Tuesday, April 12, 2011
"Starting statements with the pronoun I can drastically increase your ability to succeed at healthy living." I am deciding to take this one day at a time. When I hear a phrase or words that I find helpful, I jot them down on my iphone. Here are some I have collected over the past few months:
- If you keep something in darkness, you are keeping a part of yourself in sickness. Although painful, you must bring to light the painful aspects of your life. Dealing with it is the only sure path to true happiness.
- We are only as sick as our secrets.
- There cannot be true transformation without knowing your core self.
-If you are not living your life, who is?
-I am the only one who can change my life. If I change nothing, nothing changes.
Sunday, February 07, 2010
I have had such a trying week. All of my buttons were pressed and sore points tested. I will give you all the readers digest version of my week.
Started the week with a fast; much stricter than the Daniel Fast. Fruits and vegetables only. I made it 72 hours. As a woman, there are only so many opportunities that you will miss your period and know what the possibe issues could be. Took a test, it was positive. Decided to go to the doctor, started bleeding on the way. Accompanying cramps got me insanely worried. The doctor's office were a bunch of clusterf**ks. Urine test was negative, blood test was negative, but oh no wait. I didn't get 4 miles away until I got a call saying the blood test was positive. Must go back tomorrow to take another series of test before I find a new doctor. All in all, I am not sure how to feel at this point.
I will soldier on in living as healthy a lifestyle as possible. I spent the past day in bed completely unsure of how to feel. Today I have awoken with a new attitude. I believe and trust in God. I also believe in a thing called destiny. There are no challenges that we are not given for a purpose. I believe even if we do not realie the purpose, there is always a reason. I am going to go make my meal plan and hope I get hit with the all-purpose stick of knowledge.
Thanks for listening to me.
Monday, January 25, 2010
I am greatful. I have a wonderful husband and a best friend that keep me accountable. On days that I really don't want to workout or eat the right foods, they are there, not nagging, but giving me that genuine, "you can do it" smile.
Any dieting I did earlier in life, I didn't have support. There was no one who was rooting for me; no one to think that I was capable of succeeding. It makes all the difference. That is why I think SparkPeople works so well. The comments and encouragement of other sparfriends accompanied with my husband and friends support - I am more than positive that I will succeed.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I wrote this in a journal entry a month ago. I already feel light years difference and its all thanks to Spark.
Not knowing what I am going to eat for the day is something I cannot do. When I am unsure, I tend to make a choice based upon convenience. Never in that decision does it ever dawn on me to make a decision based upon the consciousness of my health.
With that in mind, I must make an effort to plan my meals ahead of time. Not only to plan my meals, but to prepare them in advance. By doing this, I will be able to come home and flop on the couch without stressing about the fact that I ruined a diet. Or I can go straight to class without being exhausted from eating a heavy burger and fries.
The challenge now is to determine what foods I like. What foods are great make a head? What foods will fit in my diet and help me feel satiated?
I guess the research forges on. Awareness and identification of weaknesses identified - a growing awareness of my potential is in the AIR!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
This week I have come up with every reason in the world - legitimate and not- to not work out or go to class. But I have perservered and done both. My friend and workout partner suggested that I only work out 5 days per week rather than every day , but I know myself. I know that I give myself a slight break - it will turn into a big break. I told her I would take two days and do 1/2 the workout but still keep it consistent. I think I need the excercise for sanity, energy, and a time to focus on one thing.
I am in law school and the first semester was insanely challenging. Now I am getting the hang of it, but it is still very difficult. Trying to focus on school, work and my health is juggling alot. I am not sure how mom's take care of house, children, and spouse/family. It is so much to deal with. But you know this is life. I can only imagine back in the days where Darwin's theory of relativity applied - the most a person would have to focus on is catching food and keeping the food you caught from eating you. Now I have the luxury of picking up nurishment from a variety of places, sitting in the comfort of central air and heat - and still have the audiacity to complain. Sometimes it does take complaining or wanting to take a "break" to realize how fortunate one really is. Fortunate to have a tool like Sparkpeople to be a guide and great SparkFriends to motivate you.
I have kept telling myself that life isn't fair; it isn't setup to be easy. Actually - if given the easy route vs. difficult route, I would be more inclined to take the difficult route. As a default I am almost positive that I would take the hardest route. Why? If I do not challenge myself, who will? If attaining X is easy, do I really need/deserve X?
I knew that going into this 2nd week of school that the true test would have been balancing my healthy lifestyle changes with the responsibilities that I have for work and home. I think this is the type of balance that takes practice, patience and above all time. I have been trying to tell myself that "Its okay if today is not the day you can look in the mirror and have lost 100lbs, but that doesn't mean that that day will not come. Patience is a virtue!" "You may feel tired and exhausted, but if you get on the treadmill, you will feel so much better."
Self affirmations have saved me the past couple of days. Wanna know what I am looking forward to this weekend? Hot Yoga, C25k training on a nature trail and a drive-in movie with my hubby. Life is changing before my eyes - and I likie!
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