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Now is all there is!

Saturday, November 17, 2012

I am listening to Spark People Radio and loving it! I truly enjoy listening to these two wonderfully funny ladies. They interview actual Spark members (today was Indy Girl and Slim Katie! It was great to hear the inspiration of two lovely women who are on the healthy adventure with us!) They spoke of being a tech addict (which I most definitely am! Sad to say I need to set limits for myself...eventually).

I had an epiphany this morning as I was meditating. As my mind was yet again racing uncontrollably about next week and last year and will I ever, ever lose the weight...i said out loud (with no idea where it came from)..."Now is all there is." Obviously, someone is trying to help my poor stubborn self! *LOL* As often as one hears or reads about living in the moment, I for one, find it really difficult! If I'm not looking back at fond memories, or dredging up old hurts...I'm imaging what I will be like when I have lost 50, 100, or 150 pounds. I imagine what I will look like, what I will be wearing, how I may change (hopefully for the better).

Now I hope this makes sense....but, Well, heck...now I know why I am not accomplishing what I imagine...I'm so caught up in the future, I totally ignore what I am doing (or not doing) right this minute in order to fulfill my vision. I shudder as I hear my inner voice telling me it is okay to have the pancakes, because my final goal is set for a year from now and you can "make it up" later. *Really, it said that...and I almost believed it!*

I know I need to keep my goal in sight, it is what makes me keep going. But I have let it overwhelm me and blind me to the now...to what I am doing and thinking right this minute. As I pondered this I realized the true beauty of Spark Streaks. Daily goals that help me focus, that will help me move forward at a steady pace. I'm not talking about just weight, but my mental and emotional health as well.

I suppose this should have been obvious to me. I'm relatively intelligent! However, I have always been one to learn things the hard way and that often means I learn it later, rather than sooner! What matters is that I learn it. *sighs*

So I am grateful for the epiphanies that seem to be coming to me more often and I am grateful I am finally listening to them!

I'm grateful to the man who owns the company I work for who gave all his employees a $25 gift card to a grocery store for Thanksgiving. He does this every year, and it still surprises me every year.

I'm grateful for my faire family and the invite to share Thanksgiving with some of them. I have gotten used to spending the holiday(s) by myself(more or sometimes less). I bought my turkey this week and the fixings for my little dinner. I had a whole marathon of a favorite show planned. I really was okay about it. Then Kris called me on Wednesday and invited me to her home for the holiday. My heart sang and a few tears flowed...Of course I said yes and will have my own little Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow evening.

I'm thankful for this lovely weather and for my morning cup of warmth that hugs me from the inside.

I'm grateful for being able to watch the day bloom into being every morning.

I'm grateful for time spent with my fur baby even when she is at her most rotten!

I'm grateful for my family here at Spark People and I love you!

Bright Blessings for a splendiferous weekend!
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HEYRED221 11/17/2012 6:15PM

    I so enjoy your blogs - you are motivating me and making me appreciate some of the many similarities we have to be thankful for - cats, coffee, the sun . . .

Happy Saturday,

Carolyn

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REDDBETSY 11/17/2012 5:40PM

    A) I know what you mean about the evil voice that wants to pretend that the pancakes are okay.
B) the thing that helps me is to set several short(er) term goals.
C) I was ready to spend Thanksgiving alone this year, too, and I am very grateful for the olive branch being extended by my family, too.
D) be strong-- we can do this! Listen to your "spiritual adviser:" Now IS all there is!

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Well, it could be worse...*Smiles*

Thursday, November 15, 2012

I have missed a couple days (and seem to be hyper dyslexic to boot this morning); I've been fighting a cold for the last couple of days and apparently I am losing. *Sighs* Slept hardly a wink last night what with the coughing. Oh well...this too shall pass!

I'm grateful I finally finished the October scanning of authorization approvals and denials. Sheesh! They were never ending (well...so to speak!)! Today i start November. You can tell the year is drawing to a close as we are being swamped with people wanting to get in before the first of the year and starting all over with deductibles.

I'm grateful for my the new health and wellness program my work is asking us to participate in. Since our health insurance premiums are due for a large increase in 2014, my company has actually given us an option (Especially those who smoke)...We can participate in this program for free (for those who smoke, the are required to participate in a smoking cessation program and the owner of the company will pay for any medications required to help them stop smoking. From what I understand, they are not cheap!) and complete only one class by December of next year and we won't see the increase in our portion of the premiums. If people choose not to participate, then they will see the increase.

There have been many grumblings and head shakings over this news. I for one am grateful and excited about the free program and what I can do to keep improving my health.

They offer several classes including a weight management program and a program to help with high blood pressure, high cholesterol,and triglycerides. I am going to participate in those two. Every little thing I can do to get healthy. (my blood pressure has always been normal with the exception of when I was ill, however, my cholesterol levels are through the roof, so this is a no brainer) As Spark People has so beautifully and graciously proved, the best things in life are free and who am I to pass up this great opportunity!?

I am grateful for quiet morning , peaceful nights, and busy days in between. I'm grateful for waking up each morning ready and excited about a new day with new opportunities.

Brightest blessings!

  
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GRANNY2B2 11/15/2012 6:18PM

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HEYRED221 11/15/2012 2:36PM

    That is a great incentive to keep your premiums down - awesome!!!

hope you feel better soon,

Carolyn

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Tuesday Morning Quickie

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

One of my favorite sites is "The Enchanted World!" I get daily affirmations, tarot readings, and other uplifting ideas and confirmations there. I Loved my daily affirmation the Universe thought I needed today! "I love exercising , eating healthy foods and doing what is good for me!" Just what I needed!

