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Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I started this program in Jan. of 2008. For the first 6,8,10, months I did great. I had lost 48 lbs. and was so proud of myself. Then it seemed like thing just feel apart. My Grandmother died in Nov. of "08" . After that I was on and off for quite awhile. Our business truck got smashed Aug "09". Then in Oct. My mom got really sick. After a week stay in the hospital my husband and I took her home with hospice. She had COPD. We moved in and took care of mom. There were a lot of up's, and down's, laughter, and tears for the next year. Mom past away Oct. 24th. I have been trying to get a lot of things back on track. Doing things that had to be done. Getting things back into some kind of order. I have been back here a few times, and just couldn't get it together. I know how proud my mom was when I was lossing weight. She knew how happy I was, and how proud of myself I was. So now I'm back. In all that's been going on I've gained all my weight back but 10 pounds, and I'm deturmined to do this. For me, and my mom. I'm going to get healthy, and fit. I'm pretty sure I'm going to need help. Mostly encouragement. I know this is the right place.

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PURPLE01 8/23/2011 2:46AM

    Hi Angel!!!!

I can so relate!!! I too have been on that same kind of roller coaster. My dad died in Sept 09, my step son in January of 2010, and then this year we had to go back to NC to get my MIL diagnosed, as she was having problems. turns out she has Alzheimer's and dementia! Dan lost 2 jobs over all the mess with his mom, one when we went back in january and he ended up staying there for 6 weeks and finally got her into a nursing home, just to have his sister take her out 3 weeks later just because mama was crying that she wanted to go home!! grrrrr.. made me spittin' mad! then he went back in March to get her license revoked and lost his part time job. and no his sister would not do a thing to do any of this. She is in denial that her mother is even sick! makes me ill thinking about it. so I too have gained back all the weight I had lost except for about 15 lbs, but now I too need to get back on track or my doc is going to put me on cholesterol meds and I don't want to go there, and my glucose is on the border of diabetic and I need to get it down! keep in touch, and I do have a new e-mail if you want to write to me it is

take care and God Bless!!!

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MRSLAZZLOE 2/17/2011 10:24AM

    I am proud of you for your honesty and your determination. You will make your Mom proud I am sure. Like you, my life has become almost unmanageable at times with the day to day "situations." I need to get to the point where you are and get my head right...I am just not there yet.

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Friday, August 07, 2009

I wanted to apologise to my team mates, and co leaders for how sporadic I have been on. We have so much going on in our lives right now. It seems as though there's not a minute that is not totally taken up. We have been fighting with our mortgage company for two years, My second son is going through a nasty divorce. His soon to be x is causing us more trouble than anyone could ever imagine, and the 27th of July a drunk driver with no Insurance totaled our business truck.
The mortgage company has jacked us around for two years over a variable rate. Stealing around 3.000.00 from us. They will never get it right, So this past weekend we moved out. Not really what we wanted to do. We had just put 18,000.00 into our home before all of this started, but ya gotta do what ya gotta do.
My soon to be x daughter-in-law wont follow court orders as far as the grand kids. She has been in contempt of court four, or five times. Wont let my son have the kids on his days. Makes us have to involve the police to get the kids. Calls the police, or child protection every time we do have them. Saying there's no food, unfit living conditions, and anything else you can imagine. Has done things like call the building inspector, saying we're working on electric, or plumbing without permits, Calling code enforcement. Which in the long run will work in our favor, and all ready is, but it's just a hassle. We are in and out of court like a yo-yo. The court this last time assigned a lady to check things out and give the court her opinion as to what would be best for the boys. The way she talks my son will get his kids, if they can be found cause DIL up and moved without letting anyone know.
Then the 27th a drunk driver hits our truck that was parked in front of our home. Totals the truck, and has no insurance. Our business insurance paid only the balance owed on our truck, not quite 4,000.00 gave us 1,000.00, and was done. I'm having them investigated. They paid for nothing. Legal limit is .08, She blew a .22. This is the fourth time this has happened. Where a drunk driver has smashed our business truck, and we have always come out ok. With enough to get another truck. We do intend on taking her to court. For now she has put us right out of business.
Now please don't get me wrong. I really am not complaining. Things could be a whole lot worse. I know everything happens for a reason, and I whole hearted believe everything will all work out in time. It's just with everything that is going on, I have no time. I do intend to be back in full force, and hopefully soon. I know what I can do on this sight, and can't wait to get back. So please be patient while I'm in, and out taking care of life. With all this going on I'm sure I have put some weight back on, but have been afraid of my scale. LOL
Love, and miss ya all Donna

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JAKERS6 9/8/2009 1:56PM

    I know it's been awhile since you wrote this, I hope everything is going better. I just got a chance to read it, I truely am sending out warm wishs that all will work out.

