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The Downside of Losing Weight

Sunday, July 26, 2009

One of the reasons I originally packed on the pounds was some negative relationships (nuff said) that I had with the opposite sex. The extra weight made me feel like I was protecting myself from the more predatory males out there. It made me feel safe. Let's call a spade a spade: it made me feel unattractive.

Becoming comfortable with who I am and feeling safe with my husband has been as much a part of this process as has been calorie counting. In fact, it was the years of preparation and security building within my marriage which has made my weight loss possible at all.

Now, I am getting glances again. I am getting beyond glances again. I am getting "I could hit that" comments while I am out for a walk with my two young children. It scares me. It makes me want to run and hide. It makes me want to gain weight again.

I want to be healthy. I want to look good too. How do I balance looking good and unwarranted attention? As easy as it would be to just gain weight again and not deal with it, I would instead like to figure this problem out. Why? So when Evie grows up she will never have to hide...ever.

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HBOYCE 7/28/2009 11:12AM

    You are a beautiful person inside and out, people tend to gravitate toward that. Please don't feel that you need to hide who you are behind weight. Embrace the new you, be proud of who you are. I've struggled with the same issues time and again, but when I had my girls, I realized I needed to change my thinking. Some people are ridiculous with their comments and actions towards women. All you can do is ignore them (which I know is VERY hard). Don't base your self worth on what others say or do ... do what you want/need to do, regardless of the idiots out there.

Good luck with everything! I'm sure you'll make the right decision. emoticon

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Below My Original Goal

Friday, July 24, 2009

When I started my weight loss journey, I hoped and I prayed that I would someday get to the goal weight of 146 pounds. Today I weighed in at 145 pounds. 1 pounds below my original goal. Of course a few weeks ago, I realized that I did not have to sell myself and my goals short and that I could achieve whatever my heart desired, so I changed my goal weight. That being said, I am still very thrilled to be below by original goal weight. It has been an exciting adventure. It is not over yet. It never will be and I am OK with that.

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T2TAMMY 7/27/2009 3:57PM

    Can I just say congratulations!!! That's awensome!!

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PYNNER 7/24/2009 11:36PM

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You should be very proud of yourself, you did AMAZING!!

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Monday, April 06, 2009

Someone at work told me I am an inspiration. Me? Really? I am a children's pastor at a pretty large church with a school. I know lots of my fellow employees and church members are asking me what I am doing (I always tell them about Sparkpeople). I just hadn't thought of that as inspirational. I am humbled at the thought that me going from obese to "normal" would impact the life of anyone else.

But then I thought, I really am proud of the journey I am on. I am proud of where I have been and where I am going. I know that I will get to my goal weight. The reason I know that is because I believe in myself and I know that I will not give up. I realized that I inspire myself. Every day that I make good food and fitness choices, I am sculpting not only my body, but also who I want to be...who I am.


Tell Everyone!

Thursday, April 02, 2009

I know that diet, weight loss, body image - all these things are very personal. Many times we are tempted to loss weight on our own, private journey. I encourage you to choose differently. TELL EVERYONE!

Because everyone in my world knows I am trying to lose weight, they keep me accountable, they encourage me and they even find "treats" for us all - even me - to enjoy.

Two instances where this has been a great asset come to mind.

1. I went to a food show for work and my co-workers didn't pressure me to try things that were unhealthy. In fact, they pointed out the fresh fruit and healthy eating sections. BTW, the sugar free oreo was very good.

2. My co-workers and I love Sonic. We especially love Happy Hour when all of the drinks are half price. I have been enjoying happy hour too, but I get Sprite Zero with a flavor shot. This is much better on the calories than the fruit slushes of the past. Now, most of my co-workers also get Sprite Zero with a flavor shots - we are getting healthier together!

All of these things, and the many others, I would not have in my life if my weight loss was my little secret. The more people I tell, the more support I have and the more successful my journey will be!

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GOODGETNBETR 4/5/2009 11:31PM

    Awesome that your coworkers heeded your battle cry and are coming to your aid! Keep up the great work. emoticon

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HEIDISMOM2 4/3/2009 11:44AM

  I love the strawberry fruit slushie . What flavor shot do you have with the sprite? Great idea , I hadn't thought of that for a treat.

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MNSCHAAF 4/2/2009 7:51PM

    What a great insight!

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Thursday, March 26, 2009

The wii fit finally calls me normal! I am so excited about this! When I began this journey last July, the wii fit called me obese. Last September I went to "overweight" and I have gradually been easing my way down the scale until this morning when I became "normal".

In an ironic turn of events, I had the sound turned completely down on my TV and would have missed the wii fit proclamation if not for my daughter. My almost one year old little girl was playing with the remote and turned up the volume just as my "normal" weight was being announced.

I have some more weight to lose to reach my goal weight, but for today, my mii and I are celebrating this milestone.

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CMUCHIP98 3/26/2009 8:15PM

    Congrats! That is so exciting. I can not wait for my wii to announce nurmal on mine :c )
Keep up the great job you are so close to your goal!

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GOODGETNBETR 3/26/2009 4:45PM

    Congrats! Your hard work has paved the way for a new celebration. Savor the moment.
“How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being.” - Oscar Wilde

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AWOLF24 3/26/2009 11:35AM

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That's fantastic!

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DLR430 3/26/2009 11:22AM

    Congrats!!! emoticon That must be a wonderful feeling - I am waiting for that day on my wii. Keep up the good work!!!

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RUTHIEBEAR 3/26/2009 10:05AM

    emoticon emoticon I celebrate this with you! Keep up the great work!
Ruthie emoticon

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MROSE721 3/26/2009 9:21AM

  thank you for the encouragement, i have the wii fit board and it calls me obese too, my bmi is39, supposed to be round 22 for good health, congratulations, i thought my wii was stuck, so i guess not, u have give me something to look forward to, my wii told me i was a couch potato, i need to keep working at it emoticon

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MNSCHAAF 3/26/2009 9:13AM

    Congratulations Amy! I'm so happy for you!

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