trying trying to get spark back

Friday, May 27, 2011

thanks for the awesome comment!

I think this step backwards is part of the journey.

I don't think it's a failure.

i think i was super motivated, blogs flows and I was on a mission!
BECAUSE i didn't know what goal or close to goal taste like!

now...

my attitude is...ok so this is what it's like to get here!
what is all the rush!

and now, i have switched gears

how to maintain?
what is liveable?

What I did although super effective, is not maintainable!

now that toddler is of crazy age. schedule is crazy.
summer is coming.... but I think I figured a way to do this ;p

Still working on self sabotage mode!

who bought cookies and chocolates! hmmm I did!

ARGH!

My Spark streaks are gone! so JUNE 1, will start a new month!

I think I have too many ppl barking at me...
before I was doing this on my own.

today...
hubby....P90x! p90x!
sis.... nutrition lecture

ALL in all too much expectations, and advise

I am the stubborn, type the more you push the more I DONT WANNA!

spark is different.... you guys push, I go OK
but in real life.... I tune out!
SO SAD!

so here is to a new month in june!!!!

spark on

  

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RUMORLANCELOT 6/1/2011 9:25PM

We all need to self-evaluate from time to time. Don't beat yourself up about it. You've made amazing progress. Set new goals: a 5k, a triathlon, a 10k...whatever you decide will be right for you. I know what you mean about kids and their crazy time, work with it, not against it. Do races with them at the park, pull-ups on the playground equipment, push-ups on the benches. Sometimes our bodies resist our efforts and it's usually an indicator that we've been hard on ourselves. Change pace for a bit until things calm down, you can always hit it hard on one day a week or next month. Don't forget this journey is supposed to be fun. Report Inappropriate Comment

CINDYHN 5/29/2011 12:59AM

You need to start tomorrow :) you will find a balance with working out and eating healthy. Give yourself another goal....we all need something to work towards, I know it helps me! Don't beat yourself up for taking a break, I did these last 10 days, did not feel well and had 10 hour work days....so today I put my sneakers on, feeling a little nervous, haven't run in 10 days....I went out for 30 min, and ran a 9 min mile! It will be easy to start working out again once you start! Just put the clothes on and go for a walk/jog, you will feel like doing more! Report Inappropriate Comment

JULESRULES78 5/28/2011 7:00PM

I am exactly the same way. You CANNOT tell me anything and if you do I push back. It has to be my own thing. I am sure it is nice to have a loved own who is also focused on fitness, but there is probably a lot of pressure that comes along with it. We're here when you're ready. BTW, I have missed you on the world and mission to Pluto relays! I know, pressure, pressure:) It is good to hear from you. Report Inappropriate Comment

CHERWHOAH 5/28/2011 11:02AM

yes ma'am get right back on it on June 1st! Do you think maybe you regressed a little because you've accomplished your fitness goals (i.e. your HM)? But I agree, your regimen was very aggressive before and will be hard to maintain if you're not 100% motivated. Good luck and I hope you get your Spark back! Report Inappropriate Comment

NATPLUMMER 5/28/2011 9:15AM

June is a new month to get back at it!! Report Inappropriate Comment

GALSAL59 5/28/2011 5:21AM

Love your attitude, as usual! Report Inappropriate Comment

MRDPOLING 5/27/2011 10:55PM

Ditto all the way! Report Inappropriate Comment

LINDABENEDICT 5/27/2011 10:31PM

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FITJOY1 5/27/2011 10:05PM

You can do this - Do what is right for you - You are right that the challenges are part of the journey and we all have times the challenges get the best of us - brush yourself off and get back up and start again as soon as you can. If you feel you were too extreme before just set the goals that are reasonable for you at this point in the game. We all have to re-adjust and re-evaluate from time to time. Just make sure you set the goals for you - what do you want and what works with your life - do not worry about how fast someone else thinks you should reach your goals or which goals you should have - no one knows you like yourself, trust your instinct and judgement and follow up accordingly. Good luck on your personal jouney to health and happiness. Report Inappropriate Comment

