Saturday, March 28, 2009
I enjoyed reading Nicole Nichols blog, "Discover the Perfect Workout for Your Fitness Personality."
It made me think about who I am now, where I've been, where I'm going, all of the choices that are out there for me and who I want to become in the future. My biggest problem was that I could see a part of myself in every type! I was a math teacher for 25 years and sometimes I can be comfortable with routines, which would make me a square. I love to work in groups, but often work alone which would make me a rectangle. I keep copious notes and records and can be competitive, which would make me a triangle. There are days when I am a social butterfly which would make me a circle, but I admit once I make exercise a daily habit I am rather compulsive and driven. The only one I may be able to rule out is the squiggle. I'm generally not someone who flits from routine to routine, although I have to say that a certain amount of variety does keep me from getting bored. What do all these types have in common? Well, the square, rectangle and triangle are all made up of line segments. The circle is a closed curve and the squiggle involves a curved line. (yes, I know it's dumb but remember I was a math teacher) I would have to say I'm a flexible straight line that can be part of a group of straight lines to make a shape or can have the flexibility to become curved! Does this mean I'm a lost soul who can't make up her mind? I don't think so. I'm a composite of many parts - a work in progress with many avenues still available to learn from and explore. The question I need to ask myself is, "How do I proceed in such a way that I have enough choices to find my way and develop into the person I want to become in the future?" I want to continue to map out a course that will make me happy with myself and my life.
Something that I need to consider is the element of compromise. Life is all about compromise. If done using discrimination, it can make life easier for you and help you to grow and learn all along life's journey. If not done with discrimination but in absolutes, you can either end up alone, frustrated and bitter or you can begin to resemble a bowl of Jello and totally lose yourself. I don't know about you, but being alone, frustrated and bitter just doesn't appeal to me. As for the Jello, I'm trying my hardest to get rid of wiggly arms, thighs and butt and I'd prefer to keep anything that is vaguely akin to Jello away from me. There is this big, wide world out there just waiting for us to explore. I will try out many things before I choose to incorporate certain changes into my life. It needs to be a pretty good fit for me feel comfortable. Compromise with discrimination will widen my scope, add to my possibilities and choices and add spice to my life. It may at times take me out of my comfort zone, which I'm sure I'll find scary. If I can keep an open mind, take small risks by trying out new things and learn along the way, it looks like my future could be fun and exciting!
Friday, March 27, 2009
I slept like I was dead last night until about 3 a.m.! WooHoo! The doctor gave me a new medication for the muscles in my back and it knocked my young (lol) butt right out! I think the easing of the pain let my tired body rest for a little while. When I finally got out of bed this morning, some of the knots in my neck were gone. Hopefully as I take the meds each night, it will work it's way down my spine a bit more. I just hung out at home today, afraid to push myself too hard. I am really watching what I eat and drink as I've had to cut back even more on exercise with the exception of doing some walking. I'm still tracking everything on the SP food tracker; this includes protein, fat, carbs, sodium, vitamins and minerals. Still no word on when the MRI will take place but that's okay. When I feel a little better, I head back into the water.
I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for all of their positive and supportive comments. Without all of you, I don't think I could be as positive!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
I finally got to see my pain management doctor today. (She is an amazing, compassionate human being) I suffer from the chronic pain, produced by degenerative disk disease, which is usually at least somewhat under control. (I have one fusion and have had 2 blocks on my spine so far.) Coupled with my two knee replacements, managing pain can often times get a little tricky. Sometimes I can exercise and function for a few months with tolerable amounts of pain. (Of course over the years this has upped my pain tolerance significantly) Water exercise, a TENs unit, PT, hot/cold packs, prescriptions and therapeutic massages are all very helpful. Sometimes the pain gets away from me and I need a little medical intervention. I often wait too long to seek medical help because I first want to see if I can get it controlled myself or I wait to see if it goes away by itself. Yeah, right like that's going to happen. I should know better! Anyway, I paid my doctor a little visit this morning. She was surprised at the current shape of my back. You could bounce a coin off just about any place on my back because the muscles are so hard and bunched. Thank goodness the good doctor didn't give me a lecture about coming in sooner - she knows me fairly well by now! She gave me some new meds to take and wants me to have an MRI of the thoracic spine in case I ruptured a disk. With my high pain tolerance this easily could have happened last October 28 when I felt my back stiffen while I was doing my weight routine. I did go to physical therapy for it but it only worked up to a point. Right after that, I broke my foot and irritated my Achilles tendon (which caused me to waddle like a duck). I'm sure that didn't help my back any. Perhaps I should turn the waddle into a new dance that they could do on Dancing With the Stars! lol
A long time ago I decided that I could be positive, upbeat and hopeful or I could have a pity party and wallow in pain, which to me isn't a life-long option. Those of you who know me, know that I decided that being positive is preferable to any other option. Consequently, I'm not all that bummed about my current situation. At least it takes my mind off my foot! lol The doctor said she was very surprised at how I look and at how much weight I've lost since the beginning of 2008! She could see that I now have muscles and was impressed with my attitude. Of course I had to tell her I owe a significant amount of my progress to Spark People! She also told me that water exercise is a good way for people with knee and back problems to exercise, so I'm doing the right thing. Don't you just love it when you're doing the right thing? I know I do!!!
So, I will patiently or not so patiently wait for the MRI office to tell me when they have scheduled me to come in for my MRI. Meanwhile, I will paddle around in the water (I seem to have a duck fixation today) until I start quacking up. lol I will do what exercises I can and see what shows up on the MRI. Life goes on....... and........ I will prevail!!!!
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