Monday, September 08, 2014
Well I have managed to keep to spark for a full week. This is the first time in ages. I havent been logging food but I have logged exercise and tracked mini goals in a team I am in which has helped.
I have given up smoking yet again and I am on day 20 ish. My moords have been terrible up and down. The last year has been up and down to be honest - in a whirl wind of day after day of smoking and eating junk. I have tried to get back to spark so many times before and failed as I am often unrealistic. I try and become a different person over night and the minute I fail I just give up. So this time its small changes.
Last week I was able to start eating fruit and veg more. I am not getting my 5 a day yet but am working towards it. I am down to just one fizzy drink a day. Exercising at least 3 times a week. but last week I did more then that because I am also including walks. Yep back in the gym and evenb had a little swim one day. I am not logging my food yet as I won't keep it up and I am not eating well enough yet for it to motivate me.
I do want to lose weight but first and foremost I am hoping the healthier diet and exercise will improve my mood and also clear me of the silly spots and other skin problems I seem to be getting lately.
My self esteeem is low and my mood but sometimes you just got to wake up, work out what you want and realise what you have to do to get there.