Tuesday, November 27, 2012
What an absolutely amazingly beautiful morning! Who knew getting up so early to exercise, would bring other joys as well.
My new morning ritual is getting up at 4:30 in my attempt to walk away the pounds. After my shower and meditation, I make myself a cup of something hot and comforting,then settle down for a good hour to hour and a half with Spark People. During this time my day begins dark, and I feel as if I am the only one in the world that is up. There is a serenity in the darkness that calms me. As I work through my SP program, the dark begins fade, as light makes it way to touch my life. I love watching the dawn come aborning each day and this morning was just magical for me. The sky was laden with streaks of pink that took my breath away. They faded as the sun made his presence known and I am now aware I am not the only one stirring.
Do you ever feel as if you sleepwalk through your life? Go through the motions without really paying attention to what is around you? I am guilty of this at times and I always want to kick myself when I become aware of it. I have always been one to look for pockets of joy throughout my days and evenings, but I often get so caught up in the rush, stress, and technology of life, that I forget to really slow down. That's when I miss the little, beautiful, joyful moments of life.
With rising as early as I do (and would you believe I DON'T hit the snooze button? I would never have believed it!) to exercise and follow my ritual, I get to participate in the the birth of each day! Everyday! I a much more aware of the beauty that surrounds me. When I take my short drive to work, I am awed at the stark beauty of the mountains, the colorful flora that colors my world, in the afternoon as it moves to evening, I love to watch the sky deepen into darkness as the setting sun casts a gold and pink glow before saying good night.
I know I am waxing most poetic this morning, but I forget how much I miss by not waking up early and moving though my day with my eyes, heart and imagination wide open. With y exercising and being more aware of what I am eating, doing and thinking, I am aware of the awesomeness of the world around me.
This is not the blog I intended to write this morning. Mayhaps, I will get to it tonight, or perhaps it is not that important...
Have a beautiful and perceptive day!
Monday, November 26, 2012
Let's see...I was up at 4:30 this morning and exercised to Walk Away the Pounds. Had a pretty good day at work except for a wee bout with the sleepies. Drank my water, ate within my calorie range, walked for 15 minutes during my second break. All in all, not too bad a start to the week. Although, if I am going to keep up with the EARLY morning workouts I need to be in bed earlier than normal. (and I go to bed early as it is)
A few posts ago, I contemplated physically writing down daily goals. I need to rethink my long term, medium term and short term goals. Redo my SP goal page. Actually, I think I need to rethink a few things. Clean up my page altogether. I started SP in January of 2007...I do believe I need to freshen things up. I am certainly not the same person I was when I started. We'll see. This bears some more thought.
*Sighs* Think I'll settle down in my cozy bed with a good book. I'm sure I will be pondering things as I drift off to sleep.
Sweet sleep and blessings,
Monday, November 26, 2012
Yes, it has been a few days! I have been doing a lot of meditating and pondering as we draw near to the end of another year. (Good Grief!)
As I have walked the path of this journey, I have picked up many tools along the way. Most of us have, or we wouldn't be here. *grins* Two of my favorites are positive thinking and affirmations. I work really hard at keeping a positive state of mind and it can be really difficult when surrounded by people who are perpetually (and very loudly) negative. Our friend "The Slowest Loser" wrote a wonderful blog this past week about letting go. This can be difficult at times. My over active brain oft times dredges up old hurts and grudges. Not as much as it used to do, as I focus as much as I can on positivity. When these unwelcome guests come to call, I hear in my mind and often sing softly to myself "Let it go, Let it go, Let it go!" to the tune of "Let it Snow." Sometimes if the guest thoughts are really stubborn, I will write down the troubling thoughts, take a metal pan or dish...sing let it go and burn the paper in the pan, singing as it burns and releases the worrisome and annoying problem thoughts to the UNIVERSE.
However, I have been really ruminating on affirmations these last few days. Many of us use these little gems to build our self esteem and own vision of ourselves. They help buoy us up when things get tough. I learned something a day or two ago and it was an aha moment again as I was meditating. (and most likely something most people already know. I however often can't see the forest for the trees!)
One of my favorite affirmations comes from Shakti Gwain in her book "Creative Visualization." The affirmation is " I am Vibrantly Healthy and Radiantly Beautiful." I focus more on the vibrantly healthy portion of the affirmation as I am still working on not only losing weight, but getting back to where I was before getting sick (not to mention I believe true radiant beauty is something that shines from the inside).
During one of my meditations, as I was repeating the phrase, it occurred to me that there is more to affirmations then just saying them and expecting everything to change. A lot of the articles I have read never mentioned the work it takes; they more or less say that all you have to do is repeat the affirmation until you believe it is true. I respectfully disagree.
