Monday, July 27, 2009
As those of you who have been following my blogs for the last 9 months can attest, there are many things that happen in our lives that are beyond our control. The one thing we can control is what goes into our mouths and how much we move our bodies.
I would like to think that after almost a year on Spark People, that food would never control me. I would be lying if I said I am always in control. There are just those days when we give into temptation. It just happens sometimes and we have to learn to take the occasional slip up in stride. After all of the ups and downs, I'm still not going to give up on myself and throw in the towel. I can control what I eat, eating doesn't have to control me. If I eat for health first and pleasure second, and eat with purpose, I know that I'll be a much healthier person.
Eating with purpose is only one part of getting healthy. I have to get out there and move my body. This improves circulation, burns calories and exercises my heart and lungs. My goal for the rest of the summer is to do some sort of continuous exercise for about 30 minutes a day. If I want to do more, fine, but I'd like to get back into the habit of setting aside a block of time to do nothing else but exercise. I can't allow myself to become a willing victim of circumstances beyond my control and let myself go. If fate wants to force me to not exercise and eat for health, I'll go kicking and screaming until the bitter end. I have to be willing to fight for my own health and that I intend to do because I am worth the effort it takes to become healthy.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
I don't want to jinx it but for the first time since her accident, after taking just 3 of her anti-seizure pills, my daughter and I had a normal conversation on the phone today. It was the first time since May 11, 2009, that I've been able to talk to her and have her actually follow our conversation and not have me repeat everything 3-4 times and stare into space. I asked her if she could tell any difference yet and she said that she was a little sharper mentally. I could see a difference and am glad she could too. I could have cried with relief! I only hope this will continue! A big weight is starting to lift off of my shoulders.
Friday, July 24, 2009
I'm pretty upset right now. Yes, I'm glad to be home. I really missed hubby, my fur babies and all my Spark friends. However, this morning my daughter called me in a panic. Her neurologist called and asked her to come into his office right away. Of course nobody was available to go with her so she had to go by herself. When my daughter and I went for her last appointment on Monday (7/20) I assumed that since all of her tests had been done that everything was okay. The doctor had just come back from vacation, was running late and hadn't reviewed all of her test results thoroughly. He said that the data from her EEG wasn't in her file. Maybe that's true, I don't know. So she went in immediately. Upon review of her EEG, the doctor told her that she had abnormal brain waves that were indicative of possible seizure activity. He immediately put her on some strong medication and will do an EEG that will last 24 hours sometime in August. So, she got the prescription filled and took it just like he instructed her to. Unfortunately, the medication makes her act drunk and she is all over the place mentally. Not exactly what you want when you're dealing with people's computer problems as a problem solver. At first I was really angry with her doctor because now she has to go back to work or lose her job. Now that I've calmed down, I'm afraid that this is going to be a life-long illness as a result of an accident caused because someone else wasn't paying attention and can't remember what he was doing when he ran into her. So far, she hasn't had a full blown seizure - that's the good news. However, when you talk to her she hears the sound of your voice but can't process your words and may have to have you repeat things 2 or 3 times before she can process what you're saying. In stressful situations she has real problems maintaining attention. Hopefully the medication will start working before she has to leave for work on Monday morning. I shutter to think about her taking the medication that makes her loopy, and getting behind the steering wheel of a car. According to my daughter, the doctor said that if she can avoid any full blown seizures there is a chance that it will heal and go away. If this is really the case, why would the doctor ask her if she wants to have children in the next few years? He selected her medication with that in mind because some seizure medications have side effects that will affect a fetus. That doesn't sound temporary to me, it sounds permanent. I'm just so upset about all of this that I think I'm going to go into the bedroom and have myself a good cry. Hey, at least I'm not grabbing for a candy bar!
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