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CYNTHIAS50 8/28/2009 7:58AM

    Donna I'm sorry I've not been in the "loop" for awhile, but know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope that things are looking better for you now........

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SUZYWM 8/12/2009 12:02AM

You're doing a great job staying balanced with all the stress, and you're right that it will work out in the end. Be kind to yourself!

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1SUNSHINEGIRL 8/11/2009 4:21PM

    Donna, prayers for you and your family and all you are dealing with right now.

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PEACH621 8/8/2009 1:39PM

    Donna, Sounds your you really have your hands full. My prayers are with you. Remember to take everything one day at time :)

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JANEYTEE 8/7/2009 8:58PM

    Donna - you have been going through so much! You are a very strong person to go through all of that and still have the attitude that you do. I will be praying for you and your family, especially those grandkids. As Laura said we are here for you when you are ready to come back and get on track. I am praying that it will be soon. Don't forget to take care of you too!

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RANAWAY 8/7/2009 8:30PM

    Donna - my heart goes out to you and my prayers are definitely with you and your family. You have been through A LOT! Your attitude is so good and you know things will get better. I hope you are able to find the grandkids soon - the xDIL sounds very unstable and probably not the best for your kids. Anyway, we are here for you and we'll help you get back on track!

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The Most Awesome Mothers Day

Saturday, May 16, 2009

In the midst of kayos, and drama came the most wonderful day I could have ever asked for. My family had been planning for weeks. I could tell there was something going on, but didn't have a clue. They had found a site on the internet where you could add your own pictures to a pre made picture. They picked a mothers day picture with roses on it, and added there pictures to the center of the roses. At the top it said " Your the best luv ya mom, and on the bottom Happy Mothers Day. They printed it out, and took it to wal-mart to put on top a mothers day cake. They bought me beautiful flowers. They set my computer up so that when I touched it I got a really cool mothers day welcome. They planned a cook out with food they new would fit into my sparks plan. Grilled chicken, a veggie tray with dip, and corn on the cob. It was great. A day I will cherish and remember forever.

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TWLITE 5/30/2009 9:53AM

    That sounds like a wonderful Mother's Day Surprise. You are much loved!!!

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JANEYTEE 5/16/2009 11:38PM

    Wow what wonderful thought kids you have. You should be proud. You raised them well! That is just absolutely beautiful.

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CYNTHIAS50 5/16/2009 2:50PM

    You are one lucky Mom, to have such a wonderflu thoughtful family! Shows the world that their Momma did something right :)
You have been blessed , hope you have many more blessings!

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My heart is breaking

Monday, November 17, 2008

This is my grandmother. She has been a very important person in my life. She passed away Saturday Nov.15th at 10:50 pm. She was 98 years young, as of April 30th 2008. I say young, because if you would have ever seen her, you could have never guessed her age. She was full of life, and always lived life to the fullest. When I was young, I spent every summer at her house. My cousin Deb, and I have great memories of our summers together. Gardening, watching late night movies of Jerry Lewis, and Dean Martin, laughing until we couldn't breath. Grandma was always a very busy lady, but always had time for us. We'd be playing yahtzee, goofing off, eating popcorn, and you never seen anyone laugh as hard, or as long as we would. The harder one would laugh, the harder every one would laugh. Grandma would stop laughing, and in total seriousness say Your going to fool around, and choke, and we would all erupt into laughter. We'd hold our cheek's down, from them hurting so bad. My grandma taught me so many things. How to garden, cook,sewing, crochet, try-chem paint, and the list goes on. Into the older years she never stopped. She did sewing, gardening, quilting right up till the very last. The last few month she has needed our help in some things, but hated it. She would tell us she never thought the day would come. We'd tell her how much we loved her, and to think about how long she had taken care of us. That would make her feel better. My grandma had End-Stage Renal Disease. We have known this was coming some day soon, and yet never expected it. Saturday morning I went to breakfast with my mom, 5 am as always. When we left we called to razz my Aunt about the football board. That is when we found out grandma was bad. She died in my Aunt, and my arms. I knew what was happening, and yet it was so unreal. I still am not sure it has totally sunk in. I love her more than words can express. I am heart broken that she had to leave us. I know she is in a better place. I know she is with her heavenly father. I know she is with family that has passed before her. She is whole, and happy. It's the best thing for her. Cry when they enter the world, and celebrate them being called home. Pray for the strength to do just that. Please pray for my family, and I as we lay this awesome women to rest.

