Saturday, July 19, 2014
I got up this morning, trying to decide if I should rest or do another deep water workout. I have already done four very vigorous workouts this week, so I decided to rest and only do my physical therapy at home program.
This brings to mind the lyrics of the Kenny Rogers song, "The Gambler". To paraphrase part of the song, in order to be a success,
"You gotta know when to hold 'em
Know when to fold 'em.
Know when to walk away,
And know when to run."
Good advice for me that's for sure. So for today, I will "fold 'em" !
Thursday, July 17, 2014
I ate a healthy breakfast this morning, followed by a very vigorous hour plus workout. I loved that I could move through the water so smoothly. I felt strong and beautiful. I had a healthy lunch after my workout. My weight was up after my workout, when I weighed in at Weight Watchers. Surprisingly, I still feel strong and beautiful! I am trying to focus on my positive non scale changes.
I treated myself to some new shoes this afternoon. I feel that I need to do whatever it takes to support the healing and strengthening of my Achilles and my spine. Next month, I will replace some of my special insoles with new ones. I wore one of the pairs home from the store. They felt great even without being completely broken in. I have a new spring in my step and my limp is reduced by the support that the shoes offer.
So what precipitated all this change? I read a blog yesterday, written by a Spark member. In her blog, she talked about believing that the program will work if you keep plugging away and stick with it! I realized that I have been going through the motions for the last 6-8 months without really believing that I can be successful. I have had health issue after health issue throwing a wrench into my plans. I have tried to keep plugging away despite all of these bumps in the road. My weight has been doing a ping pong and I could feel myself getting frustrated. I had to decide if I actually believe in my own program.
I have decided that I need to give myself a chance to succeed without self criticism. During my workout this morning, I moved the way I remembered being able to move before I packed on the pounds. The freedom that moving in the water afforded me was exhilarating! I loved the way that my body was able to slice through the water. I felt strong and I could feel the power that my muscles have found over the recent months. So while the scale was playing jump rope, inside my body, some wonderful changes were taking place. Today, I decided to embrace those positive changes and believe in my program.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
This morning I felt down and disgusted with myself. It didn't help matters any that I was off my game when I woke up either. I got on the scale and wasn't happy with the number. As Coach Dean would say, my Fatitude was showing! I wasn't being kind to myself either. To work out or not to work out was my next question. I decided to just go ahead and do a light workout even though I just didn't feel like it. Before I left the house, I decided to track my breakfast. Suddenly I began to feel more in control.
I did 50 minutes of easy water jogging. The water was very chilly, I was late for class and could have said "forget it" but I didn't. The water temperature motivated me to move a little faster or freeze. Once I warmed up (it took about 30 minutes until I was comfortable) I started to feel better. When I got out of the water, I did a series of calf stretches. The stretches really helped my pain level and my mood improved even more.
After a nice warm shower, I went to physical therapy. I rode the stationary bike at a brisk pace for 5 minutes to warm up. My therapist put me through a series of new exercises which I also tolerated well. We discussed re-introducing the exercise that caused me problems. I discovered that the way I was doing it was a bit too advanced for my current condition and we corrected it. I was so relieved!
I went home after physical therapy. I ate a healthy lunch and again I tracked everything I put into my mouth. I was conscious of the fact that I suddenly felt in control. My fatitude toward myself had under gone a metamorphosis. Why, I asked myself? The answer was clear. I have taken back control of my eating and exercise. By tracking what I eat, I am controlling food, it isn't controlling me. By doing some exercise, even though I felt down, I took back control of my body and no longer allowed myself to remain static. I was being much kinder to myself too. The end result is that I like myself more today. I now feel motivated! I can do this!
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Yesterday, when I woke up, my Achilles was very painful again. Sigh! Not again! I went to the Y and worked out. I could only do one set of physical therapy exercises afterward. I had a series of appointments so instead of being able to go home to rest after my workout, I had to plow forward. Thank goodness my last appointment was physical therapy!
My therapist stopped my at home therapy program for a few days to let me rest. I am fine with that. I had trouble sleeping last night because I couldn't stand to have anything touch my leg. I decided to go one step further today and didn't go to the pool to workout. Instead, I did some slow walking for an hour in Walmart. For the remainder of the day, I have been off my feet. Tomorrow, I will do a 45 minute workout in the deep water and go to physical therapy afterwards. I am hoping that this is just part of the healing process. This is getting real old, real fast!
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