Stupid Scale

Monday, January 26, 2009

I was excited this morning because I had lost another pound...then I hopped online to log my weight & realized I hadn't logged my weight since the beginning of December and I've actually gained a pound since then. In reality, I've gained, lost, gained, lost, etc.

That's when I realized that I really need to just step away from the scale and not place so much importance on what it says. Here's the reality:

1) I'm working out more consistently than ever
2) I'm eating healthier foods & making better choices, even when I'm stressed out
3) I've lost 3 inches from my waist & several from my hips & bust
4) I am working towards becoming a more emotionally healthy person

The scale does not define me! It goes in the closet when I get home today.

  

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

FLYINGTOFREEDOM 2/3/2009 10:04AM

Yep, I've found that I weigh once a week for my challenges only. I haven't gained, but I haven't lost either, but it is learning to live in the body I have after losing 52lbs that is the prize. I'm happy with this weight right now, and when I'm ready, I know that I will keep on losing again. Alethea Report Inappropriate Comment

BARBIEOFBORG 1/26/2009 5:17PM

Good going. The working out builds muscle so even if you WEIGH the same you are still losing FAT!! clothes fitting is the best judge!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Maybe I Needed a Good Cry

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

After my little mini-breakdown on Monday, I seem to be actually feeling better. Maybe I really did need to just have a good cry and get on with life. If that's all it takes I might just cry more often!

  

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FLYINGTOFREEDOM 1/22/2009 11:33AM

I had a mini breakdown on Monday as well? Something in the air perhaps? I do feel much better just crying it out and talking to someone about it. Hope things get better for you. Alethea Report Inappropriate Comment

NOWEAPON 1/21/2009 2:48PM

YOU GO FOR IT. THEY ARE YOUR TEARS. JUST REMEMBER TO ACCENTUATE THE POSITIVE, KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND A SMILE ON YOUR FACE. Report Inappropriate Comment

Personal Training Breakdown

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I have always had really good sessions with my trainer. I meet with Chris once a week and usually leave feeling strong, confident, and amazed at what he was able to help me accomplish. Not this week. He pushed me really hard...that's nothing new. But for some reason I had a mental road block and basically fell apart. I held it together during our session, but he knew I wasn't myself. Once I left the Y, I barely made it to my car before I started bawling. It was kinda cathartic, but I just don't understand it. My emotions are all of the place these days, but most often they hover between angry or defeated. I will never be successful until I can identify the cause of my mood swings and fix it. I have an appointment with the gyno next week and am hoping she can help me.

The positive note is that after I had my cry session, I took a deep breath & drove home & had a nice, healthy sandwich for dinner. If this had been two years ago, I probably would have stopped at the McDonald's I drive by and stufffed my face.

  

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PRIMALMICHAEL 1/20/2009 8:03PM

I admire your courage in facing this challenge - after such a hard time you still made good choices. That is wonderful! Keep up the good work! Report Inappropriate Comment

I hate the scale

Monday, January 19, 2009

I have been in such a funk lately and I don't like it. I was doing well, working out 4 or 5 days a week and eating right (for the most part), but I've let myself get into a funk and I can't seem to fix it. I think part of it is that I had been working really hard, but really haven't lost much weight. I have lost inches...and that's something. But getting on the scale and seeing it move 1/2 lb is depressing.

I think I'm going to put the scale in the closet and ignore it for a month. I need to work hard and focus on how my clothes fit & how I feel instead of the scale.

So that's step one. Step two is to not let myself get derailed when I'm having a bad day. Exercise makes me feel better, so I need to just do that instead of eating junk when things aren't going my way.

Step three is to develop a more positive attitude so that things won't get me down so much. I've been wallowing lately in self-pity and that's just not productive. So, I need to stop wallowing and focus on the positive.

I can do this!

  

Looking forward to going to the gym...who me?

Monday, December 01, 2008

I can't believe I am actually looking forward to working out with my trainer today. I have never enjoyed exercise, but I feel a sense of accomplishment when I finished a tough session with my trainer or a good aerobics class. I don't think I've actually every been looking forward to working out before. This has got to be some kind of milestone! Of course, I am in need of a good work out after the 3 day Thanksgiving feast I just had.