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PENELOPESUE61 10/24/2009 12:34AM

    I am so sorry for your loss!! Your Grandma sounds like she was a wonderful person! I'm a Dialysis Technician. It's a very hard road for a lot of people when they have End Stage Renal Disease. God Bless You! emoticon

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JODYROSE 12/7/2008 9:35PM

    So very sorry to hear about your loss. I know it doesnt help to say this, but I will say anyway, shes never going to be far from you, she is just freed from her old, frail body. {{{{{gentle hugs}}}}} emoticon

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B~ROSIE 11/20/2008 5:18PM

    Donna thank you for sharing such a beautiful blog on your grandmother! I'm so sorry for your loss and I am sending you and your family my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. hugs ~ beth

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MRSLAZZLOE 11/20/2008 8:32AM

    I am so sorry for your loss Donna! I have lost both of my grandmothers and they leave a big empty place...Cherish your memories!


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EDDIEMAE 11/19/2008 6:12PM

You have my deepest sympathies.
I always say that my Grams is my most favoritest person in the whole wide world, as was my Gramps, before he passed away. There is something special in the bond with a grandparent. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and memories. I have shared similar experiences with my Grandma.

I hope that your grief is lessened by the happy memories that I know you will cherish.

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SOPHIAR1 11/18/2008 11:04PM

    Donna, sorry to hear about your loss. i will keep you and your family in my prayers.
keep us posted.

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DEVANS716 11/18/2008 10:44PM

I am so sorry for your loss. Your post is a beautiful tribute to your grandmom.
It brought back so many memories of my own grandmom, and I thank you for that.
We are lucky to have had such special people touch our lives.
Cherish those memories.
I will keep your family in my prayers.

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MINICOOPER452 11/18/2008 6:39PM

I am so sorry for your loss. I had my mom's mom until she was 98 as well and I still miss her. Grandma's are so cool and we learn so much from them if we allow ourselves to. I received this poem from a friend when my dad died 10 years ago. I've shared it many times and it still brings me joy. I hope you like it.
















I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.
Love and Blessings.

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TWLITE 11/18/2008 3:11PM

I'm so sorry for your loss. she sounds like she was wonderful. You're in my thoughts and prayers.


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SUNNYGAL2011 11/18/2008 1:52PM

My heart breaks as i read your sad news of your precious granma passing on.....
I too have suffered many losses.. but most recently my own precious daddy who left this earth this past May 5th on his 80th bday... I arrived moments after he passed... and i held him and he was still warm to my touch... I felt a peace at that moment no words can describe.. and yet the sadness of knowing he and i (like you and your granma) would never get to 'do' all the things here on this earth that we did together for so so many years... Fond, wonderful memories are what we as Christians have to keep us 'going on here' and also knowing that WE WILL see them again one day at Heavens Gates...
I am praying for you and your family that God gives you comfort and peace within during this time of such sorrow~
God bless
your friend

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MSRUBY66 11/18/2008 12:25PM

    My heart is with you at this difficult time..I KNOW what it is to feel that kind of loss, for me it was my Great Uncle Harold , it still hurts and it has been 20 years...just know that she will always be right there with you in spirit!

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REDSOXLOVER 11/18/2008 12:03PM

I'm so sorry for your pain. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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JANEYTEE 11/18/2008 11:20AM

    Donna, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You have been blessed to have her in your life as long as you did. You have so many great memories of her that you will carry with you for the rest of your life - that is what I call a successful life. She is always with you and a part of you is always with her. I will keep you and your family in my prayers while you grieve.

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KOWAL4 11/18/2008 11:16AM

    You're in my thoughts and prayers. Please be gentle with yourself at this time. Kim

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CHBADILLO 11/18/2008 10:51AM

    My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family too. I lost my dear Grandma a few years back and it still aches but I find JOY in the memories. Sounds like you have wonderful memories to hang on to till you all meet in heaven one day. Remember that her and Jesus are dancing right now, probably laughing really hard till she looks at HIM in all seriousness and tells him that they are both going to choke and then...well you know what happens next :)
BLESSINGS Laughter is filling heaven!

