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Another Setback

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

So, I finally decided to come off of my vacation of over-eating unhealthy food and being lazy and met another setback. Apparently, while turning over in my sleep I started to rip/pull a muscle in my abdomen. I was sore but able to still do what needed to be done. Did my powerwalk for 30 minutes completing two miles to the Biggest Loser Powerwalk video and my eating wasnt so bad. Then while sitting in a chair in front of the computer I turned in a way that was akward and felt a horrible ripping sensation in my abdomen about 2 to 3 inches to left of my belly button and an inch upward. The pain made me feel the need to vomit. The pain then turned to a hotness in my muscle. It really scared me. I was so sore and it hurt to lay a certain way or to even move. My husband took a vacation day to stay with me and the kids and to help me if I needed to go to the ER. It finally started feeling better and I realized that I had pulled a muscle in my abdomen. At that point I was afraid to move because I did not want to feel that pain again. This happened on Friday night. Today is Tuesday and the pain is gone but still I can tell the muscle is tender and a little sore. However, I am afraid to workout because I do not want to reinjure the muscle so now I will have to be careful about what I do. This has led to more overeating of unhealthy food. It kind of depresses me even though this is the time I should truly be working hard to eat healthy since I cant exercise. I keep making excuses for myself and I hate myself for it. I have to move forward somehow.

I guess what gets me the most about this whole incident is that for the past 3 months I have been doing workouts that really pushed me. Workouts that worked my core hard but I never pulled a muslce. No, I pulled a muscle rolling over in bed and sitting at the computer. What is wrong with this picture?! Just me I guess. Reminds me of Murphy's Law "What can go wrong, will go wrong." I just need to stop using this setback as a reason not to eat healthy since I cant workout because that is so backwards in thinking.

I also feel like alot of my eating right now is emotional and stress eating. I know the reason I pulled my abdominal muscle is because I'm so overweight and after 4 kids (all csections) my abdominal muscles have had enough of my crap and want more out of life. Then there is the worry of today and the next few weeks. I go in for a biopsy today of two moles that concern my doctor and that worry me. Since, my great-grandfather passed away from melanoma it has my Dad worried and concerned about me. Just alot on my mind right now. Guess I just need to develop the mindset that even though some things I cant change, eating healthy and losing weight is something I can.


Back from my break...

Wednesday, June 06, 2012

I've been on a "dieting" vacation for the past 2 and a half weeks. It has been nice not having to count calories or workout so hard that I dreaded getting up each day. I am back with a new game plan. I've realized that I have to make changes that I can live with each day for the rest of my life. So I have updated my caloric intake so that I dont feel like I'm starving and I have given myself till September of next year to finish losing the last 72 lb I need to lose to reach my goal. I feel like this goal is more doable and realistic than my previous goal. I have also decided to rethink how I workout. No more overdoing and pushing myself to the point of injury. If my workout ever gets to the point that I dread it or it is no longer fun then it will be time to change it. I almost quit this journey completely thanks to burnout. The benefits I will receive in the long run by sticking to my goal outweighs the need for me to push myself beyond my limits. I also plan on allowing myself treats along the way. For instance, my birthday is next Saturday (June 16th) and I am going to allow myself a piece of cake and ice cream. Then on June 19th, my husband and I are hoping to go eat at Olive Garden for our 8th wedding anniversary and I will allow myself to enjoy the food without guilt. This is what I have to do to improve my health. The changes I make now will benefit me in so many ways but if I can't live with the changes I make then it will be short-lived and this is just too important for that. So, please learn from my mistake, all of these healthy changes that you are making in your life have to be something you can live with every day for the rest of your life. Have a wonderful day everyone! =D

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ANNAGARMON 6/12/2012 1:24PM

    Thank you both so much! =)

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MOMMYLETECIA 6/7/2012 12:38AM

    Glad you're getting your mind right! This journey is so tough! We miss you at the Biggest Loser! It's easy to get burned out and push yourself beyond your capacity. I know I do that and need to pull back a bit every once in a while. Many blessings to you and happy early birthday!

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FLUFFYWOOL 6/6/2012 11:50AM

    Welcome back! And I think you're right, it's about finding things that you can do for the rest of your life. So what if it takes a little longer? You have the rest of your life to enjoy it :)

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Hard getting back on track...

