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Lessons I have learned this week

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Here I am on my break, sitting in my car and listening to the rain. This is been a week of deep introspection, and lessons learned. I believe this is helping as I try to get back to my normal, cheerful, and sassy self. Finally gaining the courage to step on the scale, I find that I am at my beginning weight. Somehow, and I haven't figured out why yet, this does not upset me. This is my jumping off point. I'm starting fresh!. Rats its time for me to go back to work already. I guess that this will be a multipart blog.

Later. Hugs

  
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CINDYSDAY 1/25/2013 9:58AM

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SPARTAN40 1/24/2013 2:37PM

    Sounds like you're making progress. You don't have to start off sprinting. I only matter that you're starting.

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Tuesday Musings

Tuesday, January 22, 2013


To awaken each morning with a smile brightening my face; to greet the day with reverence for the opportunities it contains; to approach my work with a clean mind; to hold ever before me, even in the doing of little things, the Ultimate Purpose toward which I am working; to meet men and women with laughter on my lips and love in my heart; to be gentle, kind, and courteous through all the hours; to approach the night with weariness that ever woos sleep and the joy that comes from work well done—this is how I desire to waste wisely my days.
-Thomas Dekker

I really am in an odd place. I know what I need to do, I know I NEED to do it for a healthier and happier me, but I'm stuck. Sometimes I feel as if I have been fighting this for so long and I'm just not making any progress. I know it is my choice and it is my life I am playing with here. I hate how up and down I feel and how many times I am catching myself saying "I don't care anymore." Because I DO care! Deep down inside where I hide from myself, I care so very much. I need to find a way back to supporting myself. Feeling kind of lost right now.

I realize the quote I found today has nothing to do with my ramblings, but it struck a chord with me.

Ame

  
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HEYRED221 1/22/2013 2:36PM

    Just take it one day at a time - focus on today, don't worry about tomorrow. Even just focus on each hour - you can do this!!!

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TOGEMON 1/22/2013 10:07AM

    Like ELP1210, I know the place too. Sometimes it all just seems like too much work and effort, and like you say, we're not making any progress.

If it helps, you're an inspiration to me... your positive way at looking at the world helps me to be more positive too :) If there's anything I can do to help you through this, please let me know!

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ELP1210 1/22/2013 9:02AM

  I know exactly the place that you described bc I think I''ve been there. Take a small step in the right direction and remember that it is OK to feel and admit it' s time for change. You can do this!

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MJRVIC2000 1/22/2013 8:56AM

    Give thanks always and prove it with a smile! God Bless YOU! Vic.

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Wow

Friday, January 18, 2013

I woke up feeling really good this morning. I mean, it's Friday, payday, and tonight I get to hang out with some of my very favorite people! What's not to be happy about!? I turned on the TV to see what the weather was going to be like and CMT was on . I listened to the song(which i have never heard before) that was playing, figuring it would help boost my already buoyant spirit and omigosh, it brought me down to the depths! Holy moly! I am so depressed right now...

Okay, I am coming out of it now that I have written it down. I'd forgotten that music can work both ways. I tend to listen to classical music as well as my favorite music on I have on my Ipod. 99% of my music is uplifting and helps me come out of a bad or depressed mood when one descends upon me. This one totally did the opposite. Amazing!

Time for me to get ready for work. I am going to turn on MY music and dance as I am getting ready to go. I AM having a great day!

I hope you do too!
Bright Blessings,
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HEYRED221 1/18/2013 2:55PM

    Gosh, its amazing how music can affect us - that happens to me too. Or if I am in a bad/sad mood, I want to listen to only certain types of music. Have a wonderful weekend :-)

Carolyn

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EVERLEARNING 1/18/2013 11:45AM

    Thanks for reminding me to be aware of what may influence my mood. That's SO important, especially this time of year!

*HUGZ*
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LADEERIN307 1/18/2013 9:29AM

    Music is a huge motivator for me too. I hope your the rest of your day is just as great!

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MANDYVANHOOK 1/18/2013 9:28AM

    Oh, I start crying within the first first 3 notes of Miranda Lambert's "House that built me" - oh my I am tearing up just typing the title out. Country music can have that effect! Enjoy some happy music and have a great weekend!!

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KELL724 1/18/2013 9:25AM

    Thanks for sharing you good spirits emoticon

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JOHNMARTINMILES 1/18/2013 9:23AM

    Great Blog!

Make Today a Great Day!

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I'm Baaaaaaaack~ *LOL*

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Okay, kitchen is done except for the sweeping and mopping. I'm afraid I got distracted a couple of times(Gee, WHAT a surprise!!)

It all started when one of my favorite songs from my teenage years played on my Ipod. Ohhhh, I am dating myself here, but I don't care. It was the Bellamy Brothers "Let Your Love Flow." That led me to seeing if I could find a video of it (Gotta Love You Tube!) I did fond it, but that video led me to several more of my fav oldies. Tommy James and the Shondells, Tommy Roe, Peter and Gordon, Gary Puckett and the Union Gap, Edison Lighthouse, BJ Thomas, and so many more. Jeeze, talk about a trip through time! 'm gonna look for these on ITunes and add them to my dancing lists. I was be bopping on my chair as I was rediscovering the joy of 60's and 70's music!

For my Doctor Who friends, I found a brilliant video called :The Tenth Doctor-a Musical!" It was AWESOME!

Now I am going to sign off again, with Tommy James singing "I Think We're Alone Now!"

ciao!

  
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TOGEMON 1/13/2013 3:44PM

    I LOVE Tommy James - and I was born in the 80s! "Crimson and Clover" is one of my favorite songs ever.

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Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Greetings from below freezing Las Vegas! it is 19 degrees, sunny and beautiful! Today is switch off Sunday, no TV and as little computer time as I can stand! *LOL* (Not that I'm addicted or anything! *Giggles*)

Getting ready to finish my kitchen and work some more on my room. I was going to work on it after work, but it was a really rough week with physician's offices back from the holidays and playing catch up with everyth9ing they didn't do over the last several weeks. I am also finding that in the new position at work, I sit WAAAAAAAAAAY longer that I am used to and by the end of the day, I am exhausted! I went from a job where I was running around several times a day, to one where I was up occasionally, to this one where I sit in the same position for 2-3 hours at a time. I cannot believe the difference!

So I have taken to getting up once at least every hour to hour and a half and stretching at my desk! I really don't know how people can stand sitting in those office chairs for so long without moving! *LOL* I have noticed that I feel better at the end of the day and have a wee bit more energy if I do this very regularly!

So once I am done here, I am off to work on my sanctuary. I keep envisioning how it is going to look and how I a going to love coming home and having time and the inclination to do work on projects, study , meditate and just be in y calm and de-cluttered home.

Brightest blessings for a beautiful day!
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HEYRED221 1/13/2013 8:04PM

    It is cold here in Albuquerque as well. It was -1 this morning - crazy!!!

I have one of those desk jobs too, people don't understand why it can be so exhausting, but it is. I try to get up often and walk up and down the hallway or go outside for a real walk.

Have a wonderful week and stay warm :-)

Carolyn

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TOGEMON 1/13/2013 3:26PM

    Happy Sunday!

I would love to have my room be a decluttered sanctuary :) It's slow going, but I will get there one day!

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