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Saying Goodbye to You and SparkPeople.com

Friday, March 14, 2014

For anyone who is interested, I wanted to say that I am thinking of closing out my spark account, or at the very least I am going off line until I can get healthier.
Breathing has become such a great difficulty right now, and I am on 3 types of steroids to help control the inflammation. They are running many tests, but it looks like the Lupus is attacking my lungs, although they are ruling out any other issues as well.
I don't have the energy to spark.
I can't lose weight, and perhaps I am a bit discouraged because being really sick just wears you down a bit over time.
It's all good though, because He has seen me through, and is, and always will!
So, do your best, try because you are worth it, love generously, and I'll see you when I see you.
Love,
Dee

  
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PGHP31CK 3/17/2014 8:45AM

    emoticon Praying for you, that your breathing will improve, and you'll be back soon!

Hugs,
Susan

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SUEPERWOMAN 3/16/2014 12:57PM

   

I'm so sorry, Dee, and I wish you the best. Pop in as you can, okay?

Love, Sue

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SUNFLOWERGAMMY 3/15/2014 9:59AM

    Do what you can. Because of physical issues I have had to leave for a bit as well. Steroid fight with weight too. Its the mental that gets to you when you get so ill. I kno from personal experience. Sometimes just the thought of logging in and typing a few words seemed overwhelming. So somdays I just logged in and read what others were doing. I hop you decide to stay active on sparkpeople.

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DJ4HEALTH 3/15/2014 12:05AM

    I agree that you should not close your account but take time to heal. As for it being lupus that attacks the lungs I have that same problem. I have SLE and it likes to attack my lungs and heart too. Or I just should say my chest area and I also had my lungs fill up with fluid too from lupus. So hang in there and get healthy. Remember that steroids will make it harder to lose weight and will also put more weight on you too.

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COCK-ROBIN 3/14/2014 10:24PM

    Please don't close out your account. If you need to take a sabbatical, please do so. But I'm here for you in any event. Just dont' give up. It's hard for me as well, but I'm not giving up.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 3/14/2014 10:14PM

    Prayers for you. Please don't close your account. Just take a spark break and stop in when you can. You have to take care of yourself first. YOU ARE SO WORTH IT!!!
Prayers, blessings and hugs,
Helen

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SHELLS514 3/14/2014 4:59PM

    Dee, I am so sorry you are going through this and totally understand that you need to step away and focus on taking care of yourself. I agree with the others though; might you consider keeping your account open; it can just sit there right? Then hopefully one day when you feel better; stronger you might want to pop in. There will never be any pressure to interact beyond what you want or can. You are such a gentle, sweet spirit Dee; my heart hurts for you. Whatever you decide to do I will always remember you and continue to keep you in prayer. No hard feelings if you do close your account; I completely understand. Love and hugs always. Teri emoticon

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THOMS1 3/14/2014 4:55PM

    My dear, I also suggest you just take a break and not close your account. On days that you feel you have the strength log on and see how much support your spark friends can give you. It may just give you a little lift. emoticon emoticon

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LOUIE-LILY 3/14/2014 4:37PM

    Dear Dee, You must do what you feel is best for you...but if you don't close out your account, you can still read posts when you feel well enough. Either way, I am continuing to pray for you. Your encouragement to so many will be missed, but I know everyone is praying for you to regain your health and be well. Please look for an email I sent you if you feel up to it.
You are loved by your friends here and by our Lord. I know He will watch over you.
Much love, dear friend...my prayers for you will continue.
Loving hugs,
Nancy, Lily and Louie
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GOOZLEBEAR 3/14/2014 3:34PM

    Dee, I would suggest that you just take a Spark break and not close your account. Just come back when you are feeling better. I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad and wish I had been more of a support to you. Maybe you could just check in when you feel like it.

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JUNEAU2010 3/14/2014 3:31PM

    Hugs! I'll miss you and your wisdom!

