Thursday, December 29, 2011
This is my son's school vacation and also vacation for me from work. So, why is it is frustrating? Well, no ME time at all.. And harder than pulling a tooth to get him out the door to take a walk with me! He's not yet five so I can't leave him home.
We finally got our regular internet connection back so the Roku can play Huluplus and Amazon prime (free trial) movies. Now we can see how low-res our old TV set is.. But my son is totally obsessed with his kids' shows on there. I had to stop him after about 4 hrs today. Now he's engaged with pretending his bunk bed is a giant ship with anchor chains he made from loose edges he ripped off an old wool blanket! The dog and I need a walk!
Last night I watched two of the last shows from the latest Biggest Loser series. We saved the finale for tonight. Don't tell me, please! I was impressed that Ramon won the marathon. The weight loss of those men - John, Antone, and Ramon, is very impressive! But without putting your whole life on hold to work out like 6-8 hrs a day, it is hardly typical. I just want to get my 1-2 lbs a week. I thought I'd be further along with my weight loss by now, but I stalled again. I hope to be down to 200 by NEXT New Year's. I'm at 254, so 54 lbs to go to reach that.. I should be able to manage that if I don't LOSE focus again. Keep moving forward!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Merry Christmas, first of all! I hope you and yours had a wonderful holiday! We had a great one with all the joy and magic that having a young child in your home at Christmas can possibly bring! My son is almost 5, which is PERFECT for the age of innocence and yet understanding of the whole Santa experience. You only get a window of a few years of that innocence, so I'm enjoying every minute of it!
We had a bounteous Christmas with help from several of Santa's Helpers (groups and individuals). We had a restful holiday with a nap in the afternoon for all of us and a community potluck Christmas meal at our church. (And I ate very well and had a salad for second course instead of dessert, and then had some, but less dessert.) And we had a magical, exciting, and joyful holiday thanks to my son. ;)
I have been doing very well on food lately and walking almost every day for 1 mile or more. I dropped 1.5 lbs this past week. I may have eaten back almost that much in chocolate today, but probably not quite. Santa left us REALLY GOOD chocolate - Lindt, Terry's (chocolate oranges), Hershey's, Russell Stover, Dove, Godiva. And oh my, but chocolate is one of my big weaknesses. I will have to curtail and ration this out for myself better for the rest of the week. I will try.
I got myself new clothing on a 40% off sale from Lands End last week. I got 2X shirts and they are all pretty baggy on me. Not sure it's worth the shipping to return and get 1X, though. They'll work for this year for the next few months. Hoping they may shrink in the wash somewhat. Also got new bras, as mine were 4+ years old and starting to lose support and get holes. (I also got my husband new clothing for Christmas, too.)
For my gift, my husband got me a Roku2, which is a device that let's you view any shows from your computer on your TV. We don't get cable, but we get HuluPlus and eventually will get Netflix back (we lost a video and I'm worried they'll charge us a lot for it. I found it once and lost it again before we sent it back.) He also got me a new Smart Phone - which is quite nice, but there is an issue with that (long story). My son got me a nice little ring he picked out at a church fair. Happy> ;)
Saturday, December 17, 2011
I received a message from Spirit yesterday evening as I fell asleep, when I woke up in the morning and when I came near to waking up in the middle of the night. I don't know if it was my higher self or my guides or who, but it was a positive spirit, I know. Right before bed I had asked for protection from spirits of the light.. so it was interesting to manifest in this strong message. The message was that I will be happier and feel better when I get healthier and this is the time to get back to it and to focus on my weight loss! My agreement that I would was NOT enough for this Spirit. I was asked, "What exactly will you do - today?"
I answered that I would weigh myself, I would walk with the dog the full walk (1 mile), I would eat healthy, and buy healthy foods when I shopped. I would also plan my dinners better. I said I would do 100 squats, too. And I said I would go back onto SparkPeople and get back into that, as this is where I get my support.
I expected bad news on the scale, as I had not been eating well - too many holiday cookies and doughnuts lately. But.. I was down from 257 to 255.5 (in 3 weeks) so that wasn't terrible considering I pretty much thought I deserved to be up 5 lbs. But I really want to be down to 200, so I have some more work to do.
I did my best to eat healthy, but I forgot I had a mystery shop to do at a fast food place and I had to eat the food as part of the job.. OK, I really only needed to eat one bite, but that wasn't reasonable. I did throw out the majority of the huge order of fries, though. I took them home, and then after grocery shopping the car smelled of fries and I knew they were cold and would not reheat well, so I tossed them. Go me! That was not easy, believe it or not. I have enjoyed them reheated despite them getting greasy or whatever. I did shop healthy - and did not buy ANYTHING that was dessert-like or high fats or high sugars! I got organic fruit bars for my son. I bought a lot of salad fixings to make a huge delicious salad. Oh, well, I got a quart of light eggnog, but that wasn't too bad, and we have yet to open it. I cooked a small chicken for dinner. I only managed 50 squats yesterday, but when I finish this post I am going to get up and do at LEAST 50 more. I didn't get a walk in today. Nicholas is sick with a bad cold and didn't want to go when we got home from the church holiday party. It was the healthiest foods I've ever seen at a holiday party, let alone a kid's holiday party. We had carrots and celery and ants on a log (celery with peanut butter and raisins, and orange smiles, multigrain crackers with cheese, and savory multigrain muffins. Strange that this happened given it was a potluck snack.. but it was good. All the boys still ran wild around the place for awhile, especially mine, so it wasn't just sugar craziness.
Anyhow, I needed this help from Spirit to get back on track, so I am grateful for it. I am working at it.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
I'm up to 257 lbs today, which is up 4.5 lbs since 10/15.. 6 weeks of not paying attention. Sigh. I knew something was wrong when I had a huge bowl of ice cream and watched The Biggest Loser at the same time tonight. Yup. Outright denial of the issue. Pretty obvious.
I do not like my big stomach. I didn't use to have one, though I was a big person. I had a big butt shelf and huge hips, but not a very large stomach. After having a baby, that changed and now I have a big stomach and smaller butt. I hate carrying it in front. I hate carrying all this weight at all. I'm so tired from all of it!
So why did I lose focus? Not 100% sure, but I can say that emotional eating has a lot to do with it and I'm not 100% happy. A lot has been going on for me in my relationship and I am not handling it the best. I am in counseling about this now, but I mean I've just indulged too much in some poor choice foods.. high fat and high sugar stuff. I have to pay better attention and eat more appropriate portions. And need to plan my meals better.
It has been harder to get in exercise due to changing weather - getting colder, snowier, and being sick all of November with first a stomach flu, then a cold, then croup, which became a sinus infection that I'm still not over 100% yet. But almost! So now I'm thinking about getting a gym membership, which I've thought of for months now.. But I have the application for the YMCA and financial aid form. I found out that even on the highest scholarship, I"d still have to pay like $160+ per 6 months, which comes out to a bit more than $25/month. There is another gym in town - Fitness nation, which only charges 14.99/month. The big differences are that the Y requires payment up front for the whole time (I think) , and they have a pool and swim classes for kids and childcare for the time you are working out. So that is helpful.. but I am not sure I can come up with that price of $160 before Christmas or even right after.
Anyhow, I know I need some support so I am coming back and if I put some time into this site then I'll pay attention better.
Check in and say hi if you're still on and reading this. Can you briefly tell me how you're doing or make an update post, please? Thanks!
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