Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Well, this has been a rough day.
For the first time since I started really working on my diet and health issues, I have had a backslide.
When I started tracking my food in November, I promised myself that every day I would burn more calories than I ate. Even if I went over my calorie allowance for the day I would make sure that, between my BMR and exercise, I would still have a deficit by the time I crawled into bed for the night.
Well, this is the first time since Thanksgiving Day that I haven't ended the day with a caloric deficit. Seriously. I survived Christmas and a Hawaiian vacation without breaking my promise--and I wasn't depriving myself, either. I totally indulged in treats and yumminess, and made sure I enjoyed every bite. No guilt!
But today... oy. For some reason, I ate pretty much everything that got in my way today. Afternoon snacks at my desk, hot cocoa, a baguette the size of my thigh for lunch, it just went on and on. The killer though, was the tortilla chips. I've had a Costco (that is to say, ginormous) bag of tortilla chips sitting on the top of the fridge, unopened, for about 6 weeks. My sweetie opened it over the weekend, and BAM! It was suddenly irresistible! 1400 calories later, and nothing to show for it. They're not even all that yummy.
So here's how I rallied: At about 8:30 p.m., I also realized that I had zero minutes of exercise today. Mind you, it's like the coldest night of the winter so far, with a plummeting temp of 9 degrees and a bitter, bitter wind (yeah Minneapolis!). But I bargained for 10 minutes. Just 10 minutes to move myself and do what I could with the day as I had created it. Knowing full well I couldn't burn off the chips, I still plugged in the tunes and went for a walk.
I lasted for 20 minutes. OMG it's cold out there. :)
But I gotta say, that I felt 100% better when I got home. Better enough to know that this is only one day, and that there will be more like it. Better enough to pat myself on the back for losing 25 pounds so far. Better enough to smile as I threw the rest of the chips in the trash.
Tomorrow is another day, and another chance to do it right. Wish me luck. If I don't need it tomorrow, I'll store it up for another day when I do!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Okay, I've never blogged about anything, anywhere, but there's a first time for everything, I'm told. In the spirit of giving thanks, I wanted to share my recent success.
I had my annual physical this week--an event that I never look forward to, but this year in particular I was dreading it. My blood glucose levels have been creeping steadily up, up, up for the past few years, and last year my doctor threw down the gauntlet. She gave me six months (I cheated and made it 12) to lose 30 pounds or she was going to declare me diabetic.
I was terrified. Images of my father, who died from complications of heart disease and diabetes, haunted me. I knew my doctor was right, but I had a difficult time getting myself to do the work.
This August, I had the good fortune to travel to Beijing, China (incredible place, highly recommend it). I walked pretty much everywhere for 10 days straight. When I got home, I found that I had lost about 10 pounds. I knew that I had to keep going with weight loss, and it seemed a shame to waste this great start. So I didn't.
Starting at 300 in August, I weighed in at the doctor's office on December 20 (really, really bad time of year for a physical, by the way) at 278.9 lbs. Significantly trimmer, but also significantly short of Doc's 30-pound ultimatum, I was worried that it wouldn't be enough.
Well, I got my labs in the mail today. Blood glucose, cholesterol and triglycerides--all of which had been too high last year--are all in the normal range! Granted, they're on the high end of normal, but NORMAL! Woot!
I can't really express how relieved I am. (Seriously. I mean, the first thing I did was sit down and have a good cry.) I can, however, take a stab at expressing my gratitude to SP, and to the people here who have been so encouraging. I know that the tools and interactions I have had at this site are playing a huge role in this success.
Thank you. For everything.
Best. Christmas. Present. Ever.
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