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NHES220 3/14/2014 3:28PM

    So sorry to hear you are struggling. Praying that your health is better, I cannot imagine how difficult it must be for you. Hang in there!

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POSITIVEHOPE 3/14/2014 3:10PM

    Sorry you are in such pain right now. I have asthma so I know the energy cost of difficult breathing. I'm having a breathing treatment as I write this.
Your Spark journey is more than losing weight. It's about eating healthy so you will feel better. Your body needs healthy foods to heal and fight. Let the weight loss go but consider logging on for the support and encouragement from this site. We care more about YOU that what you eat.


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WALNUTT1961 3/14/2014 2:48PM

    Dee, I will miss you! Remember I am here anytime you want to talk. I will continue to pray for your health. Thank you for being my friend.

Praying for you,
Lee Ann emoticon emoticon

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RHOOK20047 3/14/2014 2:35PM

    You must do what you believe you must do, but know that we will still be here praying for your health and well being. I understand pain, as I live with it all the time, but I find SP helps me cope with some of my pain. But I pray that you find peace somehow. God Bless.

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AQUAPIXIE 3/14/2014 2:34PM

    So sorry to hear you have not been well. Hugs and prayers for your return to health. emoticon Sending a little sunshine your way. Hope you stick around. Even if you are just reading and communicating with others, it might be a mood booster for you.

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THE GOAL BOARD, MAKING GOALS, MEETING GOALS!

Wednesday, March 05, 2014

One of my goals was to have a normal liver function test at my next Dr. appt. and I made it!
That makes 6 months of normal liver function!
That's a huge deal because my liver was in really bad shape because of the Lupus, and the meds I had been taking for years, including cholesterol lowering drugs.
My liver hasn't been normal in 10 years, it was really enlarged( 1 1/2 times normal) so this is a big deal!
I also wanted to lower my A1C, although I am not diabetic, my mom was, my aunt is, and I want to make sure that I'm not, and it's gone from 5.7 to 5.5!
My cholesterol also has gone down, although it's still high at 255 over all.
My blood pressure has gone from 138/90 to 102/60!
So, even though I'm not seeing much progress on the scale, I am seeing positive results in my health.
That's a good thing!
So,
just a note of encouragement, you may not always see the results of what you are doing on the out side, but your insides are thanking you!
xo hugs and have a great day! emoticon your friend, Dee

  
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SHELLS514 3/10/2014 10:22AM

    Dee, that is wonderful! You are so right; we get too focused on the scales but we are working towards better health first and foremost. I am so happy to hear things are going i the right direction for you; shows you are doing something right! I still am doing the up and down; one step forward two steps back but overall I still am eating better. We can do this; one day at a time! Love ya sweetie! emoticon emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 3/5/2014 10:30PM

    AWESOME news, Dee!!! CONGRATULATIONS AND WAY TO GO!!! Definitely some wonderful progress. Doesn't it make you feel FANTASTIC to see your goals and know that you are doing what is best for you!!!
Keep up your great work!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!
Continued blessings and hugs,
Helen

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NHES220 3/5/2014 3:31PM

    Well done Dee! That is excellent progress. It is not always about what we see on the outside, but when we are overweight our organs get fatty too. You are doing great things for your health!
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WALNUTT1961 3/5/2014 3:16PM

    Dee, that is great news! I will have blood work in a few months and I hope to have good results as well.

Thanks for the encouragement!

