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Getting back on track

Thursday, December 18, 2008

I must admit that when my dad passed away, my life came to an abrupt standstill. After all the years of abuse, who would have thought it? Don't get me wrong, I love my dad; I just don't like him. My brother is almost but not quite the same as dad within the family structure. I always idolized him until last year. I don't like him so much any more either. To find out that Dad died via an email to someone else? Inexcusable and devastating! To find out that Dad had been ill for 4-5 months and I wasn't told - cruel at best. The secret was kept so that my brother could exclude me and have Dad to himself. Well with both my parents gone now he is the only child that he always wanted to be. My sister took herself out of the equation 40 years ago. This just re enforces my decision to take myself out of a bad situation. Do I regret it? No, not a chance! My emotional health is so much better for doing it. It's just a shame that it had to be this way. I am still reeling and very sad though.

This brings me to how I'm doing with all of this upheaval in my life. I'm taking a long, hard look at my relationship with food and how I deal with stress. Basically, I feel that I've done well all things considered. I did my best to cope and I did cope. Surprise, surprise! I didn't watch my sodium as well as I should and I've been having difficulty getting the salt out of my system. This has caused my weight to bounce around a bit. I did eat more sweets than I normally do too. However, I am very excited that I can see that I did this and have backed off on it. I'm taking it one day at a time. Of course, in the middle of all of this my doctor's office called and said that my thyroid numbers were too low and my medication needed to be reduced. That could also cause my weight to bounce around a bit. I'm trying to get back on a regular schedule of exercise to counter balance a bit. I'm almost back in the groove! Yay me!

Throughout all of this trauma and upheaval, my husband and daughter have been ever so supportive. Even though my daughter was crushed by her grandfather's death, we stuck together and saw it through. We made sure to spend time together - just the two of us while we were in my dad's town. Since my daughter lives in another state, this was very important. We actually went Christmas shopping at a local mall to try to get away from it all and create some new memories in an old familiar place. So the joy of spending time with her and doing something as mundane as shopping actually helped both of our pain levels. We talked and talked and talked. She is such a special person. I am so blessed. Life will be good again.

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CINNIEMAY 12/18/2008 2:19PM

    I am so sorry about your loss. I have a sibling that is much the same. I think that it is awful that people that are your family can be so mean. But that is life I guess. Just take care of yourself! My dad passed away 8 years ago and his borthday wouldhave been this week. So the pain of losing a parent lessens but nevers fully goes away! Take care, Cindy

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November Challenge 2008 Week Four

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Here we are at the end of November already! I must confess that this month flew by and I'm surprised that today is the 30th!

I have updated my goals and revamped my goal to reflect 80 pounds instead of 100 pounds. This is because I've lost 23 pounds and a goal of 100 seemed huge to me. With a goal of 80, I feel like I'm making better progress. It doesn't really affect the weight I've lost already, just makes the goal look more achievable to me psychologically.

Overall I'm pleased with my weight loss for November. Last week I ate fish in a salty sauce right before I weighed in and I weighed .5 pounds more. As I predicted, the weight came off and then some a few days later. Despite my father's death this week, I've come fairly close to staying in my range. I'm feeling like I've got more control over my eating and food isn't controlling me.

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CINNIEMAY 12/1/2008 10:15AM

    Great job! You are doing great!

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1AVERY 11/30/2008 12:56PM

    You have a positive outlook and the smaller goals are supposed to make it easier. I just make goals for the month and I have had a goal to lose 5 lbs. for the last couple months. I gained 7 in October maybe the scale thought I meant to go up instead of down. LOL. November again was 5 lbs. I will weigh myself on Monday and see how November went I didn't get started seriously until the 20th so any loss will make me happy. You are doing GREAT with all that is going on in your life right now. So take care of yourself at this time and you will make it through the challenges facing you. You have a lot of sparkfriends supporting you along the way. Teri emoticon

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November Challenge Week Three

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Well, week three started out great. I was walking and doing water aerobics like clockwork. However, when I got on the scale on Sunday, I gained .5 pounds! I reviewed my food diary and discovered that I had eaten several things when I ate out that had more sodium than I'm used to. I was bummed that I had let down my team. I spent the next 2 days drinking, drinking and drinking followed by exercise and careful eating. I had a doctor's appointment on Tuesday and my weight was down to 242!!! I felt so much better! I shouldn't let the number on the scale define my success!!!
My doctor made me feel really good and said that she was so proud of me. She wrote down the web address for Spark People and after she checks out the site, she'll start referring patients. So, week three all worked out for the best. God has a purpose for me and I have to trust that. The plan must have been for me to do exactly what I did so I could get my doctor to start referring to SP.

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CINNIEMAY 11/29/2008 6:41PM

    Way to go! Keep up the great work!

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November Challenge Week Two

Sunday, November 16, 2008

I am soooo excited this week!!! I've lost 3.5 pounds - at long last! I've cut back my gym visits to 3 visits per week and I've increased my walking over the weekends at home. I've also increased the walking I'm doing during the week at home. I'm still varying the number of calories every day, but still staying within my range. I'm also varying my workouts - 3 days of water aerobics followed by water jogging and 4 days of walking and doing weight training with dumbbells 2 times a week.

I'm excited to see what week 3 holds in store for me. We can do this!!!!

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HEALTHYKITKAT 11/17/2008 6:44PM

    great job keep up the work next week will be even better. You inspire me. New girl on the block. Hope I do as well. Kitty M. emoticon

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CINNIEMAY 11/16/2008 10:35PM

    Great job! emoticon

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Week One of the November Challenge 2008

Sunday, November 09, 2008

I think that I did well on week one of our November Challenge. I only went to the gym three times this past week. (a big difference from previous weeks where I was going all seven days) I did two to three hours of water exercise every day that I went to the gym. The other four days of the week I did large amounts of walking with my sister or my husband. We either walked around our neighborhood or walked around the local shopping mall. I listened to my body and skipped the weight machines this week due to back pain. (I intend to go back to doing the machines when my back feels better) Instead, I used 6 pound dumbbells twice this week at home and water weights during my water workouts at the gym. I did not think that I would continue to lose weight when I started practicing moderation in my workouts, but I still lost one pound. I was really afraid that if I did cut back on the large amounts of exercise (yes, I know that I am being compulsive in the amount of exercise I am doing) that my metabolism would come to a total standstill and I'd stop losing weight. Since I am severe hypothyroid, this still may be something that may happen this week if I'm not careful. My measurements were the same as they were last week and that pleases me. All in all, I am pleased with the way the first week played out. I am ready and excited to start week two of the November Challenge!!! Go Fowl Play! We can do this!

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CINNIEMAY 11/10/2008 11:32AM

    Sounds like you are doing very well! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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