Thursday, April 19, 2007
I did it!!! Met my first goal, plus 1 pound! 31 pounds... If I felt better, I would be bouncing off the walls! *smiles* As it stands, I am sedately pleased and ready to set my next goal and work hard to achieve it. I really wish I felt better....I should be so much more excited than I am...*Sighs* Well maybe in a couple of days....
Sunday, April 15, 2007
1.5 pounds til I hit my first goal! I am now Pre-Michael weight. YES! I am able to get into a lovely red lacy, satiny negligee that I had before I met Michael. I was never able to wear it during our marriage (Not that it would have made any difference, but that is another story…no…wait…It is all in the past and has absolutely NO bearing my life now…it is forgotten). In any event, the numbers and inches keep melting away. My sister isn’t going to recognize me.(well, of course she will but you know what I mean! *giggles*)
*GRINS* October is going to be such rush. I tried my garb on and it is TOO big…well, my skirts are falling off my hips and my bodice wants to over lap from the bottom to about half way up. It still supports my girls, but I can breathe easily…*LOL* Anyone who knows anything about bodices, knows that is not necessarily a good thing. My chemises I am not too worried about since I wear them under everything, so I am good there for the time being.
Yep, I Rock!
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
I hit 25 pounds today! I was so jazzed! I couldn't stop grinning and dancing all day! I know that there are better ways of reckoning weight loss, but there is something so satisfying about seeing those numbers creep down. I LOVE the fact my clothes are too big for me and I am just about ready to go try on my faire garb and see how loose it all is! *LOL*
I keep seeing myself in October going to my local Renaissance Faire and seeing my faire family for the first time in a year. *GRINS* I can't wait to see my ex-husband's face, when he sees me for the first time... and my bards...and all my family. THIS is what I picture when I am walking for an hour on my treadmill...me in brand new Garb, with my hair longer, walking about faire as if I owned it.
I know, that sounds awful, but my sense of myself has grown, and I no longer walk around with my head bent down, staring at the sidewalk. I face life head on now! Head held high and usually with a smile on my face. I love who I am and who I am becoming, and that is something I NEVER thought I would hear myself say.
It is not just the weight loss, mind you...that is actually gravy. This has been coming since long before my divorce. All the experiences I have had over the past 12 years have led me to where I am now, including the gift of my marriage and divorce.
Wow, if I am this giddy at 25 pounds, I cannot WAIT to see me at 50! *grins*
Love, Light and Laughter,
Saturday, March 17, 2007
It is never to late-in fiction or in life-to revise. (Nancy Thayer)
Happy St. Patrick's Day! It is a beautiful day (VERY WARM) here in Vegas and my day started pretty well too. I finally hit my 20 pound mark...22.5 actually. 4 pounds gone this week!!! I thought I was never gonna make it. The first 15 wers so easy! (relatively speaking) I have never worked so hard or struggled so much (And I was doing everything correctly) to lose 5 pounds!
Yanno, I hit my highest weight during my marriage (he is an alcoholic) and didn't find out til after I left my ex that I had become a stress eater. When we separated, I dropped 60 pounds in about 3 months, not doing anything special (besides my dancing), because suddenly the stress was gone. It literally fell off.
I ended up putting it on again once I was in a really bad roommate situation, and once I was out of there, I dropped about 20-25 almost immediately, again without much effort. In fact, it seemed once I tried to start "working" on it to lose more, the more stubborn it became! The the harder I dieted, the harder it was to lose the weight. It is just so wierd.
Since setting foot upon this path, I have learned that I wasn't an overeater, I just ate badly all the time,.I was a junky eater! This site I belong to, gives me a calorie range and I very often find that, while eating eating healthy, I struggle to eat up to the lowest end of the range. I find that amazing! I questioned that for the longest time, but now I understand that you have to eat to lose weight. That my body needs the energy to do the work that burns the calories. It is such a conundrum...but I have seen the results.
I have finally learned the difference between "dieting" and "Lifestyle Change." Much to my surprise it is easier in some ways then I thought it would be! I haven't had a soda or chips since the first of the year(Except for half a glass of Dr. Pepper and a handful of chips on my birthday) and I haven't missed them. I buy large quantities of veggies and fruit, I have cut back(But can't cut out entirely cause I love it) red meat, and I drink approximately 10-12 glasses of water a day. I have learned there is no "bad" food or "Good" food. I can incorporate my favourite goodies into my lifestyle. I joined a gym two weeks ago and get up at 4:30 every morning to walk on the treadmill. I am up to 50 minutes and a lttle over two miles. Today I meet with my trainer and learn how to use the machines and weights.
I have to admit that my enthusisam is not as great now as it was at the beginning. I floated for about the first month, recommending left and right the free weight support group I was led to (www. Sparkpeople.com) and getting up at 5 am to dance evey morning. I wish I still had that GUNGHO attitude, that excitiment and thrill.
I often find myself trying to talk myself out of the full 50 minutes on the treadmill. I have to push, lecture and cajole myself to finish. However, once done, there is an intense feeling of pride that I pushed through and finished. Go Figure! I realize now, that I have the deep seated motivation, the determination to be healthier and life my life more succulantly! It isn't all about losing the weight. It is about becoming a happier, healthier, more alive me!
I am just full of contradictions this morning! *LOL* The one thing I am really looking forward to ( beside new clothes and being able to sit cross legged, among other things) is going to my Party in September and my Faire in October and having my friends and Faire Family NOT recognize me(or at the very least having their jaws drop when they see me.) All of my friends and family have never known me any other way but Heavy. Heck, it seems I have never known me any other way but heavy!
Well, time to finish my laundry and get ready to meet with my trainer.
Have a great weekend and be sure to do at least one thing that makes you happy!
Love, Light and Laughter,
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Thebad news :I weighed in today and the numbers didn't budge. *pouts*
The GOOD news: I am down 2.5 inches in my hips, 2 inches in my bust, 1.5 in my waist and .5 in my neck(That neck measurement SP asks for just floors me! *LOL*)
I have worked so hard and am so looking forward to finally hitting the twenty pound mark and it just keeps eluding me! (Yes, LOGICALLY I know it is only a number and there are other ways to gauge success, as is evidenced by the inches lost.)
I just keeping plugging away...fighting to keep the negativity at bay and the motivation in the fore front of my every waking moment. I keep thinking of seeing my faire family's faces when they see me for the first time in a year this coming October. Well and my Sister and Niece, w hom I have not seen in over 3 years! *LOL*
It really is all right, I just have to keep my perspective and keep doing my dancing and going to the gym at O-Dark-Thirty every morning. This too shall pass!
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