Tuesday, May 11, 2010
I had my first follow-up appointment with my favorite oncologist and it was short and oh so sweet! I only have to see him (and have blood work) every three months, an u/s every six months, and CT once a year! AND after this round of fragmin (my injectable blood thinner) is done (on the 23rd) I don’t have to have it anymore!! WHOOHOO! (he said if I absolutely can’t stand it anymore, I can stop sooner…we’ll see)
I am one happy chickie! *sighs happily*
Saturday, May 08, 2010
I have been trying to clean a bit today. I just have not had the energy to do much to the place since I've been sick. Now that I am getting better, I find I can do a little at a time, if I rest a lot in between. My kitchen is half done and I sat through "Hello Dolly." Now I am playing on line...so...maybe the kitchen will get done tonight. *LOL* Last night I did all my laundry and I now I need to put it away.
I am totally falling in love with my cat over again(although she drives me insane a lot of the time). She is the second cat I have had the joy of sharing my home with, that loves to play fetch! *ROFL* I buy her all these catnip mice and little balls with bells in them, and her favorite toy is a twisty! She brings it and drops in front me to throw for her and then she brings it back to me to do it again. If she had her way, it is all we would do...
Tomorrow is switch off Sunday for me. I borrowed the idea from Goddess Leonie (www.goddessguidebook.com). It's a day to disconnect from the computer(and for me the TV) and do something creative, fun, nourishing, and soul-enriching. I am going to go out to the Goddess Temple tomorrow morning to give thanks for my newly restored health...and to meditate and see if I can learn something new about myself, surrounded by the peace of the temple. Later, I may take myself to lunch and go see "How to Train your Dragon." I am also going to work on my room, work on my journal and whatever else gives my heart ease.
Life is slowly returning to relative normal. I am finding that I am in the process of redefining what "normal" is for me...There is so much redefining in my life! My journey is full of so much discovery and mystery right now. It is also filled with indescribable joy.
Well, time to think about dinner and finishing the kitchen.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Well, here I am. I am through with chemo (HUZZAH!!), and feeling really good! I am looking forward to my energy level matching how good I am feeling, but this shall come in time. I lost a total of 71 pound during my illness, once my appetite came back I gained only 4 of those back. Today's weigh-in found me a pound and half lighter...another two and half pounds and I am back to the 71 I originally lost. I can see my second major goal so closely...250 pounds! I know I can do it...I fought cancer and won! So therefore, I can do this...piece of cake!
I tracked my food and did really well! I did not make it to the treadmill as I ran around a lot this morning at work and it was too much. I have to remember to take things slowly. The chemo was hard on my body and it is going to take time to build up strength and stamina. My poor heart was palpitating way too much this morning and my bones on the outside of my upper legs (are those side thigh bones? Need to look it up) really hurt.
I called and asked my doctor today when I can begin to take Zinc, Biotin and Fish Oil to help my hair grow back nice and thick and healthy. He said I can start anytime, so tomorrow I'll add those to my multivitamin and calcium pills. I cannot WAIT until my hair starts to grow back. I just don't do well bald! *LOL*
So, today was a good day. I am consciously Sparking again and look forward to all the joys and accomplished goals I have to look forward to in the future.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
A couple of weeks before I started back to work, I saw a hematology oncologist. He felt that due to certain criteria, I should have 3 rounds of preventative chemo therapy. He said my odds of getting cancer again without the chemo is 50-50, with chemo only 80-20. I like those odds much better and decided even before I left his office that I would have the therapy.
I had the first round the Friday I started back to work. The actual chemo wasn't so bad, surprisingly. The next morning I went back to get an injection that helps boost the white blood cell count. They said my bones would ache for a few days, however, I was not prepared for the excruciating pain in my thighs and ankles. I couldn't sleep on Tuesday night and ended up staying home. I called the physician's office to find out what else I could do besides take Tylenol(Yeeeeeeeeah....Tylenol) and how long the pain would last. I was told to try Claritin D, something about the antihistamine that helps the pain. I was amazed to find out it DID help and I was so grateful. It is now sitting on the table next to my couch in readiness for this weekend. The pain disappeared around Thursday.
I was also dealing with nausea. *sigh* It was only a couple of days as well, so I survived. I have felt pretty good these last two weeks. The only down side is that I am losing my hair...I've ordered hats, scarves and am looking at wigs. In the very near future, I will be having my head shaved, but I'm not dealing with that as well as I could be. I know I'll be okay and my hair should be back by September. It is all part of the journey. Ooh...and I am looking forward to see what my hair looks like once it grows back...that's kinda exciting to contemplate...sorta.
This Friday is my second round, and then I only have one more, then I am done! Huzzah! While I am kinda dreading it, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
On the upside, I have lost a total of 71 pounds! I went shopping last Saturday and bought some new...smaller... clothes! I love seeing the look on my work friends faces when they see me. Although, while logically I know I look better than I did, once in while I even see it, but the reality of it still hasn't wended itself into my head.
Not only that, but when I look at myself in the mirror, I don't recognize myself. With all that has happened over the past four months, I don't know who I am any more. After this is all finished, I will begin getting to know myself again. For now, I accept there are things I can't change, I need to roll with whatever comes my way in the next month, and then I look forward to the next bend in the road.
So, onward and upward. One day at a time....sometimes one hour at a time. In spite of everything, life is good and I have so much to look forward to in my future.
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
I had my surgery on 12/08/09. I am slowly recovering, today I'm feeling almost human for the first time. I'm so grateful for this! Had my 2nd post-op follow up on Monday. I had such a bad week prior to the appointment, that the news awaiting me as I did my pre-visit weighin caught me so off guard, I broke into tears(Which I do at the drop of a hat,darn it; thanks to my instant menopause)and I had to ask the nurse to repeat my weight. I am down to 281! I cannot EVEN remember the last time I weighed this much.
Gotta tell ya, This is NOT how I envisioned losing the weight. 46 pounds since this whole adventure began. I am astounded and thrilled. I have no appetite, which is normal after a surgery such as mine. I eat little bits, and hope, once I am feeling better, I can keep it up.
Anywho, I am making progress, slow but sure. I hope I have more decent days like today, I am so ready to feel good...or at least better.
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