Thursday, February 07, 2013
Wow, it's been over a year since I posted anything! While I wish I could say so much has changed and I've made incredible progress in my absence, truth is I slacked off quite a bit, especially during the holidays. In fact I'm still struggling to get back on track and it's already February! So frustrating... At least I managed to lose a little over 23 lbs last year, but it really should have been more.
I've always said I don't like change and am usually hell-bent on resisting it, but why? Change can be so good. Change keeps us from being stagnant. It helps us grow, hopefully for the better. I need to stop fighting it and just let it happen, let go of all the crap weighing me down. No more resisting. I deserve better than the self-sabotage I've become so good at in the past.
Oh, and in case you couldn't tell...I'm back.
Monday, January 02, 2012
I'm always hesitant to make resolutions. Most of the time they just end in epic fails. I went back and forth on whether I should make any or just not bother. Ultimately I decided why not? If I fail, I fail. So long as I'm not dwelling on the failure, what's the harm in trying? Plus, having a few goals to work towards has so far helped. It seems whenever my mind is idle is when dark, negative thoughts start to creep in, and once I let them in, it's hard for me to push them back out. So, here are my resolutions so farů
Run/walk 400 miles
Read 52 books
Lose 60 pounds
Finish knitting a blanket I started back in August!
Blog at least 3 times a week
Nothing too ambitious that'll discourage me. Already did my first 2.25 miles today. I would've started yesterday but I'm such a huge wimp when it comes to cold weather. It was around 48 and breezy this afternoon and I wanted to quit after a 1/2 mile! Kudos to all you out there running in much colder temps and snow and rain. I'm not quite there yet. Maybe by next January, haha!
Did you make any resolutions this year?
Monday, January 02, 2012
New Year's Eve and Day were fairly quiet at my house, just family and a few board games. It was very low key, just the way I like it. It was the first New Year's in a long time that I didn't cry and/or feel miserable and depressed. I was happy and hopeful and excited for the new year, the way I should be feeling. With my track record, I know that my moods can change in a heartbeat for no apparent reason. So for now I'm enjoying the reprieve of
negativity that's usually present and hoping it lasts.
For me, 2011 was all about growth. After my seven-year relationship ended, it's like I didn't know who I was aside from one-half of a whole. This past year was full of lots of reflection and lots of praying. It was hard with plenty of good days and plenty of bad days. And I mean there were some really bad days in there. I made a lot of personal revelations in regards to my heath both physical and mental, my depression, and my weight loss that I'm hopeful will bring forth a lot of positive changes in 2012. I'm proud of the person that's emerged on the other side, proud of the person I grew into, and proud of the person I'm bringing over into the new year.
Tuesday, November 01, 2011
October wasn't the best for making progress. I had a few goals in mind, but I never got around to posting them and never really held myself accountable. That's going to change this month, and so far so good, even if it is only November 1st. One day at a time...
So, for November I plan on...
...running/walking at least 40 miles.
...ideally, working out every day, though I'll consider 24 days (80%) a success.
...losing 4 pounds (a pound a week).
Totally doable and still a little challenging (for me anyways). So what are some of your goals for the month?
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
How is it that October is almost gone?! This whole year has just flown by and now it's already time for the holidays. Wow... Normally I'd feel like I've wasted so much time with 2011 passing by so fast, but I feel like I've done anything but waste it. Even if the scale doesn't show that much progress (about 10 pounds since mid-July), it's still a loss. But more than that, I've gained a lot.
I've gained insight into myself and my subtle but self-destructive habits, and taken steps to stop it.
I've gained a bigger wardrobe now that I can fit into clothes I haven't worn in YEARS.
I've gained more energy.
I've gained more confidence.
I've gained self-recognition as a runner. (For awhile I felt like a fraud calling myself a runner because I couldn't run that far or that fast; I finally said "screw it," if I can run, then I am one.)
I've also gained more of a sense of overall well-being; I just feel better.
I'm sure there's more, but those are just a few of the more important ones that come to mind. Beyond this, I'm doing good. I'm loving the fall weather. I am excited for my favorite time of the year and looking forward to gaining more as I lose.
How is everyone else doing?
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