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Sunday, March 24, 2013

I had a fabulous St. Patrick's day! I went with a friend to Fremont street and saw one of my favorite Celtic bands, and discovered a new favorite band as well! (I even bought a green and white boa to wear! *shakes head* I have no idea what possessed me, it was whim!) I be-bopped to and sang along with all my favorite songs, and bought a CD from my new favorite band. The two best things about being on Fremont Street for St Paddy's day besides the music? Well, first are all bonny lads in (proper) kilts! *sighs happily* The second thing is the people watching! Oh my goodness, they do come out of the woodwork for this holiday!

I am doing a bit better, after gaining a couple more pounds, I am now down. Granted, I'm probably not doing it the best way I can, but I am losing. So my thyroid has finally stabilized. I'm still having odd dreams, but they are not quite as disturbing as recent ones. (I dreamed of my mama last night and woke up happy and sad at the same time.) I'm still going through some bothersome, fluctuating mood swings, so I'm pretty certain I need to see my doctor and check to see if we need to up my medication. (I don't mean to sound like I'm manic depressive! I'm just not my normal obnoxiously cheerful self yet and I miss me!)

All in all I am doing better...I even woke up with a song in my head today, which is always a good sign. I'm going to putter a bit, do a couple of chores and groom my cat.

It's a beautiful morning, and it's going to be a beautiful day. I will make it so! *LOL*

Bright Blessings,

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EVERLEARNING 3/28/2013 10:28AM

    So glad to know the thyroid situation is leveling off.

Sounds like St Pat's was a day well spent!

I hope you're continuing to feel better and better every day!!
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Slow but surely...I think....

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Making progress toward what is normal for me, but oh, I wish it would hurry up~ I am sleeping a bit better, but still having REALLY weird and often disturbing dreams. I am getting very tired at work ( I sit all day at a computer), and am still lacking in motivation.

On the upside, my weight seems to have stabilized. I have not gained in the last week and half. Now I just need to get it heading in the other direction. The co-workers I am closest to told me I am laughing and smiling more easily and often now, which is good. Another couple of weeks and I will be good. In the meantime, I do what I can, relax when I have to, and take one day at a time.

Now we have gone from winter to almost summer in a matter of a couple of days. I love winter, but even I am looking forward to Spring. Of course, I would be happier if we actually had was close to 87 yesterday! *LOL* Awww...Come on...what happened to a few weeks at 70-75 degrees? Which to me is PERFECT weather. *LOL*

Oh well, it is beautiful day and I am just chillin'...with a very demanding cat!


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SPSPSP1 3/16/2013 5:50PM

    Life (and temperature) is always shifting. I hope you find a way to appreciate every bit of it.

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The story so far...

Saturday, March 02, 2013

Well, another week down and what a week it was! Let me back up a bit...Had a fabulous vacation. Seeing my old friend was the best birthday present I have had in forever! I rented a car for four days and ran around like a crazy woman, enjoying the freedom a well running car affords me. Once I returned the car, I stayed home and relaxed and spoiled myself.

On my first day off, I called my (EX) endocrinologist to see why she has not approved my refills for my thyroid medication. I got the voice mail...again... and left my name and number and a "I'm off for the next week, I'll come in and see you, just please ok a refill until then and call me back for an appointment," message. Yeeah, no phone call. left another message and nothing. By this time I am feeling the result of no thyroid and each day is getting a little worse,til by the time I am back to work, I feel like I am am coming out of my skin, I can't focus, I am not sleeping, having night mares when I do sleep, and have a VERY short temper.(Oh! not to mention that no matter how little I eat, I am gaining weight at an alarming rate....another lovely side effect of no thyroid.) I called my primary care doc (which, had I been thinking straight, I should have done a lot sooner) and left a message for her explaining what was going on and guess what, she sent in a script that evening. Wow!

So now it is a waiting game as I am basically starting all over. It takes 2-4 weeks for the meds to come to full power. In the mean time, I have been told by those nearest and dearest to me to be gentle with myself and relax. Hence the lazy weekend and possibility of a nap or two. I have so much to do and I procrastinate enough as it is. But when I want to do stuff and just can't manage, I hate it...

Okay, enough venting...okay whining! *LOL* I'm gonna be fine, I'm just frustrated after feeling so good for as long as I have now. I will be as patient as I can and do what is best for me now, so I can be the best me later.

Have a wonderful weekend and know that you are loved!