MISSMITSY 5/27/2011 8:47PM

I know exactly how you feel! Report Inappropriate Comment

DEE797 5/27/2011 7:49PM

YOU CAN DO THIS! Re-start when you are ready and not before. DO THIS FOR YOU! Report Inappropriate Comment

AARONSGIRL420 5/27/2011 7:42PM

Why June 1st? W'y not tomorrow? I know, I know, we all like even numbers, but I'm and oddball and see it as just another way of saying "tomorrow, not today" I have 3 kids, I know it's hard. I know the virtues of a protein bar for lunch because there is too much to do. I understand, but you have to make time for you because no one else will. And they WILL understand! And no, I am not some supermotivated mountain of will power. As I sit here I am trying to talk myself into 30DS Level2...and it is an uphill battle. So...no tomorrow! No June 1st, no later, no it's hard, no jello, no more. Push that mind to do what your body can do. You KNOW what yo can do! You have been doing it. The P90x, the HM, the running, the training. That was all you, that is still all you, locked away behind "tomorrow". No more tomorrow! Let your body do what it was meant to do, 2 weeks off is long enough. Let it fly! Let it be free and you will see the wonders it does to your mind. Report Inappropriate Comment

ARGYLE-RUNNER 5/27/2011 7:41PM

You can do it - you are an inspiration, especially with those difficult times Have a happy June, and don't be too hard on yourself - you are awesome! Spark On! Report Inappropriate Comment

LMLOPEZ 5/27/2011 7:28PM

June 1st, today, tomorrow...whenever you want to "start", it will be the right time. You'll figure it out, and we'll be here to help you!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MINDY502 5/27/2011 6:39PM

You can do it April. I had my low moment a few weeks ago and reminded myself what it has taken to get where I am so far and I knew I did not want to go back to where I was. You have been one of the people that have inspired me among others and I hope you find it in yourself again to get that spark back. It is there just needs to be reved up. You hang in there and keep on sparking!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Self-sabotage: run and p90x none the less! YEAH

Thursday, May 26, 2011

hi all

i know I have been MIA

my family from overseas is here.
plus lack of exercise from HM recovery....

I think I gained 10 lbs. no joke!
i have a spare tire! I would take a pic! but so tired right now!

SO...

I think I am at the PART of the journey

where...

in the past...

I would self-sabatoge!


you know, I think i got it......a little of this or that wont hurt!

WELL it did!

it didn't erase ALL my hard work....

BUT I think I need to share this part!

This time is different.......will include.... dealing with this behavior!

i think it's part of the journey!


Positivity!

today I ran for the first time since my HM 2 wks ago!
my legs are still jello...

but I was shooting for under 11 min/mile!
ran 4 walked 1

HAPPY

and back to p90xing

after 2wk haitus... I feel like I am back to square one!

BUT I AM GOING TO DO THIS!

I need all your support!

just a quick heads up! going to family vacay next week...

well probably be MIA ish til july, my family leaves!

BUT lets do this!

spark on!!

  

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KAMAPERRY 5/28/2011 7:57PM

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FABANDFITAT40 5/27/2011 7:54PM

You are going to do this! Kick back and enjoy the time with your family but don't forget to make time for yourself as well Report Inappropriate Comment

IONA72 5/27/2011 5:40PM

look forward to catching up with you in July, enjoy your time away, where are you off to? Report Inappropriate Comment

GETFIT2LIVE 5/27/2011 5:12PM

Take time to enjoy your family while they are here, but don't forget to make time for yourself, too--you can do this! Report Inappropriate Comment

MYSPARKLER 5/27/2011 3:45PM

Hmm...I have the same spare tire & 10 lbs! Ten pounds is all it takes to get a spare tire. We can get rid of it AGAIN. It seems harder this time for me, but I'm determined that by the end of June I will have half of it gone! Report Inappropriate Comment