I believe affirmations are goals and goals must be worked towards step by step. I have to work to make them happen. I have to do more than just believe it is true. I have to believe I can do whatever it takes to make it true. Which means, making the commitment and following through on eating right and exercising. Do everything I can to be "vibrantly healthy!"
Eek! I have to get ready for work! Where did the time go? More tonight, hopefully!
Have a great day!
Monday, November 19, 2012
I weighed myself this morning as I have been feeling the need to revisit my goals and as mentioned in an earlier post, set daily goals. I was afraid I'd gained back all the weight I lost. To my surprise over the last 3 or 4 months I gained 3 pounds. Part of me is thrilled it was "only" 3 pounds, part of me is disappointed in myself for gaining 3 pounds!
I have been sliding by on the bare minimum for several months now and since I have been blogging fairly regularly, I have become aware of where I am falling way short. Yesterday, I spoke of setting daily goals and I have been made to feel I need to do it now! I have also decided that the goals are not just physically oriented, but mentally oriented as well.
On Spark Radio, Lily and Karen discussed tech addiction of which I suffer in a huge way. I spend more time on line, then I do just about anything else. I HAVE to set a limit for myself. So my first goal is limit my online time to a couple of hours in the morning. I have a couple programs I participate in that requires more than just a few minutes(Spark People for example) So I will dedicate myself to doing what I need to do in the morning, but not get on in the evening when I get home. I am also going to limit my TV...in an odd turn, I don't spend as much time watching TV as I do online, but it is still more than I should. Especially since I spend so much time channel surfing. So, I will only watch shows I really wish to watch and keep the TV off the rest of the time. In truth, I feel some of this comes from living by myself and wanting background noise. Well, now I will put on my music or audiobooks. Imagine what I can accomplish with all the evening and weekend hours I am freeing up! YES!
So, my daily goals will be: Eat within my calorie range (I have a difficult time eating enough calories to even to hit the lowest number in the range), move 10 minutes a day, limit my computer time to 2 hours in the morning.
It's a start...
I am grateful I am aware of my higher self and I'm in a place where I can actually "hear" it. (and feel compelled to follow its promptings.
I'm grateful for my Spark Friends and their incredible stories that motivate me to want to do better.
I'm grateful for a beautiful new day where I can make good, healthy decisions. I can do this! One Day at a Time.
Have a wonderful day!
Sunday, November 18, 2012
It is a beautiful Sunday morning and I have spent the last hour going through my SP ritual. It is so motivating to read about all the hard won successes of other SP adventurers. It really gives me hope that I will one day hit my ultimate goal.
Speaking of goals, I had another aha moment whilst meditating this morning. (I am seeing a direct correlation between my meditating and aha moments! Coincidence, I think not!
I mentioned on one of my previous posts that there is power in writing things down. I have heard inspiring talks and words of wisdom and get really pumped up. However, once my overactive brain moves on to other musings, I promptly forget what I was so jazzed about!
If I read inspiring talks and words of wisdom, not only do I remember them, but I can read them over and over and get excited all over again! I have found this to be true in inspiring myself and my aha moments words of wisdom. If i write them down, they are much more meaningful for me. I'm not talking about "Typing" them, although it helps, but actually putting pen(or pencil) to paper and physically writing things down. Having the letters, words and ideas flow from my brain, down my arm through my fingers to the paper.
I have a blank notebook and I am going to write down my goals. I have decided (after my journal entry fron yesterday) to set daily goals. One day at a time, living in the moment and not worrying bout the future. If I meet my daily goals, my long term goals will be taken care as well, one sweet day at a time. I may or may not post my daily goals here, but I WILL, as part of my nightly ritual, write them down in my notebook and track them. I am so excited!
I am so grateful that I am making progress in my meditating. Today was the best one ever and I feel so good that I haven't given up, that despite my over active brain, I am more and more able to quiet it down to hear my higher self speak to me.
I'm thankful for my classical music station and my Sunday Baroque program. I love this station and the relaxing, inspiring music I can listen to an time of the day or night. I especially love listening to it as I am driving, as it it is the calm in the middle of the driving storm.
I am so thankful for my inner child. I love that I enjoy coloring and playing in the rain. I love building forts out of blankets and reading tales of magic, damsels in distress who save themselves, of dragons, faeries, and beasties that go bump in the night. I love walking outside and being enchanted by the clouds as they float by, amazed at the sharpness of the mountains outlined against the oh so blue sky.and the intense color and variety of the plants and flowers that grow around me.
Take time to nurture your inner child today. Embrace her/him and let them play for a while. You'll be glad you did!
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