Saturday, May 30, 2009
This morning I looked at how many times I went over my calorie range this week. I am disappointed in me and I need to do better in the days to come. I know why I did it. There are several reasons, all related to my orthopedic problems. First, I've been having steroid shots which raise your blood sugar level and thus make you think you're hungry. Sometimes I ate when I thought I was hungry even though I had eaten an hour before. That has to stop NOW! I need to get back to eating 6 times a day and that will greatly subside. Secondly, I found myself eating to get rid of my pain. Hello? That is why my doctor prescribed specific medications to deal with the pain. I was remiss in taking enough of those medications to make myself comfortable and turned to my long time crutch, namely food. Today, I've already taken steps to get rid of this problem and will work harder with it in the future. Next, even though I carry protein bars/snacks and water with me wherever I go, I've been drinking the water but skipping or putting off eating because I get busy with some task. Then I find myself feeling really tired and shaky because I go way too long without food and grab too much of the first healthy food I can get my hands on. This much I'll say for myself, the food that I do eat is generally healthy; I just need to eat more regularly and in smaller portions. I will need to get back to purposeful eating. It really is better for my body, keeps me from being hungry and makes it easier to get in all the nutrients that I need every day. I've been so wrapped up in pain and treatments that I forgot all about purposeful eating. That is going to be my goal for the next week. I will practice purposeful eating and taking care of myself properly. I'm willing to bet that everything will even out.
On the positive side, I've done lots of things that were right.
Here are some things I've done daily:
I've eaten my 5+ fruits and veggies, been drinking 64+ ounces of water, been taking my prescribed D3/calcium/vitamins, been eating 25+ grams of fiber, had success with my fat/protein/carb intake, been faithful about logging onto SP and I've been trying to hold myself accountable every day.
I've improved my sleep (a new bed really helped!) and taken "me" time every day. I've gotten a minimum of 30 minutes of walking every day and I will go back to weight training and an increase in aerobic exercise in the next month, once the doctor has approved it. I've been practicing moderation and have tried to be much less compulsive about exercise,cleaning and taking responsibility for things that aren't my responsibility. I'm having success in developing emotionally and spiritually. I'm trying to deal with my father's death and my brother's betrayal in a mature fashion, while still managing to protect myself emotionally. I've been lax in keeping my journal for the past 2 weeks but I'm still referring to the topics that I've written down and given thought to them every day. I'm learning to give boundaries and this has greatly improved my relationship with my husband, daughter and sister. (I'm still working on not being a doormat for the world to step on but hay, one thing at a time!)
As I read back over this blog I can see one big thing that pleases me. I've come a long way baby!
Yea me! Remember, today I'm great, tomorrow I'm going to be a much improved version of me. I can only imagine where I'll be a year from now!