AARONSGIRL420 5/27/2011 1:47PM

Even if you don't do any serious work, still spend some time stretching so you keep yourself flexible. It might help with the jello feeling. Report Inappropriate Comment

RUNJEWELRUN 5/27/2011 12:05PM

You can do it and you will :) Report Inappropriate Comment

SARAHSUNDAE 5/27/2011 11:35AM

It's good to take a break after the half, but it's good to get back to it!! You got this!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SOULOFADANCER 5/27/2011 10:48AM

As I have been reading your blogs I am sure you notice as have I that all of this is a learning experience. We all deal with challenges and new issues. You have come a huge way all this time and we are all learning how to deal with new humps. You are still a great inspiration WE CAN DO THIS Report Inappropriate Comment

NATPLUMMER 5/27/2011 9:57AM

You are definitely going to do it. You've already started taking action. Have fun with the family!! Report Inappropriate Comment

IMSMILEY88 5/27/2011 8:25AM

You CAN do it! Just jump back in! Don't beat yourself up or feel like you've failed. Just get back on track! Report Inappropriate Comment

AKATUJE 5/27/2011 3:14AM

i think that is right about where i am :-) but i am going to keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep going!!! You too!!! spark on!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CURVYDIVA86 5/27/2011 12:47AM

You can do it!!!! Don't give up!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

KFORD8 5/26/2011 11:33PM

You can do it! Report Inappropriate Comment

day 4 tracking disaster

Saturday, May 21, 2011

hi all

it's as expected for my DD first bday party

pizza, soda and cake ;p

all day ;p

ALL DONE of junk week!

NEXT week is a wacky wk!

I will be on a road trip!

BUT when I get back, my sis from over seas is here!
aware of my lifestyle CHANGE

I will start my running again! and focus on p90x!

can't wait! legs still real sore from HM.

walked around neighborhood yesterday, lol BAD idea!

spark on!

hope when I come back, i will be back to my old sparking self!

and MIA Fess up..... sucked in to japanese and korean DRAMA tv!

ARGH!!! hence no blog reading!!!!

I m too tired to track my food today 8 yr olds can poop you out!

  

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RUNJEWELRUN 5/23/2011 4:13PM

Whoo! I love Japanese and Korean drama :) Have fun with your sis :) Report Inappropriate Comment

LARIESHA 5/22/2011 11:42PM

Oh my 8 years old. happy Bday to DD. I hope it all went well and enjoy your sister while she is here visiting. Family first. Report Inappropriate Comment

KAMAPERRY 5/22/2011 7:51PM

You deserve the break, you will be back at it soon! Report Inappropriate Comment

MRDPOLING 5/22/2011 6:23PM

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CHERWHOAH 5/22/2011 1:12PM

I say don't even track and just get back to it tomorrow. We all know it's going to look really bad! :P no sense in stressing over it. Take care! :) I have a love hate with Korean dramas, they're addicting but so slow paced and so predictable. I used to watch anime like crazy, but since my son was born I don't watch much anymore. Report Inappropriate Comment

BAM-MA 5/22/2011 12:21PM

If we were perfect, there wouldn't be any challenges in life! Sometimes we focus on being the perfect MOM. That is good TOO! If we focus ONLY on ourselves, we would become someone that we wouldn't like! You are doing GREAT! Report Inappropriate Comment

NATPLUMMER 5/22/2011 9:25AM

Yes, 8 yr olds can certainly wear you out. Definitely to be expected at DDs birthday party. Good plan! Have fun on your road trip and with your sis when she comes!! She won't let you get too sucked into the dramas ;-) Report Inappropriate Comment

IONA72 5/22/2011 4:23AM

Hey it's hard to be fantastic every day lol. Be great to see yr sister-enjoy! Comment edited on: 5/22/2011 4:24:40 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

DAY 2 of tracking FOOD: cupcake, cheetos and b-day cake

Thursday, May 19, 2011

hi all

Hey being real honest!

no exercise, real sore from HM.

today was totally lack of planning ;p

took nap with DS, missed lunch.

hence, only food available while waiting on DD fro Kumon was her b-day cupcake leftover from school.

she took longer than expected to finish...

topping it off with her b-day cake!

