Saturday, August 13, 2011
I now have a neurosurgeon appointment on August 24. The doctor's office wants me to bring all of the disks of MRIs of my cervical spine with me. I will also bring those done before disk technology was as available such as before 2009. Apparently he can see growth pattern or something.
I'm still spending much of my day in bed resting both neck and arm. On a positive note, my motion is much better on the right side but the pain on the left is bad. I was able to carefully put on my floatation belt, keep my arms to my chest and kick my feet around in the pool on three days this week. The exercise helped my circulation and I think was instrumental in helping my right side move better. I do tire quite a bit so I come home and spend the rest of the day resting. It isn't much of a life right now but it beats the alternative. I look at it as being temporary until I can be fixed.
I have lost another pound. Yea me!
I am having a real problem dealing with stress. I gave up eating through it long ago and turned to exercise. Exercising (and over exercising) has caused me to have many injuries over the years. Right now most exercise is also out of the question. After talking to one of my doctors and my family, I've decided to keep a feelings diary as an outlet for anger, frustration and fear. I was also advised to have myself good old fashioned cry about once a week. I'm not a crier my nature - at least not for myself. I cry at sad movies and at the pain of others but almost never for myself. Plus crying gives me a headache and makes my eyes puffy. That brings up the question, why am I so empathetic to others and seemingly lacking in empathy for myself? I think that ranks right up there with putting myself at the bottom of the list. I'm going to make a note of this and chew on it for a while.