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2-weeks Post-Op

Monday, July 09, 2012

Here I am at work and in better spirits than last week. I think I was still adjusting to this new life of mine.

Two-weeks Post-Op and down 28 pounds.
No nausea (Thank God).
I can see a difference in my face.
I feel stronger.
I can walk without loosing my breath as easy.
I don't sweat *quite* as much.

All in all, good progress for two weeks.

I see my surgeon for the first follow up on Wednesday and hopefully she will be as pleased with my progress.

As well as the nutritionist I see on Thursday morning.

Have a great week everyone!


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SCROSY8 7/24/2012 2:53PM

    hope you recover quickly. emoticon

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JUSTA123 7/14/2012 10:29AM

    Hope you recover quickly!

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SLIMMERJESSE 7/9/2012 11:04AM

    Best wishes for a quick recovery.

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Saturday, July 07, 2012

Well I returned to work this week after being out for a week and a half post surgery. I went in Thursday and Friday. Now I sit at a desk and process bills and payments all day as an accountant so it's not hard work...but I was exhausted both days. I came home thursday night and fell asleep reading around 5:30. I woke up on the couch around 8:30 and climbed into bed and slept til 6am. Went to work and left at 1pm and slept another 14 hours into today.

Since I am fine most of the time and even while exercising in my house, I think its the extreme heat bothering me. This humidity and heat has been a new type of awful. I don't think I remember a summer so warm. I hope we - AND THE REST OF THE COUNTRY - get a break soon. It will help us all.

So until wishes to all of you out there. Keep cool however you can!

And of course have a great weekend!


A New Birthday - Weight Loss & Metabolic Surgery

Tuesday, July 03, 2012

Well after talking down on weight loss surgery for a long time I decided to face the facts and realize it was my only option. Here I am today, July 3rd, 2012, one week post-op. It's been harder than I imagined....And it is a cause of self reflection...

So back in December 2008, when I was miserable at staring at a picture of me all pudgy faced and oily, I decided to take a chance and see if I could do "it". See if I could loose a couple of pounds. A walk around the block here, a few lean cuisines there...Wow a month later I lost 30 lbs. I kicked it up a notch with a Jillian Michaels video and starting cooking at home from scratch. Increased my walk around the block to a 2 mile trek over my hilly terrain. And In August 2009, I hit 70 lbs gone. A slide back of 20 lbs and a move that made me loose my hilly terrain forced me to join a local gym in November. I worked with a trainer and hit a 100 pound GONE mark in June 2010. Between June and October, I went down only 12 pounds on the scale but lost almost 2 sizes in my clothes. I was healthier than I had even been in my life.

It was then that the long buried demons in my psyche - beyond those I had vanquished - came up to bite me in the behind. The constant attention from people, the constant praise. It was too much for my closeted personality to accept. The men who pursued me. The women who asked "how did you do it?" and not believe me when i told them. My family telling me I was so strong for doing what they never could. The surreal feeling of looking into the mirror at myself and NOT recognizing me. Seeing someone ELSE.

MOST IMPORTANTLY my COMPLACENCY in allowing my old habits to come back. My years of good fortune and blessings seemed to come to an abrupt end...
2007 - managing to break away from my home and really find my footing as an independent woman (this was a huge battle)
2008 - quitting smoking and NEVER looking back
2009 - first steps to a healthier life
2010 - making conscience decisions to change my body and health

Upon reflection, the slide I took in early 2011 was much needed for my mental state of health. I worked with a hypnotherapist and a counselor to really look inside myself. To truly address why I self-sabotogued. To understand why I made the decisions I made. By October 2011 I had really come to terms with myself and WHO I had become. Accepted myself for all my faults, all my mistakes and how to avoid those mistakes when they presented themselves. So....
2011 - preparing my mental health and finding HAPPINESS inside ME.
** Also gaining back all of the 112 pounds I had lost....

In November 2011, I noticed severe swelling in my legs and ankles. So much so that the skin seemed to crack. I could barely breathe walking across my apartment. My joints ached, my knees cracked, my chest hurt. I called my doctor and she ran a bunch of tests. Everything was normal. It was then, at Christmas, looking over pictures of the last 5 years that it clicked. I was like this when I was 370 pounds at the end of 2008. I had the same aches and pains, the same shortness of breath, the same chest pain. I just didn't notice it as much because I had nothing to compare it to. I had never been thin, I was used to the pain. This time though, I had lost weight and I KNEW that this was uncomfortable and this was NOT how my body should be.

2012 rang in with me starting over - doing all the things I had done before. But this time, it made no difference. My body bounced within 10 pounds and would not go any further. I finally broke down and met a weigh loss doctor. Upon meeting her, I told her I had done it the "right" way before and I didn't believe in surgery. She told me she would change my mind. (This seemed impossible - and for anyone who really knows me knows once I am set on something I rarely change my mind.) She talked to me. I met with other women who were in the same place as me. Met women who had been in my position and had surgery. Met success stories and not-so-successful stories. After 3 months, I was convinced this was the path I needed to take. For my health. For my peace of mind. For my future. Because whether or not I wanted to admit it - staying at 370 at 33 years old was not healthy and with the heart disease and diabetes that run in my family I would be a time bomb.

Thankfully, the surgeon had convinced me to take tests and start the process even though I was not fully sure it was my path. Her logic at the time was sound, it would cut down the wait time the insurance companies required if I did decide to have the surgery. By May we submitted to the insurance company and had an approval. And after all my experience and research and prayer - I felt this was the path I had been meant to take. I needed the successes AND the failures of the last 5 years - hell, the last 33 years - to see me through this next chapter of my life. If I had never done the weight loss the first time, I would not believe I could do it now. In the same respect, If I had fallen so spectacularly I would never be prepared for the changes in people around me or even the changes in me seeing the "new" me in the mirror.