LOL I was not going to TRACK!
but i did!
2043 cals! not too bad... but must do better ;p

tracking really makes a difference to my conscience

thanks spark!

spark on!

  

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BAILEYS7OF9 5/20/2011 10:55AM

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AARONSGIRL420 5/20/2011 9:12AM

2000 calories is not bad at all, especially with as hard as you are working. Report Inappropriate Comment

RUNJEWELRUN 5/19/2011 11:22PM

You are a brave soul for letting us know what you ate lol. Burn it tomorrow :) Report Inappropriate Comment

KAMAPERRY 5/19/2011 10:23PM

With all the workouts you do, this won't hurt you at all. Report Inappropriate Comment

NATPLUMMER 5/19/2011 10:16PM

2000 calories is fine. Some days are just filled with cupcake, cheetos and birthday cake. I have a feeling that tomorrow won't be. Report Inappropriate Comment

ELIZAGETTINGFIT 5/19/2011 9:50PM

2,000 calories a day is normal:-) Report Inappropriate Comment

p90x man vs woman result

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Hi all

Hubby and I are 10 wks in.
he does maybe 4 out of the 6 days.
Me, I do 2-3 plus Marathon training

Me....u see my results in yesterday blog.

Hubby showed of his 6 packs yesterday!

Yes u read it right! 6 packs fully developed!

So wrong!

He ask me: why and u run too?
Me: no idea

But he doesn't have an eating disorder like me! Lol

Its so on! I am 3 lbs away in regaining my lighter status!
Btw hubby has always been lighter told last 6 months!

Spark on

  

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MRDPOLING 5/19/2011 8:58PM

You crack me up! Report Inappropriate Comment

ONE*BUSY*MOM 5/19/2011 5:05PM

I know -- I hate my hubby for being able to lose weight so easily. We both started eating better recently and he's lost 10 pounds and I've only lost 2. Aaargh. So unfair! But all we can do is keep doing what we do. You're doing great -- keep up the awesome work! Report Inappropriate Comment

FLUFFYSUE1 5/19/2011 4:58PM

yep men define easier and lose easier than women my hubby just thinks i'll lose weight and does lol where no matter how hard i work i lose at snails pace.You look great though just think about how far you'v come and before you know it you'll be at your new goal. Report Inappropriate Comment

RLA1891 5/19/2011 12:07PM

It is also easier for your body to go from skinny minny to muscle than it is to go from having some weight you want to lose to muscle. You are on the right track. Just continue to stay the course! Report Inappropriate Comment

BAILEYS7OF9 5/19/2011 11:54AM

men drop weight and gain muscle much faster/easier than women, don't let it get you down. We have more stamina! Report Inappropriate Comment

NATPLUMMER 5/19/2011 10:37AM

Men are naturally more muscular. For women to have a six pack show, they have to get down pretty low in body fat. Not an easy thing to do. You'll definitely regain the lighter status even if you don't develop the 6 pack. Report Inappropriate Comment

SUNDRAGON56 5/19/2011 10:05AM

Totally SO unfair! Report Inappropriate Comment

GREYLOCKES1 5/19/2011 9:56AM

it is biology. Men have a hormone (testosterone I think)that allows for more muscle definition, which with lower body fat (sorry it is genetics)allows one to see six packs on men much easier than women. It is possible for women to have highly defined six packs with either really low body fat and or drugs. Neither are recommended by me. You probably have a six pack it is just hidden deeper inside. Remember Spark is about balance. You have comes so far in your journey. Do not obsess on what is not healthy. Enjoy where your are and be proud of how far you have come. Keep blogging also, you provide so much encouragemnet. Keep Sparking Report Inappropriate Comment

IONA72 5/19/2011 9:27AM

Oooh was hoping for hubby pics haha spark on, Report Inappropriate Comment

KAMAPERRY 5/19/2011 8:22AM

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