I'm grateful for a beautiful new day and another chance to make good decisions!

I'm grateful for modern technology, especially the internet. I love the privilege and opportunity to connect with people all over the world. I love that we can share our lives. It absolutely awes me that I have real time friends in other countries, let alone the ability to keep up my my family and friends in the States!

I'm grateful that I am in such a good and happy place right now. I'm grateful I feel so good and things are going well in my life!

Bright blessings for a beautiful day!

  
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JEWELMOTI 11/14/2012 12:35PM

    Thanks for sharing!

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HEYRED221 11/13/2012 8:26PM

    I am happy for you too! You are lifting me up as well. emoticon

Carolyn

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FLYLADY Epiphany...

Sunday, November 11, 2012

I had a marvelous day yesterday and somehow managed not post a blog. I started it yesterday morning, but didn't get very far. So first off, the things I was grateful for yesterday:

The weather! I was actually chilly yesterday and closed my windows. *sighs happily*

My silly cat, who never feels the need to cuddle on my lap (voluntarily anyway!) unless I have a blanket or afghan thrown over me! Then I can't stop her from jumping up in my lap and kneading my belly. Rotten animal...*smiles softly*

Comfort food on a cold night! Last night I made my first batch of chili. Omigosh it tasted so good! I felt warm and content. Even better, I have enough for five more meals! BONUS!


As for today, I have been puttering, cleaning my kitchen, doing my laundry...Eek! I need to go throw it in the dryer...BRB. Okay, now where was I...Oh yes..busy, but lovely Sunday morning. I'm having lunch with a dear friend today I haven't seen since September. Then it is back to continue my chores.

Ah, yes...chores. So much to do! I have rather a conundrum as far as my chores go. Laundry and kitchen get done all the time. However...*heavy sigh* the rest of my apartment looks like a bloody storage unit! If someone didn't know me, they'd think I am a hoarder. I'm not...I don't keep bringing things into my home and let them accumulate all around me till I have to make path just to navigate.

This is not to say I am not a pack rat! While I have done a fairly good job of weeding through things I don't need and that don't serve me anymore, I still have a long way to go. My problem is that my living room, dining room and bedroom ALL need to be sorted through and organized. I am overwhelmed by the sheer amount of work that needs to be done and I have no idea how to prioritize what needs to be done. I am at a standstill because I have no idea where to start, so nothing gets done.

Then, just a little while ago, I had an epiphany of sorts! If I spent as much time sorting through, chucking, organizing and cleaning as I do thinking about it, I'd be done, for goodness sake! It is so simple really. *shakes head* For someone who is as relatively intelligent as I am, I can be So dense. I miss that calmness and serenity I used to feel, walking into a clean, sweet smelling, inviting home. I have GOT to get my act together! (did you ever have one of those days when you just want to chuck everything and start all over again? It is so tempting!)

Soooooo...here I am. Oh! Not to mention that when my home and life is as cluttered as it is, I have a hard time working and cultivating my spirituality! Everything is interconnected and now is the time to get everything back in order.

Today, I am so grateful for "The FlyLady!" It's been a while since I have followed my flight plan and I know that I don't have to have everything done RIGHT NOW~ I forgot baby steps and doing an area for 15 minutes then moving on to another area. (Even though I want everything done RIGHT NOW!) If I get my tush in gear, theoretically, I could have every thing done by the first of the year. What a great goal!

I am thankful for friends I have not seen in a while. It is very comforting knowing they are a vital part of my life even though we don't get to see each other as often as we would like. I can't wait to see my dear friend today for lunch! We have so much to catch up on.

I am very thankful for hope. How lonely, difficult and bleak life would be with Hope. No matter how far down I fall, it is hope that lifts me up again and helps me to put one foot in front of the other, always moving forward.

I will make it through this project. I will have a lovely home where I can entertain friends. I will finally have a home that is not lost in "CHAOS" *Can't have anybody over syndrome!)

Now, onward and upward! Happy Sunday!

Bright Blessings!
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BMJOHNSON84 11/11/2012 1:49PM

    I know how you feel! I used to be this extreme neat freak, and then something happened, and my house isn't dirty, but cluttered with stuff that I don't need. I keep telling myself I need to clean, organize, and get rid of things, but I never have the motivation to do it, and that makes me depressed when my house isn't neat.
So I have started something like what you do, and try not to beat myself up as much. I have goals, and I do my best to get them done every day, if not all, then at least some. Try not to be too hard on yourself, set goals, and then maybe reward yourself somehow when you meet them, or finish what you were trying to go after! :)

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NDTEACHER1 11/11/2012 1:48PM

    I love that CHAOS-can't have anybody over syndrome that is what I have been living with and die when anyone knocks on the door!

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Huzzah for Friday!

Friday, November 09, 2012

Today's list has a definite theme that may seem rather light and fluffy, which is how I am feeling today! I am full of giggles and silliness today and I'm looking forward to wonderful day!

I am grateful that it is Friday! *Does the Happy Friday Dance*

I am grateful it is Pay Day! (pays a bill and makes grocery list whilst dancing*

I am grateful it is Casual day! *Put on her comfy jeans and tee shirt to dance in*

I am thrilled it is only going to be 59 degrees today! *Adds a few jigs of excitement for cooler weather with possibility of rain to the Friday Dance*

Yes, I am in a particularly silly place this morning and I love it! It's a wonderful way to start the weekend!

And with all the dancing, I've got my fitness done for today! emoticon

Bright Blessings for a Wonderful Friday!
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