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Started the Day Off Right

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

It is about decisions. Today I decided to get up and jog. I figured I could do 1 mile but ended up doing 3 miles without stopping. It took an hour but it was so worth it. When it got hard I started to say I am young, fit and healthy. I ended up changing it to I am strong, Fit and Healthy because really that is what I want to be and that was more about what jogging is about. So this year is dedicated to being STRONG, FIT AND HEALTHY.

  


Another Year and I am Over It

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

So I again had a fight with my son because I expect him to pay rent and he says that it is unfair to have to give up so much of his paycheck. I told him that as I do not see him moving forward in his life that this is not an option and if he does not like it the door is right there. He fought with me for an hour than announced he was going to bed. I realized that although the year has been stressful for me and that the men in my life are falling apart I am moving forward in my job in my education and now in my health.

One thing that I have noticed is that I am sooooo very lonely. I have no social life at all. I have no friends locally and the men do not go out or have friends. Part of the reason is that I am given such a hard time when I do go out and part is because of my old beliefs that a wife and mother is supposed to be there. WELL I am Done.

I declare I am over this belief and any time I catch myself getting caught up in those beliefs I will interrupt them and than move on.

So I need to declutter not just my house which is overrun with stuff but also to declutter those things in my life that just art not working anymore. These old beliefs that I am an old fat woman, that I am ugly, that my job is to take care of others so they will love me. I cannot live and die like this anymore.

  
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JOHNMARTINMILES 12/31/2013 10:18AM

    AS WE BID A FOND FAREWELL TO 2013 AND PREPARE TO EMBARK ON OUR NEXT TRIP AROUND THE SUN ABOARD STARSHIP 2014,

MAKE TODAY THE GEATEST DAY OF YOUR LIFE

emoticon UNTIL TOMORROW!

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Another day and I did something for me

Saturday, December 28, 2013

I went to the bootcamp class this morning and I have to admit that I feel better although my knees are not the happiest with me.

I also have a plan for the baby bird. We will see what happens and I am not going to eat over his behavior.

  
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BROCCOLI13 12/31/2013 7:02AM

    emoticon Small steps will lead you on the way to meeting your goals. Best of luck to you!!!

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So how do you get teh baby bird to leave the nest

Friday, December 27, 2013

My son is probably the most argumentative, negative person on the face of the earth. He also believes because I gave birth to him I should have to support him for the rest of my life. So today I started the day today with him arguing and negativity. The first thing I thought about is what I can eat. So here I am typing instead. I share it rather than eat my anger and frustration and I cannot deal with him. He is verbally abusive and he does not seem to realize it.

  
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AMYCANTTYPE 12/27/2013 10:28AM

    He is 21 and has a part time job but refuses to pay rent. He also does not drive and refuses to learn to drive. I am not understanding this entitlement mentality.

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MCCC75 12/27/2013 10:04AM

    Good morning AMYCANTTYPE ---
How old is your son? I am thinking he is a 20 something. I have two children that are currently living at home -- my daughter will be 24 next Monday and graduated from college a year ago. She got a job in March and is saving some to move out next year. She will start paying me rent in March but I did give her a year to save as much as she could. My other child, a son, is 21 and just graduated from college and is looking for work before going to graduate school next Fall. I won't make him pay rent right now but when he gets a job he is expected to pay for his car insurance, gas, cell phone and also to do work around the house.

Is your son working? If so, are you charging him rent to live with you? If not, I think that is the first step. I also have an agreement I had my kids sign in terms of what I expected of them as adults living with me and their responsibilities. If they don't like it, they can move out sooner! I wish you the best. You don't have to support him anymore. But if you haven't set up these understandings and rules with him, he might think he can do what he wants. emoticon

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Goals for a New Year

Thursday, December 26, 2013

I have moved nowhere this year in my physical goals but I have in my education and in my professional life. What did I learn? That on your death bed work will not be what you want o be known for. However in the case of my current job of teaching a college program at a technical college I know that I am changing many peoples lives including the students and the patients they will help.

Now I need to look at living my life. My son is 21 and has not moved out or even learned to drive yet so I know he will try to continue to drain me. My husband is sick and he will also continue to drain me. I just have to realize that really need to say if I am in the house is it changing anything and the answer is no except to feed my own depression.

So now for the goals.
1 I will go to the gym at least 3 x a week and jog in the morning at least 3 times a week.
2 I will listen to at least 1 audiobook a month to help me to stay motivated. They need to be something that helps me to educate myself on taking care of me.
3 I will lose at least 20% body fat this year
4. I will go out socially at least 1 time a month.

  
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