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THALIA_RAYNNE 3/10/2013 9:21AM

    I so dislike when doc's do stuff like that...I had a doc do that to me too and yep thats why they are

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HEYRED221 3/2/2013 8:55PM

    So glad to hear you had a wonderful vacation and glad your primary doc hooked you up! Sorry its a while to get regulated, but yes, just be kind to yourself. Have an awesome weekend!


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AMETHYSTSTAR 3/2/2013 12:12PM

    Thank you once again for your support, my dear friend! In all fairness, it may have nothing to do with the doctor herself. It may have just been her staff, not giving her the messages. That being health is too important to put up with garbage like that! I have come too far on my journey to getting healthy!

On a cheerier note, my grocery shopping is done, Thanks to my friend Jenna. (Oh yeah, I think my car has finally died. I will not pour more money into her, as much as I love her. She is 24 years old and has so many things wrong with her. *Pouts* I'll fiddle with her later.)

I think today I am going to finish season 3 of "Castle," and then move on to a "Warehouse 13" marathon. I found the first three seasons on sale, so had to get them!


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EVERLEARNING 3/2/2013 11:40AM

    I can see why your ex-doc is an ex!! Yikes! That's some set of priorities she has...

So glad you finally are getting what you need, and that things will be on track soon. The Universe finds so many varied ways to teach us patience. We even catch on to a few of them!

Your friends are right.
Be kind to yourself.

That may be the most important lesson in patience.

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Vacation Girl!

Saturday, February 16, 2013

First day of vacation and I was up at my regular time (4:30)! Eh, no problem...mayhaps the days will be longer and slow down enough if I get up on time. Maybe the week will pass more slowly! *LOL*

I had a dream last night that included 3 pure white horses. The first one ran past me and it looked as if it had once had a rider. It was all saddled up. It came running back to me and behind her (or him)were two more. I felt very strongly they were there on purpose and I awoke with the same feeling.

Then, when I checked in on my facebook page shortly thereafter, one of my groups posted a beautiful picture of 6 wild white horses on a beach. I get the feeling I'm being told something, but I have absolutely idea what! I looked up white horses in on online dream dictionary, but of course it was very general. I'm feeling very dense! *LOL*

I have been busy working lots of overtime and fighting the creeping crud that refuses to leave my department. I'm also trying to find out why my endocrinologist has not approved my thyroid medication. I'm a bit off kilter as I haven't had my meds in almost a month and I am gaining weight with no thyroid. I have cut my calories a bit. I called the office yesterday and left a message, but didn't hear anything back! Aarrrrrghhhhh. Speed bumps aside, life is good.

I look forward to these next 10 days. I'm going to have a wonderful "staycation"which I always take the week of my birthday. The highlight of my week will be my yearly visit to the Goddess Temple in Indian Springs on my birthday morning. I am usually the only one there and I spend as much time as I am led by spirit to spend. I leave an offering of thanks and walk the labyrinth. I spend time thinking about the up coming year and what I want to focus on as far as growth and self improvement. I wander and explore the grounds. The temple is dedicated to Sekhmet, however there are representations of many Goddesses there. I Love my time there and had I decent car I would go out more often. (I rent a car for my birthday) I have been out for a few rituals and love it! It's about 45 minutes from home.

Now it is time to face my day. Today is a day to do a few chores to get them out of the way and pick up the rental. Anyone who has never been car-less or has had a car they only trust to go work and the store, will probably never know just how excited I am! YAY!

Sunday I am seeing my best friend from High School that I haven't seen in not quite 20 years, haven't spoken with in more than 11 years. Late last year we found each other on Facebook. Wednesday I received a message from her that she is going to be visiting Vegas this weekend and wants to see me. I am so excited!

Okay, enough rambling...I could go and on today with this wonderful feeling of so much free time.

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Have a Fantabulous day!

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AMETHYSTSTAR 2/16/2013 4:47PM

    The 19th! I have another friend on the 21st, one on the 2rd, one today and 3 that share my birthday. Oh, and a FB friend that shares mine as well...gotta love February! *Grins*

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HEYRED221 2/16/2013 4:44PM

    Sounds like a wonderful vacation. My birthday is this week too, the 21st, what day are you?

Hoping you have a relaxing and awesome 10 days!!!!

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SLACHETKA103145 2/16/2013 11:10AM

    Nice job and have a great vacation!!!!


