Thursday, April 29, 2010
I am addicted to eating. I love to eat, it makes me happy for a few minutes and then makes me depressed when I eat too much. I obsess over food and I eat compulsively. I know it's wrong and yet I can't stop. It is killing me and yet I can't control it.
Sound familiar? Sounds to me like any other addict...alcohol, drugs, even nicotine addicts. All of those addictions can kill you. The difference is a food addict can't stop eating.
Imagine if an alcoholic had to have three drinks a day, but no more. Wouldn't that make it much harder to beat that addiction. Or what if a drug addict had to shoot up every day, but only once no matter how bad their cravings were or how bad it made them feel. That's not going to help them recover.
I have to eat. Not eating is not an option. So the constant fight is not to "quit" but to control. I quit smoking. It wasn't easy, but now I can't even imagine smoking another cigarette. I didn't have to buy cigarettes, I didn't have to be with other people that were smoking and I didn't have to go anywhere that people were smoking...that made it easier to avoid. I fought my own impulses and cravings but didn't have to be continually tempted.
Food is everywhere. Everyone eats, it's all over TV all the time. I have to buy groceries, I have to feed my family and I have to eat. So why can't I just eat what my body needs and stop? That's what I have to figure out. How do you fight an addiction that you can't quit?
If I figure it out, I will let you know....