Sunday, June 21, 2009
Ever have those times when you're just barely hanging on???
There are days (weeks) when you can get so overloaded that you feel like you're just barely hanging on. It reminds me of one of my favorite parables, "Footprints", by Margaret Fishback Powers.
It goes like this:
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He notices that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. he also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him, and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that, during the most troublesome times of my life, there is only one set of footprints, I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you would leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you saw only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
If you are having as rough a time right now as I am, please know that you are never alone during the most troublesome times of your life. You have friends to support you, me included, and that peaceful divine presence. Know that during our times of trial and suffering, it is then that he carries us.
Look for the rainbows after the storm, they are out there you just have to find them!
Together we will get through all of life's troubles.
Hugs to you all,
Saturday, June 20, 2009
I am currently making travel arrangements to go to stay with my daughter in Maryland. How long I will be gone remains to be seen. I am very scared - afraid for her health. Together, she and I will get through this. We are strong. We will prevail.
Thank you everyone who has sent me your prayers and good wishes. We certainly need all of them.
Friday, June 19, 2009
If I seem to disappear during the next few weeks it is because my daughter was diagnosed with brain trauma from her car accident last month. I will be going up to be with her at the end of this month. She is at home but she needs someone to be with her as her condition worsens. She has been severely restricted on her activities and movement. The neurologist gave her the news yesterday after a series of brain scans, MRIs and MRAs. He has said no driving (except to his office and physical therapy for her lower back - 5 min away) and no bending, lifting, twisting or sudden movements. Apparently the injury hasn't peaked yet and they expect it to get worse in the next couple of weeks before it starts to subside. The injury has sapped her strength and she is currently doing a lot of sleeping. She has blazing headaches, dizziness, fainting, memory loss and some confusion. In short, things are not looking good for her right now unless she has total rest. That's where mom (me) comes in to help. I was scheduled to have spinal shots on July 10th which will now either have to be done June 26 or postponed until further notice. She is my top priority. She will depend on me to get her organized, talk to her lawyer, take her for therapy and to the doctor, do shopping, prepare meals, do laundry/cleaning and help her decide on the best course of further treatment. She also damaged her neck and lower back but until the brain has stabilized her other doctors can't treat those.
A little background info here. These injuries were as a result of some idiot in a large company truck who wasn't paying attention and hit the back of her car as he was speeding down the highway at 70mph. (He got a string of tickets thank goodness!) She was hit from behind, flew into the grassy median, hit a tree, spun around and hit a second tree. Her car was in pieces. Her memory of it is sketchy and she said that suddenly an ambulance appeared. She got out of the car and walked over to the ambulance for treatment. Her hand hurt but she could feel nothing anywhere else. The hospital x-rayed her hand and sent her home with some pain pills with instructions to follow up with her doctor the next day. Her doctor told her that he doesn't like to treat accident victims but he did see her 2-3 the first week before referring her to a quack orthopedic doctor who saw her once (he didn't take her insurance and didn't like taking accident cases either), told her to find a physical therapist and get some therapy. He was going to send her back to work after 7 days. He never saw her again and for the next 3 weeks he just called in prescriptions to the drug store as her treatment plan. Meanwhile, her condition was going down hill quickly. I stepped in and we got her an appointment with my old orthopedist. They took her right away and put her on bed rest and physical therapy for her back and neck. Then she started passing out and getting dizzy. My doctor sent her back to the emergency room (different hospital thank goodness) for treatment. There they told her she had a bladder infection, wrote a prescription, gave her the name of a neurologist and sent her home. The neurologist was alarmed at the treatment she had received and took her right away. He did a very thorough exam and scheduled a bunch of high tech tests. Based on her symptoms, her test results and her current condition, he told her that she has moderate brain trauma and is currently going into post concussion syndrome. Because her body has been so traumatized and bruised she can't go back to work until further notice. My heart is breaking for her as she goes through this and I wish I could take the pain away for her. I know that it will get worse before it gets better but I dread the vomiting and passing out that is yet to come. This is my baby we're talking about and I feel so helpless.
Thank you all in advance for your support. I will miss you during the weeks to come.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
I'm delighted to say that I didn't get any new rashes from my pool workout yesterday! Yea! I did get a strange looking sunburn from the spots that I missed when I put on my sun block. I'll be more careful when applying the cream the next time. I can't wait until Friday when I have my next water aerobics class.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Finally I got into the pool today! Yea! I did a very slow aerobics class with water walking, some arm work, sit ups and leg lifts. I'm pooped! I didn't realize just how out of shape I have gotten! That will be remedied shortly. The water also relaxed me and I feel like I could lie down and go to sleep right now! So, I think I will!
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