I am really not sure what happened yesterday. Perhaps it started with the events in the morning - I am not really sure. But slowly through out the day I lost the battle between me and my negative voice.
I think I probably could tie to the getting dressed yesterday. I had my outfit all planned out but when I went to put my pants on they were really tight. Tight and uncomfortable. It instantly made me feel awful. But I was running late and didn't have time to really think about it so I put on a different pair of pants and ran out the door.
Last night I was feeling fine...after my son went to bed I suddenly felt hungry. I remember thinking 'oh yeah - Liam ate half my dinner off my plate so I really didn't eat a big dinner'. I walked into the kitched to get some frozen yogurt when out of no where my 'fat negative voice came'. (Now I used to battle with this as a pre-teen when I was heavily overweight. And have pretty much killed this voice since I discovered fitness.) But as I put my hand on the freezer suddenly I started thinking - 'do you really need this? Remember how tight your pants were this morning? But go ahead - eat some more - get a little fatter. I am sure getting dressed will be super fun tomorrow when your clothes don't fit. No wonder you can lose the last 10lbs...Frozen yogurt my goodness, fatty'.
Yeah - that all came rushing into my head. It totally caused me to be in a funk. It's funny because I know this is the wrong way to think but I guess we all just have days where that negative voice throws itself out there.
The saying it the above picture is so true. You can become your own worst enemy if you give into that negative voice. I decided to shake it off and go to bed early. This morning I woke up feeling good about myself. I purposely looked in the mirror and told myself that I am beautiful and fit.
That's the thing. I am not fat. Sure I could lose 10 lbs to be back at my fittest body weight - but I am healthy now. I look good in my clothes. Sure I have pants I would love to get into. But it doesn't mean I am a fatty because they don't fit.
I put on my favorite workout outfit and when downstairs and absolutely crushed Fire 55.
As soon as I pressed play it was like - I am back! This is me - I am fierce, fit and determined.
The confidence I feel right now and right after is amazing. I am not sure why the negative voice came back for a visit last night. Could have been the stress of being in a plateau for months now. May have been the stress from the events that occured this week.
But what I do know - is I won. Sure it got me down for a little bit last night but my positive nature is stronger now. It's stronger than that negative voice and I showed it who was boss this morning.
Wow! Last night was a very dramatic night of teaching. First - there was a stabbing on campus. Now the college I teach at is pretty safe and things like this do not happen. So it was quite shocking. I had to calm my class down. But of course the back of my classroom is all windows that overlook the main entrance so we got a front row seat at the fire trucks, SWAT teams, and ambulance. I am not sure exactly what happened as it was in another area of the college that the incident occured but my students were nervous that we would be in lockdown. Thankfully the police had the suspect in custody and the student who was injured wasn't critically injured as he was stabbed with a pen not a knife.
All the same is was really intense. After I got my class calmed down they began to act like they did last week - a little rowdy and not really paying attention. So I stopped and simply said 'Can you please not talk while I am teaching? It's dis-respectful to your fellow students who do want to pay attention and hear what I am saying. In addition, it's dis-respectful to me. Please just keep the talking to breaks and raise your hand if you have a question."
The students said 'sorry miss' and after that it was like I had a completely different class. They paid attention; they did the work; they were asking me questions and getting involved. It honestly felt so amazing!
Now onto fitness - this morning there was no PiYo on the schedule but there was Turbo Fire!!
I did Fire 45 EZ Class. This was perfect because I haven't done any HIIT since my cold. This particular workout doesn't have any of the Fire Drills. But it is still tough! I really enjoyed it.
It was funny because I got up this morning and really didn't want to workout. I wanted to go back to bed. But I said to myself 'no - you will feel like it 5 mins into the workout'.
Sure enough - I start the DVD and I don't even think it took 5 minutes before I was feeling in to it. I was so happy I did it because I feel so much better now.
