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Harder than it seems...

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Here it is, half way through February and I feel as though I've fallen off the wagon again. Jan 29th I weighed in and had lost 3 pounds. Feb 5th I weighed in and stayed the same, didn't gain but didn't lose either. But that weekend I also made cupcakes for 2 different events, and all last week I've been having about a cupcake a day (stupid leftovers I didn't get out of the house). I also majorly slacked on my workouts, and didn't even dare to weigh in on the 12th (I try to weigh in each Sunday afternoon for consistancy).

Yesterday I didn't work out either, but did make the choice to have a subway sandwich instead of eating at a pizza buffet. VERY good choice there. I will be taking a walk with my husband and my dog tonight, and plan to work out as well.

I suppose it's all a matter of balance. I need to put in the effort to lose the weight, and need to work it in to where it's a lifestyle change, not just something temporary to try to drop a few pounds. I'm also trying hard to eat healthy, which isn't bad most of the time, but there are times I find myself holding an empty cupcake wrapper and wondering how it got in my hand... scary.

At least I have no temptation from V-day candy (we don't bother to celebrate it), and the cupcakes are gone... maybe this week can be a healthier one than last week at least.

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SUE5007 2/14/2012 5:58PM

    Yes, balance.

Sounds like you need something else to be excited about. Find a new recipe on SparkRecipes and make it one day this week. Or buy a fruit/veggie you've never had before and try it.

Set a goal to work out "x" times or for "x" minutes this week and see if you meet your goal.

Like SETAGOAL1 said, babysteps. :)

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SETAGOAL1 2/14/2012 5:52PM

    You have not given up on yourself. You now know you are the only one that can make it happen for you.

You have the power to succeed or fail.

You have chosen to succeed.

Few baby steps complete a long journey

Writing is progress!!!


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I'm afraid to get TOO excited...

Friday, February 03, 2012

My "discovery" that I only need to work out 20-30 minutes a day to burn approx 150 calories to lose weight seems to be helping. Of course, this also means keeping my eating in check, and some days that is a real challenge. I weighed myself in the first part of January at 174 pounds. Last Sunday (Jan 29th) after a solid week of calorie control and work outs I weighed in at 171! Could it be this plan is working?

I do think my biggest struggle will be controling my eating. I'm a grazer and an emotional eater (happy, sad, mad, bored... doesn't matter). I've tried using the tracker but I don't keep up with it. I've tried a "manual" version where I just write everything down, but haven't managed to keep up with that either. Luckily I eat basically the same things every day so I already know where I'm at with my calories. My biggest challenge is when I get home from work and I make dinner. It can be so hard sometimes not to snack while I'm cooking or snack before and after the meal (doesn't seem to matter if I'm actually hungry or not). Weekends can be rough too, especially if I'm at home.

I've also realized I don't drink nealry enough water. I have a bottle in front of me all day long at work, I just don't manage to drink it. Funny thing is, I don't really drink other beverages. either. No soda or starbucks addiction here! I guess I'll just have to figure out something that gets me to thnk about drinking water...

Anyway, less than 2 weeks ago I was feeling pretty down on myself, but i'm slowly feeling my body change and react and it's making me feel like there is hope to losing this extra weight. My stamina has definately improved. I started using an elliptical and at first I could barely go a minute without my legs burning and needing/wanting to stop. Just the other day I went for over 15 minutes straight! That is on the easiest setting, but at least I feel like I'm getting somewhere.

So I guess I'll keep doing what I'm doing and see what happens!


Seriously? August?

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Dear me,

I just realized that I haven't posted a blog on here since last August! Which also means that I probably haven't been working out or tracking my eating habits since then either. No wonder the last time I got on the scale I had GAINED 10 pounds! What is WRONG with me? I have never, EVER been this overweight in my entire life, and it keeps getting worse.

Yes, I have low self-esteem, always have. And yes, I know I'm unhappy where I am and need to take steps to change that. What I don't understand is why I seem to have this mental block keeping me from losing weight and being happy and healthy!

