Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I honestly don't know whether to laugh or cry right now... we had been having trouble apartment hunting, and then yesterday, the realtor came and said the buyers want an extension on the financing, so instead of today, they have until the 7th to get everything together, and THEN we have to be out by april 16th. 9 days later. wtf. we can't get an extension on our end because then all the paperwork will have to be redone and we'd have to pay a lawyer double. I was hoping it would be today because our mortgage normally goes out on the 1st of each month, so if they had everything ready today, I wouldn't have to pay the mortgage...but it's extended... so now I have to pay the mortgage AND the insurance, AND pay a security deposit and first months rent and sign a years lease for an apartment that we might not even need (if the house doesn't sell).
So,I told the kids to play in Gidjets room so I could try calling the mortgage company to see if I could extend my mortgage payment a week so I can afford everything else I have to pay on the first... big 'no' on that one. So I'm pissed that I have to scrounge up as much money as possible for tomorrow, so nothing bounces, and I go in and get the kids from gidjets room... there's sh*t EVERYWHERE. all over both kids, smeared all over the door, walls, IN the baby gate, IN the carpet. All from Gidjet. and what does she do? says "Mom, clean up the poop!" I just spent a good 45 minutes cleaning sh*t off everything and everyone. Also, I have to find a sitter for friday because I am booked up at work and Carl just informed me that he has to work a double on friday, my boobs still hurt. and I have my first period back. I've been comfort eating these past 3 days because I'm so stressed out. And seriously ripping my hair out. aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. :( I need a vacation.
Friday, March 19, 2010
So, I was avoiding my weigh-in for two weeks... I got on my wii fit balance board after breakfast today and I have lost 4 lbs!!! I am down to 119.3!!! I had been stuck in the 120's for the longest time it seemed. My ultimate goal is to be around 110 for this summer, but for right now... I want to be 115 by my birthday (april 22nd), that is only 4 lbs in a month, so I am pretty sure, if I keep up the way I am, I CAN DO IT!
I have been eating pretty good lately, and keeping track of what I am eating on (almost) a daily basis. I started taking a one a day multi-vitamin, which has relieved my chronic canker sores (from 5-6 per month, down to 1-2 per month, YAY!) which I found out was a vitamin B-12 and amino acid deficiency.
This once a week Kick-boxing class has been kicking my butt, and I LOVE IT! I like having someone say "just one more rep! You can do it!" I don't have enough willpower yet to say that to my self and believe it. I am the one who gives up mid workout-video because it's too hard.
I am determined to get to 110lbs and once I get there I will have to reward myself with something... with what yet? I don't know, but I have a month or so to think about it.
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
I have been having a really crappy week, and even had a panic attack at work yesterday (go me!) so this morning I figured I'm going to do something, and if I can't control anything else in my life I may as well hop on the treadmill and get started with losing my last 10 lbs. So I jogged for half an hour while the kids played nicely in Gidjets room, and I logged back on here to restart everything and I took my measurements... the last time I logged on was in October, since I last posted those measurements, I am down 4 lbs and down an inch and a half in my waist, hips, and half an inch in my thighs! it totally just made my day :) I wasn't even trying, I had kind of gave up after posting those.
my goal for now is just 5 lbs in a month, I find that I get ahead of myself and want to lose it all at once (but really who doesn't want to lose it all at once) and then get frustrated when I go up a pound or so, and quit alltogether.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
The other day, I had a pretty successful day. I took the kids for a walk in the stroller, started my garden in the yard, noticed I lost 2 lbs , went to work and did the first tattoo I had done in MONTHS since being pregnant and did a lovely corset piercing on my good friend.
A woman came into my work and wanted a piercing, she looked at me and said "OH! you're expecting!" At that very moment my whole successful day got sucked down the drain. I felt like crap. .. No, I said.. I'm not expecting, I just had a baby 8 weeks ago. She just laughed. No apology or anything. I went home and cried.
The next morning my cousin commented on one of my pictures on facebook that I really look like another cousin of ours 'especially in the face and arms' . The cousin she said I look like just happens to be really overweight. Thanks for that. ' especially in the face and arms' REALLY.
Those comments made me feel really bad at the time, but I decided to use them as motivation. I could have eaten a box of Oreos and wallowed in my sorrow... which I did contemplate doing... but I decided against it, and already feel better about myself for doing that.
My size 5 jeans are loose on me now and I am very happy about that. they were tight a few weeks ago. I still can't get my old jeans up over my butt... but I am doing good and am right on track to get to where I want to be, so I won't worry about that now.
I still have to push myself to stop having unhealthy snacks, which sucks because I do love pop, chips and chocolate, I just have to remember IN MODERATION. I CAN DO IT!!
Thursday, May 07, 2009
I am currently 140 (down from 160 when I had my son) My goal is to be 110 by the end of August. I keep telling myself I can do it!!!
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