I looked ahead and tomorrow is another Turbo fire day! woo hoo!
Guess what? I went all day yesterday without having to take any cough medicine! I only had one coughing attack when I got to my office. (I blame that on the fact that the heat just got turned on this week in the building). I think I may have finally beat this cold! Thank goodness!
Last night I had my Tuesday night class - and they all had their text book! Finally - only the third week of class. It was so much easier to teach the computer applications when they can follow along in the book as well. My Wednesday class always gives me more trouble. I am praying that at least half of them have their textbook today. I have to be a lot stricter with my Wendesday class as they are very gabby. And we need to use the class time wisely.
I am so far really enjoying teaching. It's new and exciting. And yes my schedule just got really full with a full time marketing management position, teaching part time, a 2 year old at home, and house up-keep. But so far it's working. My husband is so supportive and is helping out as best he can. Tonight my hubby and son are having a pizza night. ahaha The hubby is so excited. He knows I am trying to lose weight so pizza isn't on the menu a lot. Thus, he is taking full advantage of my teaching evenings to enjoy himself!
This morning's workout was PiYo Strength Intervals. I haven't done this workout in awhile so it was a nice change. It's 20 minutes long but intense. I was sweating and breathing hard through the entire workout.
Next was PiYo Buns! One of my favorites!!!
I am definitely going to be feeling this later! Especially all those bowler lunges. My goodness my legs were on fire.
What I am loving the most this week is that I am really, really feeling my abs. I don't know why but ab soreness is my favorites.
It's like - Oh yeah your sore cause you got WORKED! hahaha I don't know I just find it strangely satisfying to know my abs are sore. The best is when they are so sore that even laughing hurts! hahaha
Tomorrow is a Turbo Fire day for me and I cannot wait. I think my cold is finally gone enough that I can push it!
Yesterday was the first day in a long time that I didn't feel the intense pressure in my sinuses. I decided to try and do a PiYo workout and see how I felt.
PiYo Drench was on my calander. And although it was tough I was so glad that i did it.
I was breathing a little heavier than I would normally but I still have a lingering cough so I was actually expecting that. I was, however, pleasantly surprised how easily I kept up with all the moves. I was nervous that because I took a week off the gains I had made in my planks and push-up abilities as well as some of the other moves would have faltered a bit. But no - other then getting out of breath a little sooner I was able to complete the moves at the same level I was previously.
This morning Turbo Fire HIIT 30 Class was on the schedule.
But because of how easily I was getting short of breath doing PiYo the night before and I do still have a cold/cough I decided to swap it out for Turbo Fire Fire 30 class with the weighted gloves.
It was the best choice. It felt tough. I felt a little bit like I was moving through mud. I didn't over-do it because I want this cold gone. I again felt much better after I did and was glad I chose Fire 30 class. I still feel I am healing a bit so I was a little easy on myself.
After Fire 30 class I moved on to PiYo Hard Core on the Floor.
I think I have only done this workout once but it was great this morning! And I am getting so much better at the beast move. Very happy about that.
I still feel like I am not 100% better but I am well enough to moderately workout.
Wow! My cold completely de-railed all my workouts last week. It began in my sinuses and then moved to my chest.
I know a lot of people say that you can workout if it is just in your head not your chest. however, at the beginning of the week when I was just feeling it in my sinuses the thought of jumping around with all the pressure in my head was too much. Then it moved to my chest and I thought there is no way I am working out.
So I ended up taking the entire week last week off working out. I even took Thursday and Friday off work because I felt so bad. I haven't been that knocked down by a cold in a very long time.
Today I woke up and felt good. I decided I am going to re-start week 6 today. So after the little guy goes to sleep tonight I will be doing Drench. It's a workout that doesn't really have jumps in it so I feel it's a good one to start with.
Oh and the best news - I weighed myself this morning and didn't gain any weight! woo hoo!
We also had to turn the heat on this weekend! wow! Getting cold already! lol