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What I want to do for myself in the Love Myself As I Am Now March Challenge 2010

Monday, March 01, 2010

The Challenge for March 2010, is to learn to love yourself as you are right now. This means that I have to look at myself realistically and be able to see my faults and accept them and be able to celebrate my gifts and strong points. I need to stop fixating on my weight and focus elsewhere!

I would like to increase my positive self talk and be less self conscious about my weight. I'd like to revive my interest in pretty clothes and accessories and to see getting dressed up as something fun instead of dreading it or using clothes to hide my body. I have already been working on this for the past 18 months, but I can still use some concentrated effort. I'd also like to emphasize an attitude of gratitude. Appreciating the gifts of nature and friendships are very uplifting and make me a happier person. When I give, I get so much back just from the simple act of giving. Developing a grateful, loving attitude toward myself , nature, and others will set the stage for being able to love myself as I am now. For the month of March 2010, I will be my own biggest cheerleader and advocate. I will treat myself with loving kindness; much as I would a treasured friend.

  
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PRINCESS895 3/7/2010 2:27PM

    A joyful heart is good medicine,
But a broken spirit dries up the bones.

Proverbs 17:22

Stay Happy. You have truly inspired me.

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VICIOUS421 3/1/2010 9:58PM

    If we all talked to ourselves and treated ourselves as if we were a dear and treasured friend I think we all would be a lot happier with ourselves!!! I don't know what team this challenge is on but I think I will join you in this challenge and try to treat myself as I would a dear and treasured friend! Thank you for the inspiration!!!!
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L*I*T*A* 3/1/2010 10:57AM

    wonderful blog...............you are a treasured friend !!!
thanks for sharing and all the best with your challenge.............blessings and hugs...............lita

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PEGGYANNSCH 3/1/2010 10:54AM

    That is great

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BUTEAFULL 3/1/2010 10:39AM

    same realizations I came to about myself, one of the reasons I joined the red hat society we dress to look outlandish on purpose and revel in it

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GLAMNGLOWDIVA 3/1/2010 3:18AM

    That is wonderful. I wish you all the luck with your challenge!

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SLENDERELLA61 3/1/2010 1:39AM

    Beautiful! Just beautiful! You are a treasured friend and I am so glad that you are consciously and conscientiously working to be your own treasured friend as well.

Thank you for this challenge and all you do for our team! -Marsha

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Spa Day

Saturday, February 27, 2010

This morning our local team had a spa day. I wasn't sure what to expect but between the facials, hand and feet massages, heat packs, snacks, relaxation breathing and laughter, we all had a great time. One of our members said she thought she'd go to sleep right on the couch!

Many times we get so busy that we tend to race from thing to thing. Our own needs get put to the bottom of the list. The needs may never see the light of day unless we address them directly with purpose. Spa day was all about relaxing, sharing and feeling good. We had healthy snacks and great conversation. I actually hated for it to be over. So, before we each went on our separate ways, we decided to do it again on May 22. Perhaps we'll have time to enlist a few volunteer professionals to come and participate in our pampering session. The best part was that I didn't even feel guilty for taking a big 3 hour block of time out of my day to pamper and relax and I feel great!

  
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PEGGYANNSCH 2/28/2010 9:48AM

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Maybe next time I will be able to be there.I will mark in down May 22

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ILIKEYOU 2/28/2010 12:26AM

    oooh, that sounds so lovely! good for you!
(i need to schedule ones of those soon:))

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SLENDERELLA61 2/27/2010 11:14PM

    Thanks again, Cyndi. It was wonderful!! You are very much appreciated. Love, Marsha

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Loving Myself As I Am Now

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

This year I decided that I would give up negative self talk/actions (and replace it with loving myself as I am now) for Lent. I have been working on this concept for about a year and a half now, but I want to ramp it up and work on being more consistent. For those of us who have areas of low self extreme and who have been abused, it seems to be a constant inner struggle. So I'm going to take that struggle and make it my personal project for Lent. Lent is supposed to be all about struggle and this fits in well. For one of my Spark teams, we focused on Loving Yourself as our February Challenge. As I was in the process of doing this challenge, I discovered that although I'm very supportive of others, I'm not as supportive of myself as I could be. I tend to be very self critical and have very high expectations for my own achievement and actions. In short, I'm undermining my own happiness and success by not accepting me as I am now! I should be my own biggest cheerleader and right now, I'm not.

How did this happen? I was doing really well with positive self talk/actions and then I got busy, sick and stressed out. The first things to go were many of the positive self talk/actions habits that I was trying to form. Yes, the very ones that I was in the process of developing. I'm not going to beat myself up over it because that would put me on a downward spiral and be counterproductive. Instead, I'm going to increase my own awareness of what I'm doing to myself. The first thing I need to do is counter every negative thought about myself with a positive thought about myself. Example: I fell down during a walk in the park. Instead of telling myself, " What a klutz I am, I should have paid closer attention to what I'm doing. It was stupid, stupid, stupid!", I should have said something to the effect, "I was so focused in the beauty of nature that I didn't see that tree root. I feel good out here looking at all the birds. It's great that I'm taking care of my body by doing a long walk. Aerobic activities are good for me. Yea me!" Of course hindsight is always 20/20 and my improved version of positive self talk/actions looks great on paper but what about the reality of it? I need to map out a plan to help turn it around.