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COCK-ROBIN 3/5/2014 1:47PM

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MNDEBBIE1 3/5/2014 1:45PM

    awesome job emoticon emoticon

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Observations

Monday, March 03, 2014

I live in California, the weather is lovely, the tree's and flowers are blooming. Other parts of the country are snowed in. I grew up in Canada, I remember the cold, the late snow storms, I remember how excited I was when a brave little flower made it's way through the ground to burst forth in it's beauty.
Life is full of blessings, challenges, routine, mundain, joy, sorrow, pain, laughter, tears, life is full.
I just wanted you to know that you are not alone.
I'm thinking of you today, and hoping that you love yourself enough to do something for your self.
I'm hoping you bring a smile to some one's face, that you can lighten a load, hold a hand, mend a wound.
Today I am breathing better than I have in one month. Have you ever stopped to think about your breathing? For those of us who have issues, each breath is a literal gift we don't take for granted.
I thank God for that breath!
Today, will you take the time to think about some thing, or some one you have taken for granted?
Will you write that note, send an email, call?
Will you let go of what you can't change, and begin again?
I will.
xo

  
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PGHP31CK 3/4/2014 9:18AM

    Thank you, Dee!! I needed the reminder that the best way to encourage and support yourself is to encourage and support others!

Hugs!
Susan

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WALNUTT1961 3/3/2014 8:51PM

    Beautiful blog! I am so glad that you are breathing better. I have been praying for you.

I have been dealing with dizziness since last Thursday. I started antibiotics as my nasal spray and ear drops are not working this time.

It makes it so hard to stay on track, but we are strong and keep pushing on!

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SENDING YOU LOVE ON VALENTINE'S DAY

Friday, February 14, 2014

Every one needs to know they are loved, and just in case you needed a reminder, YOU ARE LOVED!!!! Just a note to wish you a wonderful Valentine's Day, you are special, you are worthy, you are loved. xoxoxoxo

  
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WALNUTT1961 2/16/2014 7:40PM

    Thank you, Dee! You are loved too!

I hope you are having a restful Sunday.

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GOSPELCLOWN 2/15/2014 12:43AM

    Thank you for sharing!

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PHYLISSCR 2/15/2014 12:20AM

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 2/14/2014 11:52PM

    You are very special and loved much also!!! Happy Valentine's Day!!!
Enjoy a wonderful weekend.
Blessings and hugs,
Helen

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The Art of Practicing Mindful Eating

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

I am going to concentrate on one thing right now that pertains to my weight, and one thing only: the art of practicing mindful eating.
Those are the words that started resonating in my mind early in the week. I had been praying, and praying about my weight, and all the ups and downs, my shortcomings, failures, and just how terrible I feel about not being "good" at losing and keeping it off.

I guess I had thought about food, thought a lot about food, lack of food, which diet to try, why life style changes weren't consistent, inflammation, anger at myself, and just a wee bit of an obsession with my weight. I think self loathing was one of the biggies. Well, you know what? The enemy of our soul is happy when I feel like that, because it stymies me from going forth victorious.

Well, change doesn't come easily. Every day it's like a new revelation-I've been practicing eating for comfort for 50 years! Since I was 3! Breaking those deeply ingrained life time habits are not going to be easy.
I am trying to learn to practice mindful eating. In other words, why am I eating, am I hungry for food, or am I hungry for my feelings to go away?
There's a lot more to it than these short words, but I bet I am in good company with many wonderful Sparker's out there.
My brain will literally need to be retrained. One mouthful at a time.

  
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WALNUTT1961 2/12/2014 8:52PM

    Great blog! I need to do the same. We can do it!

Lee Ann

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LOUIE-LILY 2/12/2014 8:47PM

    Hi Dee...GREAT BLOG!!! emoticon
I love this. I'm going to read it every day and see if it will sink into my old brain! Great insights, and terrific conclusions. emoticon I believe God has led you to this! Good girl! I'm proud of you emoticon
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BABY_GIRL69 2/12/2014 6:05PM

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God bless,

Dee

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PGHP31CK 2/12/2014 4:19PM

    You will do this! I know you will -- one bite at a time.

Cheering you on!

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COOLRAIN 2/12/2014 2:14PM

    Amen! You go girl. I agree that you're in good company with many other Sparkers. We're all retraining, one mouthful (and for me one mile walking) at a time.

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