Friday, September 21, 2012
I LOVE it when karma happens. I love to laugh at those who tried and failed. NOT any of us. This is something completely different and nothing to do with losing weight! LOVE IT! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
HAPPINESS IS AWESOME!
*I LOVE MY GOD.
*I LOVE MY KIDS.
*I LOVE MY JOB.
*LOVING LIFE! ESPECIALLY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!
Thursday, September 20, 2012
I know, the title sounds harsh but I have to do what is best for my heart. I have 3 kids that I am wanting to watch grow up. In order to not kill myself before their wedding, I must eliminate the stress and anger in my life. Last night, I had a drunk cousin, whom I have reached out to and try to be by her side, send me nasty texts on how much she hates me. Why did she send this to me? I have not a clue. There is some drama going on in my family but what is new. Drama happens in all families. Out of the blue, I receive on that says she wants nothing to do with me. The next, 1 minute later says she hates me and have a nice life. Well, there were more texts but I will not repost out of respect since the language was very bad. I did not respond. I was to tired to type but I am glad that I did not. She was drinking, this is her MO so to speak. And you know what, I am okay with that. I stayed calm and mellow and did not get angry or blow up. That felt good. I instead prayed for her and asked God to help heal her.....there really is something to staying calm and I like it!!!
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Well, I did it. I finally went to the gym. And what was so funny about it, I LOVED IT! I had forgotten how truly strong I am. I am finding and hitting my own, MY OWN groove! I don't diet. I live a heathlier life style. Hey, works for me. I enjoyed being at the gym. I enjoyed seeing others there like me who are not already thin and perfect trying to pick up guys or girls. Just REAL people doing REAL workouts! And, this whole eating thing is a lifestyle change I can get used to. Yep, that's it for today. Just really happy that I am finally doing something for just me and no one else!!!!! XOXO
Monday, September 17, 2012
When I say family, I do not mean my kids or my family situation at home. You know by now that it is a VERY stressful time for me. This is about family that I do not care to associate with. No, I do not think I am better than them. Quit the opposite in fact. I have an aunt who drinks and never works. Who gets her money by several "sugar" daddy's. Her daughter is no better. I have uncles who have touched me, turned their back on me. The sad part is, this is all my stepdad's side of the family. Don't get me wrong, I love my dad. I love my mom but I really DISLIKE this wacko family. I never fit in because I was the "stepchild". I had cousins who got clothes, makeup and cool stuff while I got stupid stuff animals. Yea, I know, it sounds like I am incredibly jealous. And, as a young girl, I was. But that anger carried over into my adult life. Although I am not angry. Especially in this day and age of technonly. It is simple to just delete. The problem is, no one will call me. They all harass my mom which is stressful to say the least. Now, it is not jealous but as morphed into stress. I tried being nice, doing the "oh, I love and miss you" crap but it does not work with this family. the point I am trying to make to myself is, if it is stressful, even if it is family, move on. So, for me, it is time to move on. I am almost 40 years old and I do not have to like anyone if I don't want to. PFFT!
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Here is another thought about stress, politics. This is not going to be who to vote for or why but we do not think of politics as a stress point. Well, I do. I have found my ears become burning red. My heart starts pounding and I even start to feel dizzy. This is a good indication that I am becoming stressed. I tried to stay out of it. I tried to NOT read all of the posts that smoother Facebook but let's face it, easier said than done right now. I tried pulling away and retreating to my own somewhat perfect world but I got sucked back in with the shear mention of politics. This has become a big stress trigger for me. I have been staying up late, not because I am enjoying a good book but because I am reading ALL the posts to ALL the posts! Now, that statement will only make sense if your on FB. LOL. Anyway, what I need to do is turn off the Facebook and the politics at a certain point and retrain by brain to shut off at a certain time. Well, I guess the latter first, then the first second. Hey, it makes sense in my head. But my point is valid and something I am going to do starting tonight. Off with FB and off with politics for my own bit of stress relief! By the way, I have a very personal motto that I like:
GOTTA DO WHATCHA GOTTA DO! In this case, doing it for just me!!!
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