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GLENNSWIFE82 11/18/2008 10:37AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my Grandma 5 yrs ago to a stroke, so I know what you're going through. It's so wonderful to have such a wonderful grandmother growing up with you through the years, and so terribly hard to lose them. I think we are the lucky ones to have had such an important role model in our lives. Grandmas are the most special gift anyone can get. I know she will be forever in your heart, and you'll be blessed with all the good memories until you are once again with her in heaven. She'll be waiting for you and your family with her arms wide open. I'll be thinking of you and your loved ones during this difficult time. Take care,
Diana emoticon

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WATERGIRL60 11/18/2008 10:21AM

    Donna, You & your family are in my thoughts & prayers!
This wonderful woman is now an angel in heaven just as she was on earth.

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JRLEGGETT 11/18/2008 10:03AM

    My prayers are with you and your family.


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DAWNO64 11/18/2008 9:36AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Please hold on to all those wonderful memories you have of her.

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LINLANG 11/18/2008 9:35AM

    I pray that God will comfort you in this time.

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LINLANG 11/18/2008 9:35AM

    I pray that God will comfort you in this time.

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KIMUSH23 11/18/2008 8:39AM

    My heart aches for you and your family right now and I am so incredibly sorry and wish that there was more that I could do to lessen your load and shoulder some of your pain...

But all I can do is offer you my support and be here should you need support or help, please do not hesitate to msg/email me.

You, your Family and all your loved ones are in my thought and prayers.
Take Care Kim

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MOM1960 11/18/2008 8:39AM

    My heart and prayers go to you and your family at this time. Reading your blog brought back memories of my own grandma. We are so blessed to have such great people enter our lives they will never be forgotten..........

Thinking of you.......


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SWEETSPCL 11/18/2008 8:30AM

    I don't believe there is one person who not sign on the dotted line to live to 98 years old. Your family has indeed been very blessed to have your Grandmother that long. Laugh when you remember, Cry when you want . Let all of your emotions have their time as grief is a process not to be short changed.

You and your family are in my prayers.

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HEATHERGETSON 11/18/2008 8:30AM

    Donna, so sorry to hear of the passing of your grandmother.
I hope you can find comfort in the cherished memories you share.
There may be consolidation in knowing she lived a long and healthy life shared by love.

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KSNJMOM22 11/18/2008 8:15AM

    What wonderful memories you have of this lovely woman. A lifetime of laughter and love. Peace be with you and your family.

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STORMIE62 11/18/2008 8:14AM

The loss of a dear one is the most hardest of all God's gifts to bear, but know that she is waiting for you in a pain free perfect form and that the joy will be overflowing for all when you meet again. But until that day my prayer is that you share your fondest memories of her with anyone who needs a smile or be comforted by her deeds while she was here on earth. May you find the blessings awaiting you and your family in time, strength and encouragement for you while in mourning of her departure.

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SHARI46 11/18/2008 7:45AM

    Hi there,
I'm so sorry about your lost. I lost my grandmother two years ago. My heart goes out to you. My grandmother always made me feel good when I did not. I miss her every day. But, I would not have her come back for nothing. I know is and your grandmother are in a better place. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.


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STARGAZER79 11/18/2008 7:39AM

    My thoughts and prayers go out to you and you family in this time of sadness.

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HOLLYCHARRIER 11/18/2008 7:36AM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. My grandma, Opal, was my best friend and my partner in crime!!! There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss her. Strangely enough, everyone in the family says the older I get, the more like her I become. I will lift you and your family up and pray that God gives you all strength, peace and call to your remembrance even more loving memories!

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HEARTOFCHRIST 11/18/2008 7:35AM

    I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. It is very hard for those of us left behind when someone we love dies. She sounded like a wonderful person and you were very blessed to have had her in your life! I pray that God bestows His peace and comfort on you and your family!

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WENDYSPARKS 11/18/2008 7:06AM

    I am sorry for the passing of your grandma. You were blessed to have her for 98 years. My grandma was 86 when she passed back in 1986. I think of her often. She brought me up as my mother was to sick in her life to do so. I wish you the best and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers at this time. May God bless your grandmother, you and your family. friends, wendy

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FITAT49 11/18/2008 7:01AM

    You are so blessed to have had a gramma and all of these wonderful memories.

I never knew what that was like. What a wonderful heritage and wealth of special memories that has left you to have an important person like her in your life !

I'm sure you will miss her, but think of all the great times you have had.

I wish I had even one of them !
You are in my thoughts right now !

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HEATLW 11/18/2008 6:50AM

    Be happy. She lived a long and good life.

