Sunday, January 04, 2009
Went to see the movie, OMG I laughed & cried & went home & thanked Sasha for not destroying my house...LOL...I also hugged her a little bit extra because this movie made me realize I will not have her forever.
I visited the Humane Society last week & have been back there several times to visit & observe a dog I fell for online. His name is Max and today I filled out the adoption papers for him. I will turn it in on Monday & possibly, hopefully have him join my little family circle as my walking companion! He is gorgeous (to me) & I hope when we do a "Meet & Greet" everything will work out just fine & Ms Sasha will approve of him. As much as I love Sasha, her idea of going for a walk is to stroll for about 1/2 mile (at the most) & then hitch a ride back home, meaning me carrying her LOL
I took a break from exercise, but will have my scheduled weight work out tomorrow. All in all it was a take it easy, lounge around the house in my PJ's until the afternoon kinda day. I did nothing but cruised the net, visited the SP site off & on...and watched LMN! Very relaxing, very much needed!
Saturday, January 03, 2009
Today I got a bit frustrated with myself because my thoughts started to wander to those "Could have, Should have, Would have" moments & I could feel myself getting all bumped out & sad about it, so, I decided to stop this "Memory Lane" moment in it's track.
I changed clothes & jumped on the treadmill! Yeah...let's work this out walking!
I stayed on there for freakin 60 continuous minutes I varied the speed (2.0 - 3.0), the incline (1 - 3%) & just kept going, I guess watching TV helped also! I think I sweat all my frustration, aggression & sadness out, because right now I feel pretty darn good about myself & I am thinking that I actually can do this, new life, new body, new health...new me!
Thursday, January 01, 2009
New year, new day, new attitude...I'm trying, but it's hard. I think it's the hardest thing I ever had to do. To let go of yesterday & go on with today.., by myself! But, I know I have to, I have to go through the pain, not around it & I will...in baby steps & one day at a time. Changed a few things today, including my sign on my posts, to reflect & reinforce a different attitude. If you can envision it, you can achieve it, right? Right...
Today was also my first day back weight training! I used to love working with free weights (years ago), another baby step towards a healthier new lifestyle
Thursday, January 01, 2009
The year 08 was the happiest, yet the saddest year for me.I experienced incredible joy, yet also incredible pain, the highest high & the lowest low. I wish I would have never experienced it, yet I am thankful I did. I wish I could erase it out of my mind forever, yet I want to keep it close to my heart... forever!
I know I have to close this door, actually slam this door shut... yet I still feel emotionally unable to do so. It feels like, if I close this door, if I let go of hope, if I stop waiting, it will erase everything good about this year, everything that meant the world to me will be officially gone.
I don't think I ever hurt like that before
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