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Ame here and now

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Happy Sunday! It's 5:30 and I have been up for an hour. I am wrapped up in the warmth of my ragged, much beloved bathrobe, my cat asleep by side, Sunday Baroque on my radio,a hot cup of sugar free cappuccino/Swiss miss cocoa, waiting to watch the sun rise.

I adore this time of day. I feel as if I have the whole world to myself for just a little while. My head is clear and it is easier to concentrate before all the chaos starts in my head. It is so calm ans peaceful and I am filled with quiet joy. I wish I could freeze this moment!

I have been thinking a lot about my post yesterday. I need to stop procrastinating getting busy with my healthy living. I'm pretty good with what I eat. Don't over indulge too often, though I need to up my veggies again. I get lazy and I forget excuses! I usually make my water quota and since I get up at 4:30 every morning, I make sure I am in bed early enough to get at least 7 hours of sleep if not 8.

My HUGE problem area...EXERCISE...movement....NOT Sitting! Every day I think about it and yet everyday I do nothing about it. I cannot for the life of me figure out what my problem is! So looked back to my first blogs to try and figure out what sparked me way back when. Of course I knew without reading that I was jazzed about everything back then, I was ready to do whatever it takes to get healthy and lose weight. I was unstoppable back then. I flaunted my new lifestyle at work...told EVERYONE what I was doing and invited everyone to visit SP. AND...I lost weight! It seemed to come off so easily back then! *LOL*

Somewhere along the way, it became more difficult. Life threw me some curve balls (as it does everyone)...a bad bad bad relationship, and my little war with cancer being the biggest hurdles. I lost so much weight during my illness, but it wasn't a healthy weight loss and as hard I as worked to keep it off as I recovered and started the long haul to getting healthy again, the moment my life threw me another curve, I gained it back and I have been fighting ever since.

Oh, the sky is beginning to lighten! *sighs happily* I can feel the shift beginning and I have butterflies in my tummy.

So here I am...back to my beginning weight, but not as devastated or disappointed in myself as would once have been. My new relationship with me has totally changed how I view things and myself. I'm giving myself an early birthday present... today I start from the beginning, go through the 4 stages again. Find that excitement, that determination, that yearning. 54 is going to be great ! I am going to celebrate it all year.

Now...Because dance was such a big part of my lifestyle change I thought I would remind myself of the list of some of the songs that made me wanna move! It is an eclectic list, but everyone of these songs makes my feet tap and my hippy hippys shake! *giggles*

Karma Chameleon~Boy George
Wake Me Up Before You GoGo-Wham
Morning Star~Blackmore's Night
Get On Your Feet~Gloria Estefan
Best Years of Our Lives~Baha Men
Save a Horse(Ride a Cowboy)~Big and Rich
Rhythm is Gonna Get you~Gloria Estefan
That's the Way (I Like it ) Dance remix~K.C. and the Sunshine Band
Me and my Gang~Rascal Flatts(I LOVE THIS SONG!)
Honky Tonk Badonkadonk~Trace Adkins(Another Favorite!)
I'm Coming out~Diana Ross
Something More~Sugarland
Where the BlackTop ends~Ketih Urban
One Particular Harbor~Jimmy Buffett
When the Sun Goes Down~Kenny Chesney and Uncle Cracker
Saturday Night -The Bay City Rollers (Yes you read that right! *LOL* What can I say?)
Dancig Queen-ABBA
The Mystics Dream- Loreena Mckennitt (a cool down lovely song)
Rock and Roll all night- Kiss
Play that Funky Music - Wild Cherry
Don't stop til you get enough- Michael Jackson
We will rock you-Queen

Okay those are all my songs for now....I break them up into various lengths and groupings to give my self some variety. I am always on the lookout for songs that motivate me so the list is every evolving.

I can do this. Today I commit myself to 10 minutes a day of dancing. It's time to STREAK baby!! *LOL*

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*smiles* Wow, it is 6:20 already. Almost an hour since I started blogging. I can see trees and clouds now, as night has bowed down to the wonder of morning. I think tonight I will watch as night cloaks my world...see if I can feel the shift in that as well.

Time for breakfast and to start my day. A bit of laundry, a bit of cleaning, a bit of studying, a LOT of attention to my fur baby...and 10 minutes of dancing!

Brightest of blessings for a beautiful day!

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ZENRYAKU 2/12/2013 12:42AM

    I'm sure you will go for more than 10 minutes once you put the music on emoticon emoticon

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HEYRED221 2/11/2013 3:51PM

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LHLADY517 2/10/2013 4:26PM

    Dance your way into a healthy lifestyle.

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