Today my new dentist finished up the root canal on me that she began 2 weeks again. Surprisingly my tooth feels great. I am more sore from the shots to deaden it than anything else. I am just grateful to have found a dentist who seems to really care about her patients. I had to have this procedure done because my previous dentist replaced an older filling and ended up hitting one of pulp canals and when I called back explaining the pain I was in from that procedure, I was told to just come buy some mouth wash- he did not even want to look at the tooth to see if anything was wrong with it. I know that doctors don't know everything but a little more courtesy would have been nice. But it is all good now. My tooth is fixed and I feel very comfortable with my new dentist.
The root canal took a good bit of time this morning and I was somewhat nervous about it so I guess I was pretty tense during the whole thing. I can out of the office with a stiff neck and a slight headache. Once I got back to work and took some ibuprofen I was better but the whole thing must have really took a toll on my body. I came straight home and sacked out on the couch for about an hour. Feeling better now just still tired. Will be heading to bed early tonight.
So looking forward to this weekend-it's a 3 day weekend for me!!!! Woohoo!!!!
What can I say, this place is awesome!!! I knew I would receive encouragement, I just didn't expect as much as I got. "Thanks" will never cover the gratitude I feel right now toward all my Sparkfriends who were there for me. I am feeling better each day. I am making strides everyday and trying to keep my goals in sight. I am on the climb back up!!!
I am trying to stay positive even in the mist of this low point for me right now. I have pretty much been MIA from Sparkpeople for a while now. Except for the automatic uploads from my Fitbit, I have not really tracked anything.
Tonight I really spent some time back here and I noticed a couple of things:
1. I have been a member since 2011 and pretty much been at the same weight ever since. There have been a few times that I have lost some weight only to gain it back when my motivation ran out.
2. I really miss being a part of the great community here.
I don't know why I let my motivation and determination falter the way that I do. I know what I need to be doing but can't seem to stick with it. I hate being over weight. I hate not being able to breathe at times. I hate being so uncomfortable in my own skin. I don't want to be vain. I know there are great things about me that have nothing to do with my appearance, and I know it is not just about how my body looks but I want to feel "pretty" again.
My biggest problem is food. I got the exercise thing down pat, but I am terrible when it comes to food choices and when it comes to saying no to food. I need more choices sometimes and for a picky eater that is not easy. I end up eating the same things over and over and I burn out. I know that I am struggling right now but I hope to come out of this better and ready to fight this fight again. AND WIN THIS TIME!!!!!
I am a little sore from having to lay so still for 40 minutes today during the MRI. I never knew how many muscles it took to keep yourself from moving! Nothing to report on my foot yet, the tech said I should hear from the dr tomorrow on the results. Came home and immediately got off my foot and have keep it up for the majority of the evening. Foot still looks swollen and pretty ugly but pain has subsided a little tonight.
This is what it looked like yesterday afternoon. I was in some serious pain.
I am trying really hard not to let this injury take away my drive and motivation to lose weight. It is really going to be a challenge for me now because I relied heavily on my exercise minutes to compensate for going over my calorie range, which I tend to do a lot. Got another wake-up last night...I knew with the MRI today that I would have to take all my jewelry off, my wedding rings have not been off in years. Well after much lotion and pulling, I was finally able to get them off, unfortunately, I now cannot get them back on and this is what my finger looks like from years wearing them and not controlling my weight. It just makes me sick.
This is going to be hard for me now that exercising will have to wait till my ankle heals. I am just praying that my ankle is not fractured and that recovery will be quick.
Well I have done it again. I was trying to overdo Monday while exercising and landed on the side of my foot instead of the bottom and turned my ankle. It immediately swelled...looked like a golf ball sticking out of the side of my foot. No broken bones and no major tear. Could have a small tear somewhere but only did x-rays right now. Swelling has finally gone down some but has also spread out over more of my foot and now it is a nice, pretty bluish-purple color. At least I can walk (very slowly and very carefully) on it some, but trying to keep it elevated as much as possible.
I should have know better and I should have listened to my body. I could tell I was getting way too tired but I so wanted to finish. My heart-rate watch showed that I had burned 937 calories before I went down but I was not ready for that type of exercise. I so want to lose weight and I want it gone TOMORROW!, but I know now that I can't force it to happen or next time I could break something and really put myself out of commission for a long time.