I CAVED!!! stupid stress-eating

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

It is 4:30pm. Eating out tonight in 3 hours, but I've already consumed over my max calories for today. The tupperware of hershey's... it is nearly gone...because of ME! I was hungry after my healthy lunch, so I had an early snack - plain nonfat yogurt and half a serving of granola bar. But then, I think I'm just stressing and feeling antsy about lab - I have to find a research article to present next week - which I'm still in the process of choosing.... and the stress of me being lazy and NOT planning out my experiments...when I know I need to be doing it.... yeah. that finally caught up - with I think, my body going "why aren't you putting as much food in me like before?!?" - so I had JUST ONE piece of chocolate... but then, I remembered how YUMMY and GOOD chocolate tastes, and I went back for another, then another, and another..... and now, wow, my stomach is super full (cuz it made me thirsty and I drank tons of water)... I don't like this bulging stomach feeling. Must remember this, and.... yeah. AND!!! GAH! I had a full serving of granola on top of that..so I just had about 800 cals in snacks . That is like, two meals.

I really need to learn to better concentrate/focus, and deal with my antsiness/stress in a more productive way -- i.e. not turning to FOOD! guhhhhhh.

But, I am not going to be too hard on myself. Because, this is how I ate "normally" up until I started getting serious with SP...sooo.... I will just consider this a MINOR slipup.... Usually, I would decide that the day has gone to waste, so I might as well keep eating and eating, but no. I slipped up bad on snacks today, but I will try to eat in moderation for dinner. and tomorrow is a new day, and I'll start off my day with a nice run, and get back on track.

so OK - I am still going to eat dinner tonight, but I will not eat until I am STUFFED! and absolutely, NO DRINKS! just iced tea or water. I promise.

Hm, maybe I will go home a little early to do another taebo workout before dinner....

  

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JCMCDONALD 5/2/2007 4:31AM

it's ok, like u said minor slip up, day is over tomorrow is a new day. We all go thru this and the inportant thing to remember is that you noticed it, talked about it and now move on from it, don;t get to down on urself for it, it was one day and it is over! u can do it! Report Inappropriate Comment

welcome to appleland

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

I bought a 6pack of apples at the store today during my lunch break. and now i have them laid about my desk. people in japan don't seem to eat that many fruits, and they definitely don't munch on whole apples.. they always peel and cut them. so it's so fun to be the "whole apple eater." today, i ate my apple first before lunch, and that made me a little full. then, had oatmeal...and now, my tummy is satisfied even though i was feeling very hungry before! yay!

tomorrow night we're going out to dinner with some alumni that are visiting - and it'll most likely be an all you can eat, all you can drink type place. so to prepare for that, i will try to eat super healthy for the rest of the day, and tomorrow, oatmeal and apple for lunch as well. AND, i'm not going to get any drinks... just water or tea. NOW, i've recorded this here, so i really can't slipup!

all right, time to be productive at school!

  

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ELAINOVA 5/2/2007 12:40AM

Hey Angie - I actually keep apples at my desk too - and carrot sticks are another favorite. Sorry I haven't checked in sooner... Today has been horrible. I wasnt' able to get my workout in again and even though I dont' think I went over my calorie limit I didnt' eat a lot of healthy and well rounded foods. Trying to keep up a diet when you have no time and no energy is horrible. I simply wish there were more hours in the day. Congrats to you for staying on track all week - I'm going to work really hard to try and get a workout in tomorrow. For now I'm hitting the sack and trying to forget today. Best! Report Inappropriate Comment

Window shopping workout

Monday, April 30, 2007

Today was a holiday, so I slept in and got a solid 8 hours of sleep, then biked about 20 min to a ginormous mall (4 stories?) and went through all the floors. My calves were throbbing by the time I came back. Then I came back home, ate lunch (yes! i resisted all the yummy food court food at the mall! instead, i took an apple with me since i knew i might get hungry, and munched on an apple in the mall instead! woo hooo). Then, I walked to another mall in the city and did some more window shopping. Today, I just wanted to see if I could find any cute dresses or clothes that I can keep in mind as a reward for reaching my goal. Some things I have in mind are.... a cute polo dress from "East Bay (boy?..i forget..)" ~$40.... a really cute halter sundress, but more expensive ~$80. (not sure if i'm ready to fork over that much money...). another cute halter dress/tunic type thing, $45. or, not clothes, and a really cute red bag, ~$25.

oh, and running tank tops! i ran throughout the wintertime in shorts and a long sleeve tech tee, and was still warm... so i don't know how i'm going to survive the humid hot summer days. hopefully i'll be down to 115-120 by june, so i'll get myself a cute running tank!

