Monday, August 18, 2014
Hi fellow Sparks,
If you have ever read any of my blogs you know that I have had a rough go of it. Being on steroids for so many months brought weight gain, and some where in the midst of all the health issues, pet losses, and changes l had given up on trying to regain health and well being by losing weight.
Then, recently a dear friend of mine who recently had breast cancer started a 3 month protocol her specialist recommend. It
Included going off all dairy products, gluten, and sugar. Her diet precancer was unhealthy according to her. Her liver was in bad shape from her eating lifestyle, and the chemo drugs. She stayed on it for 3 months, and her test results showed great improvements in so many areas. I was so happy for her, but it wasn't motivating me to make any changes.
Then 3 weeks ago she came to visit me, and she looks amazing!
She is cancer free, has lost 24 pounds, and positively glowed.
She really got me thinking.
So 17 days ago l made the choice to go gluten free, sugar free, and dairy free.
It hasn't been as difficult as l thought it might be. I am not saying that you need to do this, l am just telling my story. My liver needs help, my cholesterol needs help. I am still on steroids and all my Lupus meds. Some things l can't change. What l can choose is how l treat this body, this shell that holds my spirit.
When l was about to start, l believe God spoke to my heart. He gave me the following words...."Sometimes you have to give up what you think you want in order to receive what you really need."
Those words came to me when l was riding in the car with my dear hubby. As soon as l said them l had to write them down because I knew I would forget them. Now when I am tempted l repeat it again, and again.
I'm down 8 pounds, but l still weigh more than l did before l started the steroids 8 months ago. I set a period of time that I was going to do this, one month. I didn't want to say l would do it for 3 months and then not do it. I felt 1 month was a tangible goal that wasn't out of reach. Then l would see after that. 17 days and counting.
I'm not as bloated. I'm not having as many headaches. I'm not as swollen, my ankles and hands look more normal. This is what's going on with me. One of the biggest thing l have learned going through all the failures with my weight and eating is that it all starts in your head. You have to really want change more than you want the artificial "comfort" that eating...make that over eating gives you. It hasn't been working too well all these years. So, l must give up what I think I want (food, sweets, etc) in order to receive what I really want. I want more. I want to do what I can to feel better. Plain and simple. That's were l am.
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Don't read this blog if you want me to be funny, because it's been a long week, and I think my funny bone has been dislocated!
This has been a difficult year, I lost two precious kitties, had a flood, couldn't breath for months, had Lupus attack my kidneys, and now I found out that my thyroid is dying.
I guess I'm not that surprised, I had to have radiation on it when I was 19 because I had a goiter that was blocking my airways it was so large.
I say" what next" because I was almost hit head on last Friday, and I had to run up the curb to avoid the truck-she barreled out of no where into an intersection-I was turning right. Thank the Lord no one was walking on the side walk! I went to drive to visit my friend in the hospital, and my tire was flat-the struts are ruined as well!
My pulmonologist is keeping me on steroids for at least two more months, "what next" he said the steroids are causing my osteoporosis to worsen, and my back is flattening one disk upon another.
Good thing I am not experiencing this alone! I have a Heavenly Father who loves me, and yes, He will see me through!
My funny bone may be temporarily displaced, but I have a smile in my heart that no circumstance can't change.
Wishing you wellness!
Wednesday, June 04, 2014
This morning, my husband woke me with the terrible news that our dear little Sonoma had passed away in the night. Little Toto, her best friend was by her side.
She was laying on her side, and he thought, "free tummy rubs," and bent down to rub her, but it was too late, and she was gone.
This was a shock to us. Sonoma just turned 5 years old, two days ago.
She was eating, drinking, playing, and getting tons of love every time I sat down. She seemed so well, but the vet said that she must have had a heart attack.
We found her about 4 years ago. She was starving, a cat with fur stuck to her bones, she was spayed and declawed, and left to fend for her self.
The vet had thought she wouldn't make it, but my daughter and I took turns trying to get her to eat, rubbing her teeth with a little moist cat food until she could finally start opening her mouth to eat. She turned into this big, gorgeous kitty, a Raggamuffin, a funny, loving, sweet, precious girl. How fortunate we were to have such a loving little kitty in our home.
How any one could leave her to die is beyond me.
In spite of her mistreatment, she never lost the ability to love unconditionally, she would look at you with those huge eyes, and you could just sense her her saying, " I love you, I know I can trust you, you will always love me, and care for me."
Good bye for now dearest Sonoma, you join Roof Top, our little RT, Nubbie, Morris, Cody, Bo, Kayla. Our kittles and doggies that have gone before us. Toto misses you, so does Dingy. We love you.
This is our dear Sonoma with Toto, best friends forever, even in death.
Tuesday, June 03, 2014
Hello Dear Friends!
Well, it's been almost 3 months since I last was on Spark. I am doing much better than I was. I have struggled with the Lupus attacking my lungs, and my kidneys, and I have had to take 3 types of steroids to fight the inflammation. Although I am still on the steroids, I will be seeing one of my specialists this month, and hopefully I will be able to lower the doses, and eventually get off. My face is as big as the moon, one of the side effects, as is my middle.
I am not giving up. I am heavier than I was, and I was discouraged, but I have decided that I will just keep trying, and now that I am able to move a little it will be better for me all round.
It's tough knowing I am 20 pounds heavier than when I started Spark, but a set back shouldn't be the end of the world, and it isn't.
I'm owning up to my weight gain, some of it is steroids-they make you really hungry, some of it is my other meds, some of it is inactivity, and some of it is the ice cream I ate.
Enough about me, I hope you are all well. I have prayed for you, and thought of you. Thank you to those who sent me messages, and virtual gifts, I have enjoyed sitting here today, and reading them. You are a blessing to me, and so many others.
I pray your family is well, your pets too, and I can't wait to hear how you are.
Blessings, and prayers for health, and success. Your friend, Dee This was taken recently, and it's my reality, but not my destination!
Friday, March 14, 2014
For anyone who is interested, I wanted to say that I am thinking of closing out my spark account, or at the very least I am going off line until I can get healthier.
Breathing has become such a great difficulty right now, and I am on 3 types of steroids to help control the inflammation. They are running many tests, but it looks like the Lupus is attacking my lungs, although they are ruling out any other issues as well.
I don't have the energy to spark.
I can't lose weight, and perhaps I am a bit discouraged because being really sick just wears you down a bit over time.
It's all good though, because He has seen me through, and is, and always will!
So, do your best, try because you are worth it, love generously, and I'll see you when I see you.
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