Saturday, August 04, 2012
I need some Spark friend support right now.
I can't even begin to find the words to tell you how disappointed I am. I thought I was pregnant, but doesn't look it now. My period is now 4 days late. I'm at 13 DPO, but usually I bleed by 9 DPO. I am never late.. Something is going on in my body and though I'll never know for sure, I think I probably did conceive and something was wrong with the zygote and so I lost it. I know it is easier now than later, but honestly it is never easy. We have been wanting another baby for so long. I lost a baby two years ago at 10 weeks along. I have had a couple chemical pregnancies. like this, even one with a positive test that then turned negative the next day. Oh, and my period still hasn't fully started, just spotting off/on all day. I did have a negative pregnancy test today, though. Feel free to pray for me. I made a vlog about this, but not sure if I'll post it or not.
OK.. so what I need to do is really throw myself fully back into weight loss. That is what I used when I was so frustrated about not conceiving after we'd been trying for a full year.. I lost 60 lbs then before I conceived my son. My only frustration with being pregnant was having to stop my weight loss journey. So my concern about maybe being pregnant now was the same. I really want to get down to 200 and then lower. Being 43, I haven't got the luxury of waiting til then to try for a baby, though. and I know, it may be too late. I had my first at 38. I am so lucky to have him!
So when I got all ready, I took a walk.. with my dog, and OMG it was so hot..
Yeah.. so Nessa started choking and overheating and I had to carry her home from the furthest point away from our house. She was fine after cooling down. Thank goddess she's a toy dog and only weighs like 8 lbs. LOL! I got to thinking about how that felt and how much more than 8 lbs extra I'm still carrying on my body.. and how much I've lost.. (73.. more than NINE times the weight of my little dog.. OMG..)
Then I did another .6 miles for a total of 1.4 miles in 35 minutes in that horrid heat. I almost passed out, though, so later I took Nicholas to Wal-Mart just to get into some central AC and comfort. He was very naughty, though, and it was a real challenge.
I hear fireworks somewhere. I love fireworks and I wish I was there. oh well. We had a lengthy thunderstorm this evening. That was annoying because I needed to grocery shop and I didn't want to go out in that storm.
Oh, my foot is feeling better. On Thurs. night I stepped on a piece of glass and cut my heel. It hurt terribly to walk on it yesterday and had to get my son to his shots at the hospital and some other errands. OUCHIES!! So no exercise besides the errands yesterday. Soaking it with the epsom salt water helped a lot and today I was ok to walk. on it. It was just the heat that was so bad.
Gotta dance tonight sometime.. If you posted a dance party set list or vlog, please comment and let me know so I can find it quickly. Thanks!
Oh yeah, and I did manage to lose 1 lb this week.. This past week of 8 days of solid PMS and stress and minor binging and very little exercise.. 1 lb gone? That's amazing.