Last week I did work out Monday - Thursday, but completely slacked on Friday, Sat, and Sunday even though I was NOT busy and had plenty of time to work out. I just didn't. I did manage to graze like a cow and watch lots of TV. Luckily we don't keep snacks in the house, but just because it's not chips and ice cream doesn't mean it's not calories I don't need.

I also wonder when I work out for 20 - 30 minutes if it's really enough. I keep telling myself right now I'm just trying to make it a habit, and 20 - 30 min is a lot better than nothing. When I push myself on the elliptical I can burn 150 - 180 calories in 20 min or so, and my tracker says I need to burn 1010 calories a week (roughly 150 cal a day over 7 days) to meet my goal.
Of course, I just found that out today... perhaps that will make it easier to "just do it". I do wonder when I do a work our video how to know what you burn. My elliptical tells me on the screen... this may require some googling.

Well, after my cupcake for breakfast (it was someone's birthday, and I only ate 1!) I'm really not feeling too proud of myself, but I suppose I'll just have to start again. My pants are uncomfortable and actually rolling down at the top because they are too tight and it's driving me crazy! Maybe I should wear these every day to remind myself to keep my eating in check and to make a work out a priority every day.

I had a motivator... I was to be the Matron of Honor in a wedding in August, but now the couple is eloping so no dreaded bridesmaid dress and wedding pictures to worry about now. I DID buy a pretty (and expensive for me) dress for my birthday in april, that is probably 2-3 sizes too small right now. That's about 13 weeks, and if I hit 2 pounds a week I'll be 13 pounds from my goal weight on my birthday! Will I really drop 2 pounds a week if I burn 150 calories a day and watch what I eat??

Well, sorry to anyone who actually reads this. I really blog for myself so I don't go completely insane. I'm deciding right now that tonight I will fit in a work out, even though I'm watching my 3 year old nephew from 6-9pm. On a weeknight... what was I thinking?

Come on me, you can do this!


Haven't seen you in a while...

Friday, August 19, 2011

Have you ever been belittled by a video game? It goes something like this...

"Hi! It's been a while since I've seen you. Been too busy to exercise huh? Well, let's get you on the scale... OH! That's overweight! Hmm... looks like you've gained a little since last time! You aren't going to reach your goal at this rate. What are you doing wrong? Snacking, overeating, not exercising? To be at healthy weight you need to be 30 pounds lighter! Let's set a new goal..."

So... I really only use the Wii Fit as a scale, and to "stamp" the days I work out. Regardless, the scale doesn't lie. Why aren't I losing weight? Why is the scale stuck between 161 - 162 pounds? I've revamped my eating habits, and work out more than I ever have, but that scale is so stubborn! And honestly... in high school I was a happy 142 pounds, yet for a "healthy" BMI I'm supposed to get down to 132? I would wear a size 2 or 4 if I lost that much. Is that really healthy or just extra skinny? I like having a little curve (and my husband does too!).

So, I suppose I'm just going to have to be a little more committed. I admit, working out only 2-3 times a week is probably my downfall. Will I have to work out 5-6 times a week for the rest of my life to keep from ballooning? Is maintaining really easier than losing?

I think I've lost my mind... which is a lot easier than losing weight!


11 days and counting...

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

11 more days until my 1st mini goal of 5 pounds by 8/6/11. I think (hope?) I'm starting to see changes from my workouts. I feel like my arms and legs have a bit more firmness to them, and I'm pretty sure I have at least a little more endurance than I did a few weeks ago. Or I'm at least trying harder.
My Wii fit board still mocks me when I weigh in ("that's overweight!") but that line on the graph is slowly creeping down. And I do love stamping the calendar each day after I work out. I can really see when I'm putting in the effort and when I'm slacking off. I think I need some stickers for my calendar at work...

I won a battle with myself last night. Normally I'm eager to use the "oh shucks, I've procrastinated so long now it's too late to work out today!" excuse. But last night as I sat on the couch at 9:30 I made the choice to get up and work out anyway. I was very proud of myself, and am hoping to break myself of the procrastination excuse.

Ok, me... you seem to have trouble working out beyond 2 days in a row (and even 2 days in a row is few and far between). You only have 11 days to meet this goal, and you aren't going to get there by skipping days willy-nilly. It's time to commit! Got it? Good!


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