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Moderation....

Thursday, March 28, 2013

This is not my strong area. An all or nothing girl. Black or white. Perfection or failure. Starting today I will have one small treat daily. I will sit and enjoy it after dinner. And be mindful while I'm eating it. This goes against everything I believe meaning I would usually deprive myself or eat a cake. Time to change.

  
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Escape and Self Sabotage

Sunday, March 17, 2013

So a three day hiatus from Sparkpeople and 5 pounds up. That's alot of damage in three days. What I needed on Wednesday night was a rest - an escape. Not from taking care of myself but from the other stuff. The homework, the cooking, the rearranging of schedules, the constant going. And my go to has always been food. I knew I was doing it and tried to stop myself but by that point I didn't care. And there definitely was some self sabotage in there as I had recently lost my first ten pounds. I need to not let myself get too tired. Let some stuff go. Say no and stop volunteering for things for just awhile. And stop connecting my weight loss journey with every other issue in my life - so if I'm annoyed or stressed over one thing then I don't start eating and sitting in front of the TV. I did so yesterday - the whole day- and I don't feel rested.
Weighed myself this morning. Checked in with Spark Coach. Going to exercise and church. Getting on the path. I'm already on it, in fact.

  
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CDCSMITH2013 3/17/2013 10:53AM

    It's definately not east to prioritize andmake sure you're not gettign too overwhelmed. Glad you're focused on being back on track.

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HAPPYMENOW58 3/17/2013 9:40AM

    Good for you!! You are right back on track! happy sparking!!!

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What will happen after I lose the weight?

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

What's my motivation behind losing weight? the spark coach asked this morning. Well that's easy, I thought. I want to feel good physically and not feel so ashamed at how I've let myself go. The second part of that sentence is hard to see in writing. It's admitting to myself ( and maybe others) how much of what others think about me drives my actions. And then spark coach asked the question above.

What a question. This quest for weight loss has been with me for as long as I can remember. And somewhere in the back of my mind I've imagined nirvana at the end of the quest. But guess what? I'll still be a full time working mother of two school aged children running wife and nurse who never seems to have enough time or energy. Wait I WILL HAVE MORE ENERGY. In fact I already do. And my attitude is better. And my confidence will overflow. And maybe I'll stop comparing myself to others!

I was trying to put together one of those motivational collages but haven't done it yet. Didn't see any pictures until the other day. It was a sports ad and the lady in it had on a one piece bathing suit and was doing something sportish. She had a muscular body and it wasn't that so much as her face. She looked like a serene warrior. That's what I want to be. And although I will be fighting against school project deadlines and the cost of gas and food and my own self image... I WILL be kickin ass.

  
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KA_JUN 3/5/2013 3:42PM

    "Serene warrior". Yeah, that's definitely something to aspire to, you can achieve your goals! emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 3/5/2013 10:40AM

    Yes, you will be kicking ass - that's the best part about getting to goal :)

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ANGIEN9 3/5/2013 9:23AM

    What a great attitude!! emoticon emoticon together!! emoticon

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TERRIPAL1 3/5/2013 7:59AM

    Loved your blog and yes you will! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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