I was given the surgical date of June 25th, 2012. And with the support of family, friends and all of my co-workers I was prepared. My final weigh in was 351 pounds. While working out with a friend the week before surgery, I said, "I wish the surgical date could be the 29th, not because I am scared but that I would have wanted to have both my birthdays at six month intervals. The day the Lord saw fit to bring me into the world, December 29th. And the day He, Fate, Destiny, what-have-you saw fit to allow me to truly take my life in my hands and become the person I was meant to be." My friend who is a spiritual woman - both in a religious and non-religious way - smiled at me and actually misted up on me.

So here is to my second birthday, June 25, 2012. The day I took my life into my own hands for the better. The day I became who I was meant to be. After all the ups and downs, I came out STRONGER and more ACCEPTING of myself than I had ever before.

Heck, I'm even 22 pounds lighter already...

** If you read this all the way through, GOLD STAR to you and thanks for listening to my rambling thoughts :-)

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BAYBELIEVER 7/4/2012 11:15PM

    Wonderful blog. Yours is the first that involves weight loss surgery that I have ever wanted to hear..."the rest of the story." So I hope it is okay if I add you as a friend. Good luck!

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PINK-PEONY 7/4/2012 4:06PM

    What an exciting chapter of your life is beginning to unfold. Best wishes!


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SLIMMERJESSE 7/4/2012 12:37PM

    Wonderful blog. Congrats on all of your past successes and best wishes on this continued path of better health.

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LJCANNON 7/4/2012 12:34PM

    emoticon emoticonCongratulations and Thank You for sharing your Journey!!

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DEBPRE16 7/4/2012 12:20PM

    Good for you taking care of yourself. I wish you the best.

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MAMADWARF 7/4/2012 10:51AM

    That is a truly amazing story. Thank you for being so honest and sharing it with everyone. I bet there is not one person here who hasn't considered the option. I wish you success, health and happiness!

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JERZGURL_NAN 7/4/2012 10:18AM

    I am so happy for you - truly - health is a priority and at 60 I have a lifetime of battling the weight game. Yes, I was there at 33 too and happy that you are saying NO to this pattern now.

Let me share a concern I have for myself that sounds like you may have to work on it too. I finally realize that there is a point where all the oohhs and ahhhs stop. The special attention that makes me feel special and pretty and successful is going to end. It hit me that this is the praise that keeps me going to goal but then at some point I don't get any attention anymore. I never realized that the praise is a big part of my motivation. SO I am working NOW or finding my motivavtion to maintain.

Just a thought. But Again - CONGRATULATIONS on making really hard decisions and hang in there - it's a lifetime journey with continual ups and downs.

Happy July 4th!!

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    I am happy you are back and you did what is right for you! Welcome back and here is too a road to better health. Hugs.

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STEPH-KNEE 7/4/2012 5:50AM

    I'm glad you are recovering well and I wish all the success on this journey. :D

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CHEROKEE1946 7/3/2012 10:19PM

    Good Luck

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Swollen ankles & feet

Monday, November 07, 2011

So lately I've been overtired, even when not busy. I've been dizzy. Ive had trouble breathing.

Then this weekend I went home for my grandmothers 80 th birthday. During my drive up my feet started to swell to the point where they were twice normal, ankles too. My joints hurt. And even after all Saturday and all Sunday and even today they're still two sizes bigger than normal. My legs have been extra warm. They're developing red patches. And just tonight I noticed that they're actually looking bruised. I don't know what to think. I don't know what's wrong.

Of course a web search revealed possibilities. Kidney failure. Liver disease. And scariest of all heart failure. I have to call the doctor in the morning and try to make appointment so we can figure out what is going on. Wish me luck.

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CULAINA 11/7/2011 7:16PM

    don't panic honey!

i get a lot of those symptoms when i drive a long way so it could be symptoms of exhaustion as well as any of the more serious things.

you know your body. if you're worried, get yourself to a hospital. if you're concerned and it can wait until morning, call the doc first thing. take care and let us know how you get on xx

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NIAGCHRIS246 11/7/2011 7:03PM

  Angel, I think you should go to a walk in clinic or emergency room immediately. Don't wait for morning. With your leg swelling, warmth, and trouble breathing I think you are in congestive heart failure. I have a friend who live with chf, it is not a death sentence but you need to seek treatment right now.

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Shipping trip - scale advice

Monday, October 17, 2011

Oh happy joy - Mondays are my official weigh in days. I am also an extreme creature of habit so I was mightily disappointed this morning when my scale decided it didn't want to weigh me today.

emoticon I need my Monday weigh in the start the week right!

I am thinking it needs a replacement as it is 3 years old. So no the question is - do I get a regular scale like I had or one of those new fangled ones with all the electronic gadgets/add-ons?


On a side note: Hope everyone have a great week.

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MOSTMOM1 10/31/2011 8:17AM

    I use my Wii Fit balance board...

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CULAINA 10/18/2011 3:42PM

    I have a digital scale but the word out there is that the fancy ones that measure parts of pounds are very popular. X

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CATANTIGO 10/17/2011 9:24AM

    The new fangled scales are not very accurate at measuring things like body fat, so only pay for them if you really want them. Good luck on finding the right one, and have a wonderful day. Keep on sparkin'!

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