Monday, May 21, 2012

I'm trying to get back on track after a week of self-sabotage but it is harder than I thought. It isn't even due to being hungry. I just can't seem to reign in my eating. I was close to my caloric range yesterday. I hit 1600 cal for the day but my goal was to stay within 1200 to 1500. My optimal range would be to not go above 1200 calories but that doesnt seem to be happening for me. I did workout yesterday though. I would hope today would be better but breakfast was about 542 calories and consisted of 2 poptarts and a glass of milk. I wont try to destroy the rest of the day, however, looking forward to baking catfish for dinner with baked potatoes, cooked apples, coleslaw, and banana pudding. I love to cook so hopefully it will lift my spirits! =)

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JJDHTPJ 5/21/2012 1:14PM

    I know how you feel! I have been struggling with my calories lately too. The only thing that has kept me from totally giving up is this Biggest Loser Challenge.
You can do it! You have done so well!

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FIT_GROOVY_GURL 5/21/2012 9:32AM

    It's always hardest to get back on track. Just keep the goal in mind and take it step by step.

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Been one of those weeks...

Sunday, May 20, 2012

I have done rather well on sticking to my daily caloric range and working out up until this point. I started this long journey on February 20, 2012 and to this day I have lost close to 38 lbs. I still have a long way to go and haven't reached the halfway mark yet (which is another 12 lbs away). I have been so motivated and always in the mood to do my best. This last week has really tested me though. I have found myself, almost every day, not wanting to workout or eating what I know I shouldn't and I went over my caloric range several times. I think it was watching the scale go up one day and down the next that got me to this state of mind. I like to weigh every day just to see how much I lose in water weight when I workout. Hoping it will motivate me to at least get in my 8 glasses of water a day or more to prevent water retention but I almost always would way less once I lost the water retention. It was when I didnt see the loss that it started getting to me. I hate plateaus. I hate working my butt off and sticking to my calorie range and then not seeing any progress. It gets frustrating and sometimes just depressing especially when you see how much farther you need to go.

My husband has helped keep me motivated. He constantly tells me how proud he is of me and that he can really tell a difference. He has even said that it makes him want to start working out with me to get in shape. Plus one of my SparkTeams has been very helpful and supportive and the Biggest Loser Challenge has meant alot to me and it has really helped keep me motivated. So I'm hoping that this past week has just been a slump that I've been in and hopefully I will overcome it so that I can continue to get healthy and feel better. =)

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JJDHTPJ 5/21/2012 1:17PM

    I have found that I like to eat the most in the evenings, so I plan for it by eating smaller meals during the day and then allowing myself a larger meal in the evening. I also allow myself a "cheat day" where I don't think about dieting. I don't go overboard, but I do eat things I normally would not eat during the week.

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RMKMGMGM04 5/20/2012 10:52AM

    I know exactly what you are going through. I weigh myself everyday too, yes it can be a down fall, but it keeps me motivated as well. I am not going to tell you to stop weighing yourself because once you've been doing it, it becomes habit and if you don't it will be constantly on your mind all day long. To me, it was more like a sabotage, not to. You have been doing incredible. I know we all get into those slumps and I know you can push your way out of it. Have you tried changing up your eating habits? I found I have been eating a very small portion at breakfast and eating more at dinner. I hope by changing this I will see a difference this week. I hope this helps.

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Progress and Loving SparkPeople

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

I've really been working on my goal to eat healthier, exercise, and get fit since the last week of February this year. Since then I have lost 26 lb and a few inches around the middle. I work out everyday and its amazing because I feel so much stronger now than when I started out. When I first started I couldn't even do a jumping jack but now I can do sets of them. I still have a long way to go though. I need to lose another 75 to 85 lb to be in a healthy range. I have so much to gain by not giving up even though there have been times when my weightloss has stalled and I just wanted to binge on unhealthy foods. I'm so thankful for my friends on SparkPeople who have cheered me on to not give up. My Sparkteams are awesome and they have helped to keep me going. Support is so important when trying to make life changes. I love SparkPeople! Thankfully, I also have the support of my husband who is just wonderful about it. He even told me that he keeps seeing the awesome results I am getting from working out the way I do and it makes him want to get in shape too. I never imagined that I could motivate someone else. It makes me very happy. =)

So, I will continue my journey taking it one goal at a time, challenging myself every step of the way, and having fun in the process!

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IMA24GIRL 4/18/2012 6:58AM

  Congrats on all your progress. Keep at it and enjoy the journey

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