I decided to create an upcoming challenge for March (on a different team that I help to lead) as an exercise in learning to love yourself as you are now. Over the past year I have noticed that many members (myself included) have discussed the idea of low self extreme and self image issues. Even those of us who have lost a large amount of weight still have some of these same issues. What better way to start the process of making positive self talk/actions into a new habits than to do a challenge for a whole month. As I was designing the daily activities, I felt myself starting to get excited about the whole idea. Hopefully the team members will do the challenge too. Since the team is a local one, we can help to support one another when we get together for four upcoming team events. We will be kicking off our challenge with a team Spa Day. The focus will be on relaxations and taking care of your body.

  
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SLENDERELLA61 2/27/2010 11:19PM

    Great blog! Very good example of positive self talk in the Circle B walking situation. I'm really looking forward to the challenge you have created for us. All of us need it. Maybe some of us who live with a lot of criticism and negativity from others need it even more. Thanks for your outstanding leadership. Love, Marsha

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L*I*T*A* 2/23/2010 9:32PM

    great idea...........will be so much fun espeically for all in the local team......all the best with the challenge.......blessings and hugs...............lita

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2CATS2LOVE1 2/23/2010 5:19PM

    Sounds like a terrific idea! I, too, suffer from low self esteem issues. I am a perfectionist but trying hard to be middle ground. I work w/ a lot of Hispanic people and as I watch them at work it amazes me how happy they are working and being together. It's something I'm learning. Not to take myself too seriously and to be forgiving not only of myself but others also. Keep up the good work!!

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JENSHAWN 2/23/2010 3:47PM

    I am working more on me now, too. It reminds me of the airplane announcement that says when the air mask comes put yours on first(so you will be able to help others). You gotta do stuff for You!

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CONNEALS 2/23/2010 3:39PM

    What a great blog! I love that you are going to embrace what you have achieved. I recognized myself in some of your comments and I'm going to work on it too!

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LISAGL1 2/23/2010 3:12PM

    Good for you! You should be proud of yourself for making up you mind. I have a lot of respect for you! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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Me vs Negative Self Behavior

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Sometimes I am so into the habit of seeing if anyone is watching me or judging me that it detracts from my enjoyment the moment. I catch sight of myself in a mirror or window and wonder, do I look this fat to others? What do they think of when they see me? Am I doing something that makes me look stupid or clumsy? Why am I even thinking about that??? Here's a great example. Yesterday I walked at the park. I tripped over a root while I was watching the wildlife. Boom! I fell flat on my face. The first thing I did when I got up and brushed myself off was to glance around to see if anyone saw me. I felt a tremendous sense of relief when I noticed that I was out of the line of vision of those around me. (I hope!) Instead, I should laugh it off, accept myself as I am and move on. I've decided that for Lent, I am going to give up my negative self behavior because it undermines my own progress. This is a different twist on giving something up for Lent. In order to be successful, I will have to change my behavior. It may have been only day 3 of Lent and I messed up but I am determined. I think the struggle that is before me is what Lent is all about. So struggle, I shall.

  
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ANIKA34 2/22/2010 11:22AM

    I feel the same way you do. I hate looking at myself in the mirror at times, and I wonder to if I look that fat to others. I beat myself up over it. I am trying to have a more positive attitude about myself. Some days are easier than others. Keep your chin up! You can do it!!!

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EDNABP 2/22/2010 9:58AM

    Just think of it as a stumble. We all have those and you just have to get up and continue on the path of life. You are a strong person and will continue to do great things on this jouney. Just hold you head up high and know you can do it.

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Two Steps Forward, One Step Back...

Friday, February 19, 2010

I had an interesting doctor's appointment this morning. My doctor didn't like the fact that I still have a persistent cough. She heard wheezing when she listened to my chest but my lungs are clear. This is good news, kind of. She told me that I need to go on steroids (again) in order to clear up the wheezing and congestion. I explained to her that every time I go on steroids, I gain 10-15 pounds. Since May 2009, I've had 18 steroid shots for orthopedic and allergy reasons. She told me that if I can't breathe, that is serious; especially with asthma. If you can't breathe, you can't exercise. She told me to take the prescription and not to fill it if I didn't want to. Just then, I had a horrible coughing attack that made my eyes water. She raised her eyebrow and said she'd meet me at the front desk. I took my prescriptions and went to the lab for blood work. Thank goodness I had the foresight to fast because steroids really mess up my numbers.

Next, I went to physical therapy for my lower back. For some reason my spine is pulling to the left. My therapist and his student therapist spent 40 minutes stretching and manipulating my lower spine. Finally, my back released and straightened a bit. Success at last! Of course my back and hips are really sore but we're making progress. He really wants me to get back into doing my water aerobics as soon as possible. I joked with my therapist that taking the steroids for my cough would probably help my back and he agreed. He just smiled that smile.

Finally, I went to the pharmacy to see if my doctor called in my prescription. This is one prescription that she didn't hand me on the way out of her office. Instead, she called it into the drug store. Persistent wasn't she? Of course she was right. I've taken my first dose and I feel much better. It's funny how taking a step back for one issue can help me to take a step forward for another. Ah-hh well, two steps forward and one step back.

  
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DONNABRIGHT 2/20/2010 9:58AM

    Hang in there - sounds like you are making some progress.

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L*I*T*A* 2/19/2010 2:59PM

    well it is a good thing to listen to our dr's.......perhaps you won't need it for as long as in the past and the weight gain may be minimal...........all the best....blessings and hugs......lita

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LAPOPELK 2/19/2010 2:50PM

    It does seem to work that way. It seems that things are starting to turn around! I hope this works for you.

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CAITLINANN10 2/19/2010 2:50PM

    Two steps forward and one step back is still going forward! That is always a good thing.

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