing you & hubby at our team dinner!

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SLIMMERJESSE 10/3/2011 8:29PM

    Good for you! Way to go!

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