Thoughts with you.

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CYNTHIAS50 11/18/2008 6:43AM

    Donna, you and yours are in my prayers..... emoticon

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RANAWAY 11/18/2008 6:03AM

    You and your family are in my prayers.

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SHARBABY123 11/17/2008 10:52PM

    Donna, I'm so sorry about the passing of your grandmother. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. God bless.


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A bit overwhelmed

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Honestly I don't know where to start. None of my family gets along very well. Extended family that is. My 98 year old grandma has a kidney disease, and not in very good health. My aunt lives with her, and is the main care giver. Every one is upset with this aunt, so my grandmother kind of pays the price, cause family don't go see her much, and refuse to help at all, because they feel it's helping the aunt. I have been trying to help with her. Their house is falling apart, and they have found out they will more than likely have to move. Only after we have spent weeks of packing, and moving every thing from here to there trying to make it so the house could be worked on. Then one of my cousins, Barb passed away Oct. 1st. Before that her brother passed in June, Before that her mother in 07, and before that her father. There is only one member of that family still alive. My cousin Penny, and she has dealt with so much heart ache, that she is on the verge of a break down. She has been the care giver to every one of them before they passed. She has had to go through every ones stuff, and get rid of things as she's moved through all of this. When Barb passed Penny decided to move to N.C. to be with her daughter. She can't take really anything with her but her own belongings. So yet again she has to get rid of a whole household full of things. Because I was always there for Barb, Penny decided to give everything Barb owned to me. So for about a week we been packing things from there, and moving that. They have to be out of that house by Fri. Then there's me and my adult kids. My oldest son totaled his truck on his way home from work at 3am about a month ago, and had no way back, and forth to work. He worked a 45 min. drive from where we all live, so he went to a near by camp grounds, and was staying there weekdays, and us going after them so they could be home weekends. They came home and there house had been broke into. They had just bought a 7 to 800.00 flat screen TV. Gone, along with about 1000.00 of other things. In trying to deal with that he lost his $15.00 an hour job. Now has no transportation. No job, no belongings, and three small children, with Dr. appointments, and other things needing done. Another son is having some major problems. Then there's our household. We have our mortgage through Countrywide. If you have heard anything about this company you already know this is not a good thing. We have been fighting with them since Sept. 07. The States attorney general is in a law suit with this mortgage company. Every month our mortgage is a different amount. We have lived in this house for 18 years. Raised all four of our kids here. Our grand kids were born, and brought home here. Never missed a payment till Jan. of this year, and after missing one payment got a foreclosure letter. We just put $12,000.00 into our home. Got it the way we've wanted it since we moved in. New siding, new kitchen, added a bathroom, took out lath, and mortar, put in drywall. while doing all this we found out the main wall, and foundation was rotten, and had to fix all that, plus They had to jack up the house, and replace 5, or 6 floor Joyce's. Now we could lose it. Me going back to school. Oh lord, just to much. Life has to slow down. All I do is run, run, run, run , run, and no matter how fast I go, It's not enough. I have the most dysfunctional extended family you could ever imagine, there all like a bunch of two year olds. There are so many people in this family, that if every one would get their head out of their ----. It wouldn't have to be hard on any one person. This is not what I want to give up, but don't know what else to do at this point. I'm going to try to still track my food, and pop in now and then. I'll be a mile behind here too, but have been for a while... I'm normally the most up beat person you'll ever know. I guess, I still am, Just need a break.See ya all when I can... Your emoticon Donna

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EDDIEMAE 10/30/2008 11:56PM

    You need to take care of YOU, Donna!
Come back when you can!!

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RANAWAY 10/30/2008 9:50PM

    Donna - I'll be praying for you and all you are going through right now. We'll miss you and look forward to when you return. Laura

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DANI39 10/30/2008 7:26PM

    Well to say this all sounds overwhelming would be an understatement, so take a break, have a warm relaxing bath in the new bathroom. Be good.

Hope everything improves, take care.

Danica emoticon

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WATERGIRL60 10/30/2008 11:35AM

    Donna, I will keep you & your family in my prayers.
((Hugs)) & hope to see you soon.

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SHARBABY123 10/30/2008 10:42AM

    Donna, I'm so sorry to hear about all your troubles. It really sucks when family has to act that way. I hope everything will get better. You and yours will be in my thoughts and prayers.


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CYNTHIAS50 10/30/2008 9:40AM

    Donna, by all means you do need a break! I will keep you and your family in my prayers and we'll be here when you get back!

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