Anyhow, now I have lots of "rewards" in mind...so now I gotta stay on track, keep on running, and stay tuned into my body so i only eat when i'm hungry, not bored!

  

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ELAINOVA 4/30/2007 9:59PM

I'm so jealous of your day of sleeping and window shopping! Sounds like my Saturday the other day! :) Way to go for thinking ahead and bringing a healthy snack to the mall instead of having to desperately beeline for the pretzel counter at the mall. And I totally think you should reward yourself with something great if you lose 5 pounds in the next two weeks or so. Treats make great motivation! I wanted to have more to eat tonight after dinner that I really wasnt' hungry for and knew I shouldn't eat but I didn't because I knew you'd be there saying "ah ah ah Lainey put that ice cream down!" So today I stayed at the lower end of my calorie intake and got a great workout in. Can't wait to check and see how your'e doing tomorrow! Report Inappropriate Comment

Great day

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Checked out a new church today in Saijo (about a 45min train ride away..) and I really loved it. Really liked the people there (and I had a couple friends there too). Ate lunch with them, then helped them pass out flyers around the neighborhood (so I got lots of walking in today)... then did a little bit of window shopping on my way back home.

So I've been trying to resist buying clothes since well, I don't NEED new clothes, I have plenty here with me, and some of the things I have I rarely wear anyway. But today, I wore a new dress that I had bought in SF during spring break, and since I'm usually just a t-shirt and jeans type of girl, dressing up a little was a lot of fun. and i think i feel better and more confident, which doesn't make me want to reach for junky food. so i think i'll go (window) shopping sometime this week..maybe I can find a cute dress that I'll buy once I reach my goal!!..I think that would be good motivation to help me stay on track with my eating!

Didn't wake up early enough to get my run in in the morning, but I did do it tonight as the sun was setting.... and I had a GREAT 4 mile run (i've been sluggish and dry-mouthed on all my runs this past week)... and I ran along the river running course, and seeing the pink sunset sky reflected on the water was a nice treat. OH! and I chopped my hair off yesterday (to donate to locks of love), so it was nice to run without a long ponytail flapping around.

hrm. just logged in all my food for today and went a little over, but I am so hungry right now. But it's midnight, so I'll just sleep it off. I think a lot of it might be overestimated (i.e. bento box... had no idea how many cal's that was worth...). But it's good to log everything.... that macadamia/cashew butter is really high in cals! good to know.... but... so delicious....

and YES! i am down another pound even after scarfing down so much chocolate and bread earlier in the week. OK, keep this up and I'll be down to 120 in no time! woowoo~

  

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ELAINOVA 4/29/2007 5:51PM

Wow! I'm so glad you're off to a running start (no pun intended!). I bought a brand new dress (that I can't afford) and wore it today and I felt SO GREAT too! It's amazing what confidence will do for keeping your mind of calories and laziness. Don't worry about going over in you calories a little, you got a GREAT 4 mile run in and that's going to help you a lot! I'm still thinking about you and checking in on you so keep up the exercise and conscious calorie counting. Dont' forget to drink a lot of water. That's something I've really been doing a poor job of lately. But I notice i'm less hungry when i'm properly hydrated AND i can workout longer without tiring out. P.S. Try making smootheis at home! Just get some frozen fruit, non fat yogurt and no sugar added juice and ice and go crazy!! Now that it's getting warmer smoothies are a great meal when you want to cool down. Talk to you soon and keep up the great work! Report Inappropriate Comment

Chocolate, I say NO!

Friday, April 27, 2007

Yesterday was a GREAT day. Woke up early (I've been so good about that this week!) and got in an hour of taebo, then went to school...45min early! (7:30am)... Got my monthly report and presentation finished up.... had a little slip of eating PB&J toast AFTER finishing dinner (so dangerous eating at home...cuz the table is in front of the TV!!!). But, I came back to lab after dinner to finish up my slideshow presentation, and the hershey's were on the communal snacking table in the room, staring at me, but everytime I walked by, I said NO NO NO. When I got really tempted, I kept gulping down the water, and went skipping in the hallway (good thing a lot of people had left already... "what are you doing?" .. "skipping away from the chocolate")

Chocolate is still staring at me, but now I know I can say NO. My goal for today (and the rest of the week) - is to not eat ANY of the Hershey's chocolate in lab. I've already eaten about 2 full bars worth of it; my body doesn't need any more of that.