Monday, August 23, 2010
First of all I SURVIVED!!!
My friends and I went to Weir Hot Springs, ID for a Sat & Sun trip. They are just passed Jerry Johnson, and a LOT LESS PEOPLE! It was beautiful! The was shining the whole time. The walk back into the springs and camping areas was only about 1/2-3/4 mile in from the parking lot but it is one trecherous trail. Steep inclines and declines, sometimes no real place to step, climbing over downed trees, roots and rocks......oh baby it is a MIRACLE I made it carrying a 40lb top heavy pack.
Oh but once you get back there it is SO worth every step. Great places to put your tent, they have a super hot pool, a hot pool and we actually found another one that was perfect bath water temp! For dinner we had burgers and dogs and for the really adventurous chilli-burg-dogs w/cheese (not my choice personally) and just hung around the campfire til we had the pools to ourselves for a midnight swim. It was AMAZING stars, moonlight and hot springs who could ask for more!
The hike back out to the car went a lot quicker thank goodness I think we all were ready to go home. In the aftermath I have one new gash in my leg with bruise (fell), multiple bruises from sleeping on the ground, and my legs hurt like hell every step I take today. BUT I am so glad I went. I haven't been able to do something like this with my friends in over a year, and I'm proud of myself. I didn't complain any more or less than anyone else, I was able to keep with with everyone (experienced campers/hikers). I was just plain able to participate. It felt good and it still feels good today. Well worth all of the aftermath. I'll add pictures as soon as I can. I have to run and drop off my Immunization Records for UM so I can sign up for classes.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
The sun is shining, not too many clouds in the sky and I'm packing to go to the hot springs for an overnight. It'll be a nice little 3 mile hike in with the hot springs right there where you camp! I've never been so I'm really excited! I have no idea what I'm going to bring for food. Is there such a thing as healthy camping? (suggestions VERY welcome) And for the whipped cream to that cherry on top... I actually made it on the river to go floating yesterday! It was just a little 2 1/2 hr float but I made it the whole way! My tummy behaved for once, AND I even got to join the rest of my friends out to dinner afterwards. Shortly after dinner I had to say my good-byes but that was more fun with my friends than I'd be able to have in a long time!
I'm super excited because I finally have orientation at the University of Montana on the 25th, with classes to start immediately after. I've wanted to be a Griz since I was 15 and it was my brother's orientation. Between health and stupid life choices it has been a REALLY long journey to get here to this point. I'm nervous, I'm excited, I'm happy and to be totally honest I'm TERRIFIED! I've started second guessing myself if I can handle this. This will be the 3rd time restarting college due to health, and this time I have to start from scratch. Even though the dropping out and taking time off was due to health I can't help but look at it as failure instead. To meet UM's requirements for me to be admitted I have to take a certain amount of credits in a strict time frame with at least a 2.0 to continue. My health still isn't under control at all. I'm pretty much at the point where I have to say to myself "Well, this is my life. I can either curl up in the fetal position and cry like a baby OR I can learn to just deal with it and function anyways." Guess which one I'm going with?!?!?
Darn I ran outta time, sorry folks I'll finish this blog tomorrow when I get home. I gotta finish packing and get on the road in a little over an hour and still gotta eat breakfast too. If you do have any suggestions for good food to bring with for tonight, only a fire will be available no stoves, I WILL be checking back before taking off. THANKS!
Friday, July 23, 2010
Now that I've had my moment! I'm back Sparkers! After a 2 month long Mayo Clinic (Minnesota) visit and no dice...... I'm back, more frustrated yet more motivated than ever. We have a partial diagnosis that we ALREADY had and nothing new.....so once again just trying to find medications to help manage the symptoms. Medications are great IF THEY HELP. My experience so far is every time (for the past 2 1/2 YEARS) they put me on a new one I start feeling worse or start developing NEW symptoms. It's like the meds just alter the disease. I've become VERY anti-western medicine for myself and this "issue". Right now I just am finishing up getting my levels right on the newest meds (took 5 weeks) and since taking it I've gotten worse and lost 6 lbs (not a good thing brought me under a healthy weight), I know what your thinking "SO STOP TAKING IT!" hahaha if only it were that simple. This is one of those drugs you CAN'T cold turkey so I'll be miserable as the drug looses it's effects over the NEXT 5 weeks. The next lined up drug to try is HEAVY DUTY, messes with your bone marrow. The side effects for the first 3 weeks alone are MAJORLY incapacitating flu-like symptoms and depression (not a 'possible' side effect but a guarantee). One doctor wants me on it the other doctor DOESN'T...no clue what they are going to decide what to do. Every medicine after this bone marrow one just gets more and more TOXIC to my body.
So at this point here is where the MOTIVATION comes in to play. With all of this going on with western medicine, the stress, the lack of control.....I had to ask myself what CAN I control? What CAN I do?
The answer: My foundation, I can "strengthen" my foundation.
I CAN give myself a healthier start. I CAN decide that I eat only healthy foods within my restrictions. I CAN up my physical welling being with just moving a little more each day. I CAN do small accomplishments and be HAPPY with that, instead of focusing on the lack of big accomplishments. I CAN do so much more than I'm doing, for me, for my body, for my mental well being.
The plan? Get back to my routine before I went there. That means really getting back to working the site. I had really started to hit a stride towards having workouts become a part of my daily "To Do", it's going to take a little work to get back to where I was at before I left but I'm not scared ( ) I did it once I sure as heck can do it again. I've already thrown out or given away to friends the food in the house I can no longer eat (while I don't personally agree that people should deny themselves ANY food, I do have new doctor ordered restrictions and allergies to certain foods I love, namely bye-bye pork as a whole ). While I don't exactly know what my doctor's plans are for me, I am researching eastern medicine options. I figure if one isn't working the other might. I've taken a couple Tai Chi and Qi Gong classes and have been enjoying them both, they are very peaceful. As for the mental part of my plan I'm going to just keep coming on here for the great support that you all provide and keep relying on friends offline to hold on to my sanity. Both have been working wonders so far on keeping me positive, why change a good thing?
Wow that felt good to get that all off my chest!
I've missed all you Sparkers hope you all have been doing well, and hopefully a few goals have been made!!!!
If anyone does have questions/concerns/comments/suggestions FEEL FREE TO PLEASE POST THEM (or send a msg if you want it private)
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Made it just about half way to Minnesota. I'm sitting at a hotel in the lobby cause the freaking internet in my room won't work! So I'm going to go just wanted to let people know I made it to my first stop safely!
Sunday, May 02, 2010
Just posting my goals real quick I'm way to busy to do a full post right now.
*1,500 Fitness Minutes whole month
*Drink 10 8oz glasses of water a day, EVERY DAY!
*Zumba 3 days a week
*Get on Wii for 30 Minutes a day.
*Eat within my calorie range 14 Days IN A ROW.
Small goals due to I'll be at the Mayo Clinic for who knows how long so I don't want to aim TOO high if I'm getting poked and prodded left and right.
Hope everyone else is setting realistic goals.
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