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Monday, July 16, 2007

Okay...the complacency has to end. I am going to go back to stage one and kick some weight loss tush! *Grins*

It is going to be a great day!

  


So Much Sadness

Saturday, July 07, 2007

This has been a very rough year for people that I love. Too many people that I consider family have suffered excruciating losses of one sort or another. These past few weeks have been the worst.

A dear faire family member in drug rehab and not allowing it to help him. Another friend has been out of work for 18 months, he has turned in 227 applications and still has not found anything, he is depressed and drawing away from his friends because of it. A friend worked with for 15 years is dying of brain tumor.

Yesterday I had a call that felt like someone put a fist through my stomach and there is nothing I can do. One of my best friends lost her 16 year old son Tuesday night to the riptide in Oregon. He was with friends, right in front of his house, playing in the surf as I am sure they had done so often. One moment he was there, the next dragged out to sea. They have given up the search to find him.

What do I say? What do I do? How do I help from so very far away? I feel so impotent...so angry...so ......helpless. 16 years old.....and his family left to deal with the horror. I think of my darling niece who is 18, my nephew 14...and I am so thankful they are safe and I'd give anything right now to hug them tightly and let them know how much I love them. Actually, once again I want to hug all my family and friends and let them know how much they mean to me.

So many tears, I have shed so many tears for so many of my friends in the last few weeks. I am so blessed and grateful for all the blessings I have in my life. I feel so petty worrying over what now seems like such little things in my life when those I love are dealing with life and death situations. This really makes one stop and think.

I'm sorry, I'm hoping writing it down helps...

ame

  
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PAINTANDSOUL 7/8/2007 10:18PM

    Oh Ame.... it's so hard to be a bystander to pain. Especially if you are like me, and it sounds like you are. The type who just wants to take care of it all. Honestly the best thing you can do is listen. I know it makes you feel impotent, but it's such an undervalued commodity! Truly listening and commiserating, rather than blithely uttering platitudes... it's worth a thousand cliched responses. The world isn't a fair place... and it's such a hard thing to bear. All we have is the life we get though, and it sounds like you are doing the best you can to be there for those that have called on you when in need. Consider it a job well done, even though it will never feel like enough.

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Well, well, well

Friday, June 15, 2007

It seems I have hit my first bump in the road since I started SP 6 months ago. The motivation is totally gone. Now I will admit it may have something to do with the fact that it is 110 degrees out and I normally go into hibernation this time of year...at least until September. *Sighs*

I have no intention of gaining the weight back that I have lost....but I am hard put at the moment to care about working on losing more. It is disheartening and frustrating. I guess I'll just have to work through this and keep on doing what I have been doing...but it is really hard at the moment.

  
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DAN0608 6/16/2007 12:43AM

    Ame, motivation is a hard commodity to come by at times. Staying faithful and consistent to your program isn't nearly as easy as it sounds like on paper. It's that steady, consistent effort that makes the ultimate difference, though. Keep your goal in mind, and remember you have lots of people who care about you here to encourage you... :)
*big hugs*
Dan

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YEs!

Thursday, April 19, 2007

I did it!!! Met my first goal, plus 1 pound! 31 pounds... If I felt better, I would be bouncing off the walls! *smiles* As it stands, I am sedately pleased and ready to set my next goal and work hard to achieve it. I really wish I felt better....I should be so much more excited than I am...*Sighs* Well maybe in a couple of days....

  


Almost there...

Sunday, April 15, 2007

1.5 pounds til I hit my first goal! I am now Pre-Michael weight. YES! I am able to get into a lovely red lacy, satiny negligee that I had before I met Michael. I was never able to wear it during our marriage (Not that it would have made any difference, but that is another story…no…wait…It is all in the past and has absolutely NO bearing my life now…it is forgotten). In any event, the numbers and inches keep melting away. My sister isn’t going to recognize me.(well, of course she will but you know what I mean! *giggles*)

*GRINS* October is going to be such rush. I tried my garb on and it is TOO big…well, my skirts are falling off my hips and my bodice wants to over lap from the bottom to about half way up. It still supports my girls, but I can breathe easily…*LOL* Anyone who knows anything about bodices, knows that is not necessarily a good thing. My chemises I am not too worried about since I wear them under everything, so I am good there for the time being.

Yep, I Rock!

Brightest Blessings,
Ame

  


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