Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Well I did have my 50th birthday back in august. Things have been pretty slow moving for me. I have hit many obstacles on my journey to get healthy and start losing the weight I need to. I always feel that I am starting over. I was pretty down on my birthday as I was so far from my fitness goal. I started once again last Monday September 9th. I have really been working on cutting back on my sugars and fats. I also have stopped drinking the wine that I so dearly loved after work. I forced myself to go back to the gym. I am completely exhausted and was very grumpy last week without my sugar. It is getting easier for me though. I am such a stress eater and boy have I had stress. My husband has a bad disease, he is permanently disabled and sits around the house most days. Usually recovering from surgery. He has had many and it has taken such a toll on both of us. He was diagnosed 7 years ago and since then our lives have changed so dramtically. We were so active before that, rollerblading, hiking, biking you name it. Now due to his condition he doesn't like to go anywhere or do anything. He used to be my coach getting me up and moving now he wants me to try and motivate him when I am so overweight and just trying to get myself together. I suffer from depression and tend to turn to sugar when I am sad or stressed. It is a constant battle to not want to buy 10 candy bars and eat and eat until I am sick to my stomach. I miss the old me that had energy and a zest for life. Now I am fighting my inner demons. I am trying to find something to motivate me as working all day long and coming home to just sit on the couch and watch television all night long isn't cutting it.