Sunday, April 25, 2010
For those of you who know me personally, you know how stressful my life has been for the last year - starting with my daughter's near fatal auto accident and followed by one event after another. Yesterday was no exception. At one point I just wanted to sit down and have myself a good cry.
It would be easy for hubby and I to wallow in a pool of self pity but while we were doing that, life would pass us by. Everyone has their own share of stressful times - we're not all that different from everyone else. So, we exchanged lots of hugs, did some venting, completed a little research on the computer, I did chores, and finally we tried distraction. We had a prayer session with a lay minister when we picked up our Angel food at the church center. We even put ourselves on the church prayer list for that church. We thought that might make both of us feel at least a little bit better. It didn't quite bring the temporary relief that we sought. The distraction we tried was very helpful. We watched an action DVD which was helpful. I kept getting up to do laundry etc. I was fairly tired last night (because of all the chores I'm sure) and fell right to sleep. Hubby wasn't so lucky. He was up and down all night. Poor guy, I wish I could help him get rid of enough stress to get some sleep.
So how come I can sleep and hubby can't? Well for one thing I'm more active (even if just around the house) than he is and my diet and water consumption are better. But the real key is God. When I feel exhausted and can't cope, I talk to God. In the past year I've been trying to open those lines of communication during my quest to achieve balance between mind, body and spirit. The heart of my Spark Journey is improving all three - mind, body and spirit - and achieving a balance with them. I've gotten into the habit of praying multiple times every day. We also attend church on a regular basis and about half way through the service, my stress drops away. This happens every time too. It's simply amazing!
When I can't sleep at night, I ask God to hold all the stress and troubles for me while I rest. I will then ask him to give it back to me when I'm rested and refreshed the next day. Mentally, I carefully bundle it all up - I'm careful not to leave any gaps where some might escape - and hand it all to God to keep, so I can rest. I started doing this right after my daughter's accident and it has been wonderful. The funny thing is that very little of it is left when it comes time to work on it the next day. Either God doesn't give it back because he knows I'm too stressed to handle it (and he's handling it for me) or the act of resting my body makes it easier for me to cope with the stress and it seems like a much smaller amount the next day. Who's to say what causes this phenomenon to occur, but it works and I feel very blessed.